help getting a job

[Corinne]

im in quite a pickle right now and i havent been around lately mainly because of internet issues, but now im back in the loop and poking around the site once in a while but i feel guilty for asking for help. to be honest i havent been meditating and yes, im guilty of not exactly taking the time when it is quiet around here to meditate because i keep telling myself i need to get my mind off not having a job and that means diving into the shallow crap on the internet ( online games, movies and shows and stuff ) because every time i want to meditate i start crying and my nose gets stuffed up so i cant do any breathing exercises. i feel guilty because i havent done the dedication except for in my head and i dont even know if i got the whole astral temple thing down so thats something im unsure of and who the hell am i asking for help with getting a job, all the gods must be busy doing other things rather than have time to run my errands and get me a job cause im too much of a failure to get one myself. im pretty damn lost right now and ive gotten a loving kick in the ass before, so im looking for one now. anyone got any ideas about where i should start, or who i should be asking for help?