Having a rough time

[firebird894]

I think I just need a bit of reasurance that this is a stage and will pass as I read on the JOS Important info on meditation.
Ive been doing meditations every day for about 2 months, some days have been really hard and I have only managed short 10 minutes in the shower or before bed. Ive opened my third eye, crown, hands, feet, shoulders, temples and some smaller ones around the forhead and ears. Well I think I have activated most of those. I am nervous about the throat which I believe is next, and don't know why, I feel like crying when I do my daily 'cleanse' and get to the throat. I also just realised tonight while looking a page up for another member I have my solar Chakra the wrong way down.

The past week my sleeping habits have gone really crazy I either can't get enough sleep or I can't sleep at all. I barely got out of bed during the day for a few days, and then after a few hours needed more sleep. Then woke up every few hours then didn't sleep for 24 hours at least and have been feeling really really restless and strange. Uncomefortable, cranky, paranoid trouble focussing on anything for very long then suddenly tired again, leg jerks when I am meditating funny twitches.

Ive had some very vivid dreams and a very strange meditation I posted on another board I would have put it here but it didnt seem like it had to do with spiritual warfare.
This might not either but Im worried about whats happening to me and if I should take some time off warefare to get myself sorted out before doing another ritual.
I have not felt any kind of negative entities or weirdness of that nature now for some time really nothing much anyway. Before I used to have a lot of freaky stuff going on at night, then it stopped after my dedication. Last night while I was 'out of sorts' I decided to just sit up and have a movie night and enjoy myself and watched some movies... nothing to do with spooks or horror in fact this happened in the middle of 'The Man from Snowy River' old Australian movie about horses and clashing social classes I like it for the horses so it wasn't a movie that was 'scary' but right in the middle of it something scared the shit out of me and it was really embarrassing afterward I could have kicked my own ass.

I was sitting in the dark, screen door opens out to a deck up high from the ground and I am in the middle of nowhere really and have a gaurd dog locked gates a person cannot get up there in one peice unnoticed my dog would rip them up and bark like a maniac. Something was at the screen door and the dogs didnt make a sound and then there was a creepy feeling comming over me and a loud rattling shaking sound it happened so fast I didn't know for sure if something was rattling the actual door or hitting it and I jumped up, screamed like an idiot went to bolt out of the room in the dark smashed my head into the door, In the moment I felt like I was going to die.

Then I felt really stupid, nothing else happened noone was there but I didn't go to sleep. I tried meditating later and it just didn't go well it was a big effort to see 'white light' around me it kept turning dark and then that freaked me out so I tried blue flames instead that was a bit easier.

Sorry guys for the length of my post and rambling I just needed to talk about it I think, rather than keep worrying over it.

I know changes will happen and some unpleasant experiences, feelings etc with transformation I just didn't really expect much so soon. I felt great till this past week.

Hail Satan

 

[Matt1]

I can't tell you how many times I've gone through this same exact thing. Yes it is just a stage and is probably nothing to really worry about. Bad combinations of planets may be the cause. I just recently went through one of these but i'm feeling much better now. Take it easy and Stay strong firebird! Hail Satan

--- In , "firebird894" <firebird894@... wrote:

I think I just need a bit of reasurance that this is a stage and will pass as I read on the JOS Important info on meditation.
Ive been doing meditations every day for about 2 months, some days have been really hard and I have only managed short 10 minutes in the shower or before bed. Ive opened my third eye, crown, hands, feet, shoulders, temples and some smaller ones around the forhead and ears. Well I think I have activated most of those. I am nervous about the throat which I believe is next, and don't know why, I feel like crying when I do my daily 'cleanse' and get to the throat. I also just realised tonight while looking a page up for another member I have my solar Chakra the wrong way down.

The past week my sleeping habits have gone really crazy I either can't get enough sleep or I can't sleep at all. I barely got out of bed during the day for a few days, and then after a few hours needed more sleep. Then woke up every few hours then didn't sleep for 24 hours at least and have been feeling really really restless and strange. Uncomefortable, cranky, paranoid trouble focussing on anything for very long then suddenly tired again, leg jerks when I am meditating funny twitches.

Ive had some very vivid dreams and a very strange meditation I posted on another board I would have put it here but it didnt seem like it had to do with spiritual warfare.
This might not either but Im worried about whats happening to me and if I should take some time off warefare to get myself sorted out before doing another ritual.
I have not felt any kind of negative entities or weirdness of that nature now for some time really nothing much anyway. Before I used to have a lot of freaky stuff going on at night, then it stopped after my dedication. Last night while I was 'out of sorts' I decided to just sit up and have a movie night and enjoy myself and watched some movies... nothing to do with spooks or horror in fact this happened in the middle of 'The Man from Snowy River' old Australian movie about horses and clashing social classes I like it for the horses so it wasn't a movie that was 'scary' but right in the middle of it something scared the shit out of me and it was really embarrassing afterward I could have kicked my own ass.

I was sitting in the dark, screen door opens out to a deck up high from the ground and I am in the middle of nowhere really and have a gaurd dog locked gates a person cannot get up there in one peice unnoticed my dog would rip them up and bark like a maniac. Something was at the screen door and the dogs didnt make a sound and then there was a creepy feeling comming over me and a loud rattling shaking sound it happened so fast I didn't know for sure if something was rattling the actual door or hitting it and I jumped up, screamed like an idiot went to bolt out of the room in the dark smashed my head into the door, In the moment I felt like I was going to die.

Then I felt really stupid, nothing else happened noone was there but I didn't go to sleep. I tried meditating later and it just didn't go well it was a big effort to see 'white light' around me it kept turning dark and then that freaked me out so I tried blue flames instead that was a bit easier.

Sorry guys for the length of my post and rambling I just needed to talk about it I think, rather than keep worrying over it.

I know changes will happen and some unpleasant experiences, feelings etc with transformation I just didn't really expect much so soon. I felt great till this past week.

Hail Satan

 

[Matt1]

BTW your throat chakra is the seat of your emotions that is probably why you feel like crying when you work with it. This is good though, it shows that your chakras are open and working. Do what you think is right...

~Hail Satan

--- In , "firebird894" <firebird894@... wrote:

I think I just need a bit of reasurance that this is a stage and will pass as I read on the JOS Important info on meditation.
Ive been doing meditations every day for about 2 months, some days have been really hard and I have only managed short 10 minutes in the shower or before bed. Ive opened my third eye, crown, hands, feet, shoulders, temples and some smaller ones around the forhead and ears. Well I think I have activated most of those. I am nervous about the throat which I believe is next, and don't know why, I feel like crying when I do my daily 'cleanse' and get to the throat. I also just realised tonight while looking a page up for another member I have my solar Chakra the wrong way down.

The past week my sleeping habits have gone really crazy I either can't get enough sleep or I can't sleep at all. I barely got out of bed during the day for a few days, and then after a few hours needed more sleep. Then woke up every few hours then didn't sleep for 24 hours at least and have been feeling really really restless and strange. Uncomefortable, cranky, paranoid trouble focussing on anything for very long then suddenly tired again, leg jerks when I am meditating funny twitches.

Ive had some very vivid dreams and a very strange meditation I posted on another board I would have put it here but it didnt seem like it had to do with spiritual warfare.
This might not either but Im worried about whats happening to me and if I should take some time off warefare to get myself sorted out before doing another ritual.
I have not felt any kind of negative entities or weirdness of that nature now for some time really nothing much anyway. Before I used to have a lot of freaky stuff going on at night, then it stopped after my dedication. Last night while I was 'out of sorts' I decided to just sit up and have a movie night and enjoy myself and watched some movies... nothing to do with spooks or horror in fact this happened in the middle of 'The Man from Snowy River' old Australian movie about horses and clashing social classes I like it for the horses so it wasn't a movie that was 'scary' but right in the middle of it something scared the shit out of me and it was really embarrassing afterward I could have kicked my own ass.

I was sitting in the dark, screen door opens out to a deck up high from the ground and I am in the middle of nowhere really and have a gaurd dog locked gates a person cannot get up there in one peice unnoticed my dog would rip them up and bark like a maniac. Something was at the screen door and the dogs didnt make a sound and then there was a creepy feeling comming over me and a loud rattling shaking sound it happened so fast I didn't know for sure if something was rattling the actual door or hitting it and I jumped up, screamed like an idiot went to bolt out of the room in the dark smashed my head into the door, In the moment I felt like I was going to die.

Then I felt really stupid, nothing else happened noone was there but I didn't go to sleep. I tried meditating later and it just didn't go well it was a big effort to see 'white light' around me it kept turning dark and then that freaked me out so I tried blue flames instead that was a bit easier.

Sorry guys for the length of my post and rambling I just needed to talk about it I think, rather than keep worrying over it.

I know changes will happen and some unpleasant experiences, feelings etc with transformation I just didn't really expect much so soon. I felt great till this past week.

Hail Satan

 

[firebird894]

Thanks that would explain some stuff, last week I had a funny feeling in my throat like I needed to cough up something but there was nothing there it drove me nuts for a few days, I considered I might have a virus or something but no fever or chills so could explain it maybe. Im going to try the vibrations.

Hail Satan

--- In , "Matt" <shinobi9help@... wrote:

BTW your throat chakra is the seat of your emotions that is probably why you feel like crying when you work with it. This is good though, it shows that your chakras are open and working. Do what you think is right...

~Hail Satan

--- In , "firebird894" <firebird894@ wrote:

I think I just need a bit of reasurance that this is a stage and will pass as I read on the JOS Important info on meditation.
Ive been doing meditations every day for about 2 months, some days have been really hard and I have only managed short 10 minutes in the shower or before bed. Ive opened my third eye, crown, hands, feet, shoulders, temples and some smaller ones around the forhead and ears. Well I think I have activated most of those. I am nervous about the throat which I believe is next, and don't know why, I feel like crying when I do my daily 'cleanse' and get to the throat. I also just realised tonight while looking a page up for another member I have my solar Chakra the wrong way down.

The past week my sleeping habits have gone really crazy I either can't get enough sleep or I can't sleep at all. I barely got out of bed during the day for a few days, and then after a few hours needed more sleep. Then woke up every few hours then didn't sleep for 24 hours at least and have been feeling really really restless and strange. Uncomefortable, cranky, paranoid trouble focussing on anything for very long then suddenly tired again, leg jerks when I am meditating funny twitches.

Ive had some very vivid dreams and a very strange meditation I posted on another board I would have put it here but it didnt seem like it had to do with spiritual warfare.
This might not either but Im worried about whats happening to me and if I should take some time off warefare to get myself sorted out before doing another ritual.
I have not felt any kind of negative entities or weirdness of that nature now for some time really nothing much anyway. Before I used to have a lot of freaky stuff going on at night, then it stopped after my dedication. Last night while I was 'out of sorts' I decided to just sit up and have a movie night and enjoy myself and watched some movies... nothing to do with spooks or horror in fact this happened in the middle of 'The Man from Snowy River' old Australian movie about horses and clashing social classes I like it for the horses so it wasn't a movie that was 'scary' but right in the middle of it something scared the shit out of me and it was really embarrassing afterward I could have kicked my own ass.

I was sitting in the dark, screen door opens out to a deck up high from the ground and I am in the middle of nowhere really and have a gaurd dog locked gates a person cannot get up there in one peice unnoticed my dog would rip them up and bark like a maniac. Something was at the screen door and the dogs didnt make a sound and then there was a creepy feeling comming over me and a loud rattling shaking sound it happened so fast I didn't know for sure if something was rattling the actual door or hitting it and I jumped up, screamed like an idiot went to bolt out of the room in the dark smashed my head into the door, In the moment I felt like I was going to die.

Then I felt really stupid, nothing else happened noone was there but I didn't go to sleep. I tried meditating later and it just didn't go well it was a big effort to see 'white light' around me it kept turning dark and then that freaked me out so I tried blue flames instead that was a bit easier.

Sorry guys for the length of my post and rambling I just needed to talk about it I think, rather than keep worrying over it.

I know changes will happen and some unpleasant experiences, feelings etc with transformation I just didn't really expect much so soon. I felt great till this past week.

Hail Satan

 

[Allison P]

Hang in there , Sister! I'm sure all will be fine soon. Probably is
just a stage. Though I admit to not having experienced such myself,
but that doesn't really mean anything. Anyways, just stay strong and
ride it out best you can. Hail father Satan!

On 4/1/12, firebird894 <firebird894@... wrote:
Shit I'm real glad things have worked out well for you, and hope they keep
getting better, I can't imagine how tough that must have been. Ive been
single nearly 7 years now I kind of gave up looking after the last one. I
was kind of hoping my life might lighten up and give me a break from shit
even for a while lol I need a rest, it rarely does Ive learned to look for
the small things each day that just get me through by the skin of my teeth
and be happy for what some might ignore. The sun is out this morning it's
going to be warm nice day I had better get my ass outside and make the most
of it.

One thing that is worrying me a lot is what happens to our loved ones when
they die if their athiests, even our pets I worry about them too if they
will be taken care of if Father has somewhere for them, Ive lost a lot of
loved ones and I will see more pass yet. Ive had all kinds of fears and
worries comming up in me about these sorts of things. What got me through
before was always believing id see them again, but I worry the enemy is
going to use it against me one day when Im at a weak point.

Hail Satan

--- In , Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
wrote:

You will find that as you grow and advance,you will experience many
things,but they are always for our own good.Last year I lost my house from
a storm,that I had for ten years,my marriage that I had for 3 years,and my
job that I had for 11 years.All in the same year.But I now have a new
house,that is paid for,just got this security career,and when I made the
decision to end my marriage with my xtian wife,I met and will marry my
soul mate,whom is respected member here,and some know her very well.So as
you can see shit happens,but you will always find that,as we find the
truth in our life and follow it,Father Satan and the Gods of Elysium,are
always there in all of it with us.So just enjoy the journey,because if it
is anything like my life,it will get very real.And a special thanks to my
Jos family and clergy,because I could not have made it where I am with out
all of your support.

Hail Satan

BrianÂ



--- On Fri, 3/30/12, firebird894 <firebird894@... wrote:

From: firebird894 <firebird894@...
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Having a rough time
To:
Date: Friday, March 30, 2012, 10:56 AM
















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I think I just need a bit of reasurance that this is a stage and
will pass as I read on the JOS Important info on meditation.

Ive been doing meditations every day for about 2 months, some days have
been really hard and I have only managed short 10 minutes in the shower or
before bed. Ive opened my third eye, crown, hands, feet, shoulders,
temples and some smaller ones around the forhead and ears. Well I think I
have activated most of those. I am nervous about the throat which I
believe is next, and don't know why, I feel like crying when I do my daily
'cleanse' and get to the throat. I also just realised tonight while
looking a page up for another member I have my solar Chakra the wrong way
down.



The past week my sleeping habits have gone really crazy I either can't get
enough sleep or I can't sleep at all. I barely got out of bed during the
day for a few days, and then after a few hours needed more sleep. Then
woke up every few hours then didn't sleep for 24 hours at least and have
been feeling really really restless and strange. Uncomefortable, cranky,
paranoid trouble focussing on anything for very long then suddenly tired
again, leg jerks when I am meditating funny twitches.



Ive had some very vivid dreams and a very strange meditation I posted on
another board I would have put it here but it didnt seem like it had to do
with spiritual warfare.

This might not either but Im worried about whats happening to me and if I
should take some time off warefare to get myself sorted out before doing
another ritual.

I have not felt any kind of negative entities or weirdness of that nature
now for some time really nothing much anyway. Before I used to have a lot
of freaky stuff going on at night, then it stopped after my dedication.
Last night while I was 'out of sorts' I decided to just sit up and have a
movie night and enjoy myself and watched some movies... nothing to do with
spooks or horror in fact this happened in the middle of 'The Man from
Snowy River' old Australian movie about horses and clashing social classes
I like it for the horses so it wasn't a movie that was 'scary' but right
in the middle of it something scared the shit out of me and it was really
embarrassing afterward I could have kicked my own ass.



I was sitting in the dark, screen door opens out to a deck up high from
the ground and I am in the middle of nowhere really and have a gaurd dog
locked gates a person cannot get up there in one peice unnoticed my dog
would rip them up and bark like a maniac. Something was at the screen door
and the dogs didnt make a sound and then there was a creepy feeling
comming over me and a loud rattling shaking sound it happened so fast I
didn't know for sure if something was rattling the actual door or hitting
it and I jumped up, screamed like an idiot went to bolt out of the room in
the dark smashed my head into the door, In the moment I felt like I was
going to die.



Then I felt really stupid, nothing else happened noone was there but I
didn't go to sleep. I tried meditating later and it just didn't go well it
was a big effort to see 'white light' around me it kept turning dark and
then that freaked me out so I tried blue flames instead that was a bit
easier.



Sorry guys for the length of my post and rambling I just needed to talk
about it I think, rather than keep worrying over it.



I know changes will happen and some unpleasant experiences, feelings etc
with transformation I just didn't really expect much so soon. I felt great
till this past week.



Hail Satan