There are times when the enemy will get in your way. I suggest you build a stronger aura of protection, and use the rune Sowilo found on the Joy of Satan website under runes.
I have the enemy trying to interrupt my meditations as well but it's only mental/telepathic harassment. Void meditation goes a long way in tuning out the enemy. In my honest opinion the SURYAYE meditation is a meditation everyone should do daily if they are ready for it. The enemy is constantly trying to meddle in our lives and the SURYAYE meditation blocks a lot of horrible things that would otherwise happen to you if you don't do it.
There are also times when one can feel hopeless like Satan or the Gods have left them. I assure you that is the enemy lying to you. Satan does not leave His own. The enemy is doing this to you because they are scared of you and are trying to get you to turn around and return to xianity, or something else fruitless.
I have to deal with Corrupted Beings to a lesser or greater degree every day of my life, not that there's much they can do to me except for possess people around me in an attempt to troll me with ridiculous attacks or telepathic harassment.
My advice to you is to never stop doing the SURYAYE meditation and make sure to begin a 40 or 80 day Sowilo working. Also make sure you didn't start your meditations on a void of course moon.
The Sowilo rune will give you strength you have been looking for.
Here's how to track the moon. Make sure to put in your accurate location for accurate results.
www.lunarium.co.uk
Hail Satan.
Hail Lady Agares.
Hail Lady Beleth