Having trouble getting started w/ 40 Day Meditation

[experiment69x]

Upon learning of the infiltrator "Ihavethetruth666," and reading his sickening posts, I had decided its time for me to begin training. Ive looked over thr basics of the 40 day meditation and I understand it. Morning and night, constantly. But..
Im having trouble. Ive stopped taking my antidepressants, Ive stopped letting them inject me with their controlling drugs and started blocking it out. I want to meditate but my body won't let me..My legs will tingle and become restless, I cant focus... and I have this sexual urge.Now, Ive always had this sexual urge. And from that I believe is where I can gain most of my energy from sex. Draining my partners via sex. Almost like a succubus, in the folklore sense.Whenever I am frustrated, envious, angry, or even just thinking about it, I get this sensation in between my legs, its around my clitoris. And it triggers my restlessness. I need help. 
Ive tried tea, tension calmer, St. Johns Wort, Chamomile, taking baths, stretching... but I dont want to ask Father for help. I feel as though Ive been asking to much and hes expecting me to try on my own.

 

[Fatherschild1]

Beat it,just beat it.Meditate right after you do.You tried that?

 

[ohnoitsmook1]

What Fatherschild said is true. Due to me masturbating 2+ times a day, and meditating directly afterwards, I am keeping up a constant circulation of sexual energy which helps me maintain spiritual progress.
Just beware of some enemy entities that attempt to siphon your raised sexual energies when you reach orgasm... I'm still dealing with those things.

 

[oxaroc]

You just have to be strong and just fkin do it!
Don't even think about meditating, just stop whatever useless shit you're doing and meditate. Don't you even stop for a second and hesitate.
Imagine you're in a bad dream and it just keep going on and on and on and it never stops, and the only way to wake up is to meditate!

At first, meditating regularly can be a hard thing. it's not easy and that's what makes it more rewarding. it's just like a challenge and every single one of us with enough effort can beat this challenge!

I personally suffered from depression for 4 years, i didn't take any medication for it. the only way i beat my depression was by meditating. it was so hard to just gather whatever left of my power and do it, but after few weeks it became easier and easier until it became the best thing i can ever do! it just makes me feel good, it made happy again!

I was in this endless loop of depression, dead from the inside. no matter what i do i just don't feel good. when i realized that i'm stuck in this shitty loop i just knew i had to get out of it, i was already a Satanist and aware of how good meditating is, but i just never did it! that's how bad depression is! it makes you not want to advance or even do anything with your life!

I just knew i had to wake up from that nightmare, and i just fkin did!! i didn't look back nor stopped and think about it. And that's exactly what you should do!!

Now for your sexual urge, i honestly am not sure what the best solution is. for me masturbating is the temporary solution

For curing depression, you can either do what i did which is just casual meditation and eventually it will go away, or you can try vibrating WUNJO rune with a rosary, two times a day with 12 hours in between (preferably at 00:00 / 12:00 or at 06:00 / 18:00, or even at 03:00 / 15:00  and at 09:00 / 21:00 might do);

Futhark/Odin   Scroll down almost to the middle of the page and you'll find the WUNJO rune, imagine it while vibrating it, and imagine a white-gold energy filling your body and filling the rune and with each vibration it becomes brighter and brighter.

How to use a Satanic rosary;

Satanic Rosary
  You can make a homemade one easily, i wouldn't recommend buying one as it can be made wrongly or it might have bad energy implanted to it (that's what i heard).
NOTE: If you're not sure how to make one i can show you my rosary and explain to you how i made one, just leave an answer here.

You should vibrate it for 40 days straight, NEVER STOP!! you might counter problems that prevents you from stopping this working, and mostly the problems come from the enemy, whatever happen just be strong and keep working on it, don't skip a day!

For every big pud in the rosary you should say an affirmation, depends on what you're working on. For you case you should affirm something like this; "The energies of WUNJO rune are permanently banishing all sorts of sadness and depression from my mind and soul." Just affirm what you find better!

How to vibrate the WUNJO rune
Click here to download The Runic Kabalah;http://www.exposingchristianity.com/Run ... o%20CD.zip
There will be mp3 files in a zip file, after you extract the files there will be two folders inside, one is called Germanic and the other Icelandic , you'll find WUNJO rune in the Germanic forlder.

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Judith Auora Ryan | Astrologer, Clairvoyant & Feng Shui Consultant    unfortunately i'm not sure how accurate this site is, as the most trusted site is down for the time being

This is the site i use:http://www.moontracks.com/void_of_cours ... dates.html

Just be strong! you have the power in you, just reach it and use it!
HAIL SATAN FOREVER!!!!

 

[blutkrieger666]

Very subtle fatherschild - Loll!

 

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Wow, Ohnoitsmook, I've had that happen to me a lot before (enemy entities attempting to siphon my energies just before or during orgasm) and they succeeded many times I'm sad to say. A strong Aura of Protection definitely helps. Also, if you feel it coming (no pun intended) in advance (I found I could tell when they were going to try), stop masturbating for a second and "reset" your thoughts on your "object" of  fantasy. That usually works for me...
Hail Satan!"Du bist nichts ohne dein Volk und deine Sippe"
Malpirgi Zodinu

 

[Fatherschild1]

So was she...not.

 

[descipleofthegods13]

This site works the best in my opinion for tracking the moon's activity.

Astrology Today: Moon Phase, Moon Sign, Moon Void of Course, Eclipses, Apogee, Perigee, Retrograde Planets and more   You have to put in your location to get accurate results. There is also a lunar calendar which show's you the moon's daily activities. Once you have put in your accurate location it will also show you accurate results.

Hail Satan.

 

[oxaroc]

Thanks for sharing this site, i already like it more! ^-^

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!!!!