Blitzkreig [JG said:
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Korpi said:
I've had a lot trouble with this one! It's the only meditation I've experienced nothing.
I try and "see", and only see the blackness of my eyes. Am I doing something wrong?
Keep in mind that you should not expect crazy visualizations on your first try. At first, you may "imagine" the sound's visual component, as opposed to actually seeing it. As you practice both your astral sight AND this activity, then you will start to see more naturally.
Don't worry though, because you are still training the synesthesia part of your brain simply by practicing. Don't be discouraged.
Are you implying that meditation is fake. And your just thinking in a very specific way?
For example like my saying goes, "If I can think I did it, so why do I have to do it?"
The way you word it is it seems like meditation kinda like Henu said in a reply to me, basically if I catch his drift, he's like UNLESS you enter a trance meditation don't work.
I've spent my entire life thinking, processing, contemplating. So then why am I not even an iota advanced.
I sit there do chakra spinning to speed of light or MerKaBa and feel jack shit. Like Kopri said, I see nothing. Okay then it reminds me of talking about Falun Gong a few years ago and asking what your supposed to be thinking, processing, and contemplating while doing it.
People were like either blank minded, tranced out, or single-pointed. For example I'm doing hatha yoga and it's like your supposed to eventually learn to single or void and do it maybe in trance at some point.
But if a trance is impossible for me. Maybe I'm in a trance and it's too subtle maybe I need to visit a hypnotherapist and have them program a count-down sequence a safety so I can dive down and enter altered states. Down to alpha to ultimate alpha, theta, ultimate theta, delta etc.etc.etc.
I'd like to feel and see meditation. And I'd like to be able to meditate without my mind "losing" it's ability to think, create, visualize.
I can spend my time reading on people cleaning their aura and I visualize and even have thoughts pop into my visual spectrum and see white-gold and the descriptions. But the instant I practice meditation my thoughts disappear and even become counter-thoughts.
For example visualizing brilliant white-gold to clean only for the color to be grimy, dark, dreary and almost grimy black and or grey tones. Sometimes it happens sometimes I visualize a strong color.
But overall what am I supposed to be thinking, processing, and contemplating while meditating. All my mind has is the same thing. I do a meditation I have thoughts, sounds, background music of song or songs in the background of my mind.
My foreground is silent, my internal voice that speaks when I want it to speak is silent. But my mind is actively thinking, processing, contemplating and spending it's time listening to music like the double memetic story of Hanuman.
Hanuman's story is the anti-Ganeshian way the monkey army is much like the monkey mind of the person. While in the second story the Hanuman monkey army is reddened to be the Kundalini fiery energy that can drive through your system like a wild monkey army flowing everywhere.
At this point with my meditation; clean/protect, spinning speed of light, merkaba, hatha yoga.
I feel nothing. It's just exercises I perform to spend time. I'm starting to think spirituality is another, exorbitant amount of time to pass the time and simply perform it to do good. Like religion or other spirituality.
Frankly after spending these last few years actively meditating it's pointless being in square fucking one and being unable to void, trance, nor single-pointed. I hate practicing void, trance, and single-pointed as I don't understand how humanly possible it is to treat the mind like a computer.
I know we are a samadhi, superconscious computer but my computer doesn't work that way. Yeah I work like a computer yeah I act like a computer. Yeah I have my Zevism;DD Same shit; different day.
But how does spirituality work if my mind can see it contemplate it and thinking at a high extreme level. But when I actually perform the meditations my mind fails to do it.
I'm sorta like copy paste rearrange. I follow a meditation I do it nothing happens. For example the other day someone said, don't do MerKaBa you'll aggrandize your negativity. And? So what? It doesn't work it's just something people do to spend time and feel better.
If trance, void, single-pointed actually produces results. Then meditation and the occult is pointless cause you must be altered to have experiences.
Trance isn't necessary to do. But apparently for people it seems like it's the only way. At least for me.
I spin my chakras to the speed of light. I go, "Center muladhara chakra spin and vibrate at the speed of light". Then my single affirmation, "My center muladhara chakra spins and vibrates at the speed of light, now and forever, in a fully positive, healthy, and best way for me."
Nothing happens I visualize this thing spin and nothing happens.
Is JoS and Spirituality fake and we are just pretending cause we are Herman Roseblatting ourselves it was real cause it was in our minds?
How in the hell does spending 20 years accomplish nothing. I had one member go you could have been kundalini risen by now. No it doesn't work that way kundalini takes years if not decades to accomplish.
Do I need a hypnotherapist or teach me trance and learn about it?
I apologize for my despondent thoughts and naturally negative personality. I do have a hateful angry personality cause I'm cancer and cancers are always pissed off especially with my chart.
For example coming up there is a freeing the soul date. I was doing it but stopped to change my affirmation. My new affirmation is "I am fully free from any and all suppressed traumas, now and forever, in a fully positive, healthy, and best way for me."x9
I shouldn't have focused on just birth trauma I should have focused on any and all trauma and kept the affirmation short so it actually works and isn't hindered by too much clauses.
But I sat there doing Ansuz x108 and I don't feel jack shit. I see and visualize the F rune symbol and it's like I try my hardest but I don't feel any electricity nor activities nor nothing. I do it I sit there and do it.
Over the past few years I keep getting criticized by my family for mantras and whatnot. Like my stupid father who I hate, do you know what your doing? does vibrations make me feel weird? Why do you keep doing stupid shit with your mouth and chanting that shit outloud?
Am I just a Satanist and religious/spiritual person for the sake cause I hate mainstream religions and I simply want a different thing?
Like I said am I just preoccupying myself with JoS and Zevism to simply be good or whatever supposed to be?
For example right now as of the time of this post. We have the ethics on revenge, hatred, illwill, and returning justice.
Isn't it easier just to state buy a knife or a gun and a flash it to the person to shut them up?
I'm going to continue even if I'm wasting my time and doing nothing and meditation is fake and just an illusion by the masses to make up for the fact that life is completely and utterly dreadful and boring and a worthless piece of shit that serves no purpose.
But I'm going to continue anyways and see where this leads? If it leads to ruin so be it I got my next life better up. Maybe I reincarnate into a better body and better society and improve myself for the first time.
But that is life a worthless piece of shit that serves no purpose. Oh well like my old saying goes, "Better luck next life".
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Btw these are just my feelings and thoughts of the day starting reading this and processing. This just a mental vomiting of my negatives.
If meditation and JoS serves you well and your advancing and and upgrading yourself. Cool if not like me then it's okay don't worry eventually something happens. Or jack shit nothing happens and I have something better in the next life when I reincarnate.
