When I was younger I was able to physically go into the astral(it happened once for sure, v.v an Angel ruined the biggest turning point in my life during Tht) and also interact physically with object Tht nobody else could see.
Then I got into bad habits and pot rather early and destroyed all my natural gifts. I've only been sober for a month after being a regular pot head for about 8-9 years now. (Most all my interactions during involved seeing negative entities and shadows with I'll intent) lived my life as such a joke I thought I was friends with a grey for a couple months at a warehouse I worked at tht would sit on my shoulder and drain me of my energy(im pretty sure it programmed an extreme sloth and aversion to advancing my soul into my auura as Well) struggle to advance is real, I can be doing great for weeks then one day the feeling to stop and rot in depression just takes hold. Thankfully father has led me to a new friend and weve kept each other motivated to stay sober to better our lives physically.
Ive broken the commandments of fathers aljiwah to the point he should hate me (ik i hate my self for the things ive thought, said, and done) but I'm sure he still cares because no matter how impossible my life situations are theres always a silver lining (like magic) to get thru.
Sorry I kinda ranted outside of the topic, but i feel like fathers guidence and the help from the other nephilim and lesser demons are the biggest natural gifts all of us brothers/sisters in SS share.
P.S. had my life saved when I was 2years old after getting sucked out a 2 story window by I think my GD or a random passing demon. I was told I landed on all 4s(hands and knees) with out even a single scrtach. ( I'll share one more experience sorry .<)
Last time I was homeless it rained the 1st night and my dumbass laid stretch out across the bridge wall where it clearly gets soaked. My entire body should have been drenched, but only my calf was wet. The wall was wet af like it should have been but from the wall to the ground where the angle bend is was a immediate dry to wet difference(it was very unnatural) it was like a demon spent their precious time guiding all the water to slide down the wall to the side instead of straigh down(hence y my calf was wet)their love and caring even for ignorant fools who are undeserving is immense, I was undedicated at the time and saying/doing sht against the aljiwah,but they've went out of there way to add safty for me even tho I was far from deserving.
Ok I'm done ranting sorry #_#
