Hello Dear Brothers and Sisters!
I am new member here, just signed yesterday to the group and I would like to introduce myself and say hello to all of you and also say couple of words sharing my thoughts and experience. Although I am new to this group I am not new to the idea of satanism. I am 40 years old and I worship our Father Satan for last 25 years of my life. I live in Poland, an eastern European country, unfortunately a country ruled by xtians for last 1000 years, where you could get killed for such ideas as satanism. I was raised also in xtians community but I always had a feeling that something is not right with this. Everything started when I was a kid. I was 16 years old and I was very sick, almost dying. I caught a very serious pneumonia and doctors were not able to find a cure (remember, it was 25 years ago in god's forgotten country
). I was praying to the xtian god at that time asking him why I am sick so seriously and why I have to die at such young age, but of course there was no response. After few days and nights of such prayers the night has come when I knew that the end is near. It was a midnight, I was not able to catch my breath, lying lonely in bed with very high temperature. Suddenly a thought came to my mind. If there is no answer to my prayers, if the xtian god don't want to listen and wants my death is he really so good and merciful? Or maybe he is the most cruel creature in the world? And then I said with the last breath âif the xtian god doesn't want to listen to my prayers maybe Satan will? Please heal me o great Lucifer!â - and a minute later I fell a sleep. On the next day I woke up completely healed!!! Doctors were not able to explain this. This has changed my mind and my vision of life completely. I rejected all teachings of xtians, devoting my life from that moment only to Father Satan. From that night, I was having strange experience from time to time. When sitting lonely in my room at night (reading a book or listening to the music) I was able to catch something with just the corner of my eye â" a person in black robe standing in the corner of my room. When I looked there, there was nothing just empty space but the feeling existed as someone is watching over me, protecting me â" and I can tell you â" it was wonderful feeling. That feeling just disappeared few years later. You can only imagine how hard was to get any books in such xtian infected society on worshiping Satan. I could only train meditating and yoga and devoting my thoughts to my Father. When I was 20+ I got La Vey's Black Bible. At last something wonderful to read. It became my foundation of philosophy at that time but very quickly I realized that for me, a very important part is missing in this book â" a spiritual part was so important to me, a personification of my believes was missing in that book so I started to develop my own vision. Another couple of years has passed, time was quite busy for me but always there was few minutes during the night to meditate and pray to my beloved Father. Something that was missing in my life was a group of friends that share the same vision. That is why I started to search for something more serious over the internet. Over last month I had the strong feeling that I need to re-think my life. Something was telling me that I have to take a next step and do a ritual for my Father. I've never had such feeling before. And then I've found JoyOfSatan web page. At this point I would like to say âTHANK YOUâ to one person. I've found a lots of texts written by High Priest Maxine Dietrich, even few pod casts. Dear Priestess your words were a joy to my heart and a healing balm to my soul. I feel stronger now by your words and more bravely looking forward to the new chapter of my life. And again after so many years without a sign from my Father, I feel the presence of an energy around me now and every time I read Your text, a presence of someone ancient and powerful and this is again wonderful feeling.
Sorry for such long introduction but I had to share it with someone eventually. Sorry for my bad english but it is not my native language and sometimes it gives me lots of trouble especially when trying to read more sophisticated philosophical writings
Kind Regards to You all!
Hail to my Beloved Father Satan!!!
I am new member here, just signed yesterday to the group and I would like to introduce myself and say hello to all of you and also say couple of words sharing my thoughts and experience. Although I am new to this group I am not new to the idea of satanism. I am 40 years old and I worship our Father Satan for last 25 years of my life. I live in Poland, an eastern European country, unfortunately a country ruled by xtians for last 1000 years, where you could get killed for such ideas as satanism. I was raised also in xtians community but I always had a feeling that something is not right with this. Everything started when I was a kid. I was 16 years old and I was very sick, almost dying. I caught a very serious pneumonia and doctors were not able to find a cure (remember, it was 25 years ago in god's forgotten country
Sorry for such long introduction but I had to share it with someone eventually. Sorry for my bad english but it is not my native language and sometimes it gives me lots of trouble especially when trying to read more sophisticated philosophical writings
Kind Regards to You all!
Hail to my Beloved Father Satan!!!