Way_Seeker6661
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- Dec 28, 2009
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I am new to Satanism. Father called me for a long time, though I was unaware that the beautiful energy was His. When I realized, I dedicated my Soul to Him.
I have not been diligent as I should, but last night I asked silently in my head for Father to meet with me in my dreams, or that He would send a Demon to speak with me.
I awoke a few hours after falling asleep, paralyzed and like I was not in reality, like everything was alien, and I was very very freaked out, fearful. There was also a definite presence of one or more entities, and I felt that they were "of hell" i.e. they were either Demons or maybe Satan.
I am very confused about this, as I have felt Father's energy in me since I dedicated, and around me when He came to me in the past, and it was so beautiful and felt really good.
So why did this happen? Why would their presence do this? I assume it was not angles because I prayed in my mind, not aloud.
Also, shortly after converting, I was making music on a friends PC, and I thought it would awesome if one of the musical Demons would help me with it. Then I smoked a bong (which I occasionally did, but not anymore), and I felt an awareness deepening into my being, and my mind was filled with the impression of pure evil, like my very spirit was infected with it, it was very intense and I was incredibly fearful to the point I half ran out his room to get a hold of myself.
If anyone could explain these things to me I would be grateful, thanks.
I will ask again tonight to meet with Satan or Whomever He choses to send, and see what happens
I have not been diligent as I should, but last night I asked silently in my head for Father to meet with me in my dreams, or that He would send a Demon to speak with me.
I awoke a few hours after falling asleep, paralyzed and like I was not in reality, like everything was alien, and I was very very freaked out, fearful. There was also a definite presence of one or more entities, and I felt that they were "of hell" i.e. they were either Demons or maybe Satan.
I am very confused about this, as I have felt Father's energy in me since I dedicated, and around me when He came to me in the past, and it was so beautiful and felt really good.
So why did this happen? Why would their presence do this? I assume it was not angles because I prayed in my mind, not aloud.
Also, shortly after converting, I was making music on a friends PC, and I thought it would awesome if one of the musical Demons would help me with it. Then I smoked a bong (which I occasionally did, but not anymore), and I felt an awareness deepening into my being, and my mind was filled with the impression of pure evil, like my very spirit was infected with it, it was very intense and I was incredibly fearful to the point I half ran out his room to get a hold of myself.
If anyone could explain these things to me I would be grateful, thanks.
I will ask again tonight to meet with Satan or Whomever He choses to send, and see what happens