When I was in church once as a really young kid I remember I was playing under the pews with something. It didn't Dawn on me till then what the place was apparently. I had this thought "oh no not this Jesus shit again" I may have stated it out loud too don't remember. I do not know what I was remembering but its how I ended up feeling for years dealing with it. Going in and out of believing it I guess depending on how much of that energy from it was around at any given time I don't know. But I didn't like it very much. That is why I started looking elsewhere first the new age then Satanism after I found the site.