Father Satan's Gift - Realization of Heightened Awareness

[Joshua Cuono]

Today I want to tell you a story. It's been ages since I was first put on medication for psychiatric problems. Well, up until just about two months ago, I had no knowledge or even awareness that these medicines were in fact destroying me.

However, recently, I became aware of something. Whenever I took them, I would grow increasingly aware of a head and spinal pain that was agonizing. It felt like I was being eaten alive, literally.

That's when I must've unconsciously asked Father for help. He answered.

If you remember, I discarded my previous doctor and asked for a new one. I got that new one, but was scared to see him as he was with the same agency.

Well not only did that doctor completely blow the old one out of the water, he identified problems I didn't even have the intellect to think of! (He said something along the lines of possible shortages of Vitamin B6, B12, HMB, Magnesium and Zinc). While we don't exactly know 100% what is wrong, he was smart about it and didn't give me anything medicine wise (his belief was that if he gave me the wrong thing, it might make matters worse).

Then the next day, my psychiatrist is informed of the pain I had been feeling for a good while, and she takes a nice look at my medication history and suddenly realizes it may be better off for me to "lay off the meds".

Immediately after this, the pain almost completely ceased. I have to deal with immense amounts of anger, though it's never gotten too out of hand (I did realize that my friends were more important to me than personal gain).

However, after thinking long and hard about it, I think the meds weakened a serious barrier against angelic attack (which explains the fatigue and pain I was feeling, it might not have been serious, but the barrier I had up without the meds softened the blow).

Even now, I thank Father for making me realize a lot of things I didn't even consider prior to that time. Now I feel like I've been a disobedient child, and I wish to thank him for it.

I'm starting on meditation tomorrow night, but I've got a question for you all.

See, there happen to be very few places where light cannot enter into my perimeter. I notice that where light exists, angels can use that to distract my meditation flow. So I was thinking of meditating inside my bathroom, with every light off, door shut, and no light entering the room.

At this point, I feel like I need complete and utter darkness to draw power from my void. Candlelight may not work to help me with soul empowerment, not to mention my bathroom has a mirror that my Guardian Demon might be able to crawl through (it ain't enchanted, it's normal, but it's there if he/she decides to use it).

That being said though, I still have yet to meet my Guardian Demon. I'm hoping that by showing Father and my GD that I'm making an effort to bridge the gap, maybe I'll give them incentive to come visit me.


What are your thoughts on this?

 

[Matt Kresel Kresel]

The soul is light itself, and its a scientifically known fact that we need sunlight to live. Not to mention that the sun contains all the colors of the spectrum in their purest form and to draw energy from the sun is very powerful.
However, if you feel it distracts you, then go with how you feel. I can meditate in both the dark and light, though when I began I did prefer the dark because I felt I could visualize better without the brightness I saw even with my eyes closed. Though every once in a while you should get yourself used to meditating in the light, for we can't always have perfect conditions to meditate under.
Also,  congratulations on your realization blessed to you by Father Satan!! I myself have gone through similar epiphany's