Friends and Loyalty

[First L]

My grandfather passed away recently. He was a generous man who always acted selflessly. His death hurt a lot of people and because he was such a public figure, there is a lot of media about it. It is not such a surprise that we are getting a lot of support.

My brother had friends whom he had not seen in over 2 years show up and console him. My mom's friend came in out of town to be with her. My dad worked closely with granddad so he has all the media and friends of the family, including his brother, there for him. I, on the other hand, am somewhat anti-social.

I broke up with my friends from high school because, after becoming a Satanist, I realized they were greedy ticks sucking the life out of me and cared more for themselves than anything else. Maybe I'm just being greedy but not once had they patted me on the back or tried to make ME laugh when I was crying and depressed. So, no help there.

My only friend left, I moved out with twice. She was nice. Always having a good time and when all this happen she was the first one I turned to (because she's the only one I could turn to). So I invited her to the reception. And she showed her true colors. I have never seen anyone more self absorbed. She texted me saying she "might be able to make but her husband comes home at that time and he'll be tired. plus i'm going to make cookies and i'll leave some for you." etc.

That's... stupid. I'm not wrong in thinking this right? Would normal people skip out on their friends, who break down CRYING in front of you, to make cookies? I don't even LIKE the cookies she made. Well, I still had some faith in her and went anyway. Nope. Did not show up.

Really I should have seen it coming. She and her husband sit on their asses all day playing Sims and/or WoW. They are part of the reason I quit the damn games because I did not want to end up like them!

I consider myself loyal. Foremost to Father Enki and my Guardian. Then my family. And, if I had any, to my friends. But so far I've seen I'm the only one who thinks loyalty means half a crap these days.

I'm sorry for ranting, you guys. But I really needed to get this off my chest. My granddad was a good man. I know this is said about most dead people but this time it's true. If you had met him, xian or not, he would have been your friend. And that's what I need right now. A friend.

Hail Father Enki!
Hail Lord Dagon!
Hail All the Mighty Gods of Duat!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

Sorry to hear all that Brother.But sometimes when we make a decision to follow Enki/Satan,we loose or even decide to end some relationships,that are not healthy for us.And yes it can be quite lonely,but don't forget that Father always realizes where we are at in life.I am convinced of that.He has proven His love and protection time and again to me.When I dedicated my soul to Satan,I choose to tell my whole family.I am older,and it doesn't make a difference to me.But I have choose to break relationship with my bio brother and sister and all their family's(xtian of course)And informed them not to send ant xtian shit my way any more.Haven't heard from them since.But if you are younger,and need the support of your family,then you may be forced to continue the relationships.It is a personal choice.But not many understand us,and that's just the way it is.But I do understand getting it off your chest.Sometimes we all have to do that.Remember we are your Bothers and Sisters,and we are here for you too.Hang in there Brother,and put more energy into your power meditations,and rituals.And know that in our eyes and Satans,you are important.Hail Satan!Brian

From: First L <l33t_v4sh@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wednesday, August 3, 2011 2:35 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Friends and Loyalty

  My grandfather passed away recently. He was a generous man who always acted selflessly. His death hurt a lot of people and because he was such a public figure, there is a lot of media about it. It is not such a surprise that we are getting a lot of support.

My brother had friends whom he had not seen in over 2 years show up and console him. My mom's friend came in out of town to be with her. My dad worked closely with granddad so he has all the media and friends of the family, including his brother, there for him. I, on the other hand, am somewhat anti-social.

I broke up with my friends from high school because, after becoming a Satanist, I realized they were greedy ticks sucking the life out of me and cared more for themselves than anything else. Maybe I'm just being greedy but not once had they patted me on the back or tried to make ME laugh when I was crying and depressed. So, no help there.

My only friend left, I moved out with twice. She was nice. Always having a good time and when all this happen she was the first one I turned to (because she's the only one I could turn to). So I invited her to the reception. And she showed her true colors. I have never seen anyone more self absorbed. She texted me saying she "might be able to make but her husband comes home at that time and he'll be tired. plus i'm going to make cookies and i'll leave some for you." etc.

That's... stupid. I'm not wrong in thinking this right? Would normal people skip out on their friends, who break down CRYING in front of you, to make cookies? I don't even LIKE the cookies she made. Well, I still had some faith in her and went anyway. Nope. Did not show up.

Really I should have seen it coming. She and her husband sit on their asses all day playing Sims and/or WoW. They are part of the reason I quit the damn games because I did not want to end up like them!

I consider myself loyal. Foremost to Father Enki and my Guardian. Then my family. And, if I had any, to my friends. But so far I've seen I'm the only one who thinks loyalty means half a crap these days.

I'm sorry for ranting, you guys. But I really needed to get this off my chest. My granddad was a good man. I know this is said about most dead people but this time it's true. If you had met him, xian or not, he would have been your friend. And that's what I need right now. A friend.

Hail Father Enki!
Hail Lord Dagon!
Hail All the Mighty Gods of Duat!

 

[Allison P]

I'm sorry about your grandpa. My own grandfather died several years
ago, and though I wasn't as close to him as I could have been, due to
the fact that he lived in another state, I still miss him.

No...if a friend of mine was crying or in need of sympathy, I would
never just write them off like that. A friend's pain takes precedence
over damn cookies, and she could see her stupid husband any time.
That's just stupid, in my opinion. I don't have very many friends
myself but thoe I do ahve I am loyal to, and Father and the other Gods
alays have my affection and loyalty. Really, that's how I want it; you
don't need many friends, as long as you have a few good ones you can
trust and you know have your back. I know that my great Father Satan
is always here for me, as are all of my Satanic Brothers and Sisters,
and the Daemons. Just hang in there, man. What Brian said is right; we
are your family, and we're here for you, as is Father. All the best to
you, and may your grief soon transmute into joy! Hail Father Satan!
Hail my Satanic brethren!

Cerridwyn

On 8/3/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:
Sorry to hear all that Brother.But sometimes when we make a decision to
follow Enki/Satan,we loose or even decide to end some relationships,that are
not healthy for us.And yes it can be quite lonely,but don't forget that
Father always realizes where we are at in life.I am convinced of that.He has
proven His love and protection time and again to me.When I dedicated my soul
to Satan,I choose to tell my whole family.I am older,and it doesn't make a
difference to me.But I have choose to break relationship with my bio brother
and sister and all their family's(xtian of course)And informed them not to
send ant xtian shit my way any more.Haven't heard from them since.But if you
are younger,and need the support of your family,then you may be forced to
continue the relationships.It is a personal choice.But not many understand
us,and that's just the way it is.But I do understand getting it off your
chest.Sometimes we all have to do that.Remember we are your Bothers
and Sisters,and we are here for you too.Hang in there Brother,and put more
energy into your power meditations,and rituals.And know that in our eyes and
Satans,you are important.
Hail Satan!
Brian




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From: First L <l33t_v4sh@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wednesday, August 3, 2011 2:35 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Friends and Loyalty



My grandfather passed away recently. He was a generous man who always acted
selflessly. His death hurt a lot of people and because he was such a
public figure, there is a lot of media about it. It is not such a surprise
that we are getting a lot of support.

My brother had friends whom he had not seen in over 2 years show up and
console him. My mom's friend came in out of town to be with her. My dad
worked closely with granddad so he has all the media and friends of the
family, including his brother, there for him. I, on the other hand, am
somewhat anti-social.

I broke up with my friends from high school because, after becoming a
Satanist, I realized they were greedy ticks sucking the life out of me and
cared more for themselves than anything else. Maybe I'm just being greedy
but not once had they patted me on the back or tried to make ME laugh when
I was crying and depressed. So, no help there.

My only friend left, I moved out with twice. She was nice. Always having a
good time and when all this happen she was the first one I turned to
(because she's the only one I could turn to). So I invited her to the
reception. And she showed her true colors. I have never seen anyone more
self absorbed. She texted me saying she "might be able to make but her
husband comes home at that time and he'll be tired. plus i'm going to make
cookies and i'll leave some for you." etc.

That's... stupid. I'm not wrong in thinking this right? Would normal people
skip out on their friends, who break down CRYING in front of you, to make
cookies? I don't even LIKE the cookies she made. Well, I still had some
faith in her and went anyway. Nope. Did not show up.

Really I should have seen it coming. She and her husband sit on their asses
all day playing Sims and/or WoW. They are part of the reason I quit the
damn games because I did not want to end up like them!

I consider myself loyal. Foremost to Father Enki and my Guardian. Then my
family. And, if I had any, to my friends. But so far I've seen I'm the
only one who thinks loyalty means half a crap these days.

I'm sorry for ranting, you guys. But I really needed to get this off my
chest. My granddad was a good man. I know this is said about most dead
people but this time it's true. If you had met him, xian or not, he would
have been your friend. And that's what I need right now. A friend.

Hail Father Enki!
Hail Lord Dagon!
Hail All the Mighty Gods of Duat!