Eternal Failure

[SoulSails13]

I feel as if it is impossible for me to achieve anything, because, as soon as I try, something happens that makes it almost, if not outright impossible.
I have finally mustered up what little discipline I have, to start doing proper workings on myself, and now I found out that I won't even have a calendar anymore.
So I guess that's it, I'm just such useless fucking dredge that I can't even do the most basic things right!
Honestly, I deserve complete dissipation for how utterly pathetic I am.

 

[Yagami Light]

Hello Brother/Sister.
To start off, why do you say there won't be a calendar this year? If there isn't an official announcement by our High Priests or SGs, then we can't know about it. We have to be patient.

Secondly, the calendar wasn't always a part of ToZ. In fact, I and many other Zevists used to schedule our workings by looking at a website online what zodiac sign the moon was in and when it was void of course (to avoid beginning things at that time). High Priestess Maxine has an article about what each zodiac sign represents and how we should schedule our workings: https://templeofzeus.org/Timing
It is so simple and easy to understand. We may have gotten used to the ToZ calendar, but no one prevents us from doing magical workings without it. The general information about moon signs and void moon (and Mercury retrograde and everything) is freely available online. We just need to put a little more extra effort to find something reliable (I always double check a website with other websites to see that the hours correspond). Make sure your insert your country/city and local hour.

Now, when it comes to meeting with obstacles when you want to do something positive for you, in the beginning of our journey in Zevism and meditation, it is normal for that to happen. Depending on our upbringing and childhood, but also on our past lives' experiences, there can be subconscious residues of an "opposing force" that makes things difficult.
In addition, when we start meditating, suppressed emotions and thoughts will come to the surface - and you may experience some delays or difficulties that will, in time, dissipate.

This is all part of the healing process. It's not something bad- just a little irksome. It doesn't happen only to you - it happens to everyone.

Please, be more patient with yourself and with your meditative journey. There's no need to think so badly of yourself. The Gods have guided you here - and they wouldn't do it for someone who is "pathetic." The Gods and Goddesses see value in you.

Continue with your meditative journey and be patient, Brother/Sister. It's after the storm, when the rainbow appears.

 

[AFODO]

I understand you are frustrated but this is just how life is sometimes. Don't worry, don't be negative, everything is gonna be just fine and yes you gonna achieve whatever you want, given you are not giving up.

Make sure to do the basic things, clean yourself and keep your energies high, do as well some breathing exercises and proper meditation. You can do deep cleaning every saturday and empower one chakra per day. Sunday - Sun chakra, Monday - 6th chakra, etc.

As Yagami said, it is not gonna be impossible to time their magic for non-donors, plus everyone who is not underage can probably afford to be a tier 1 donor. I don't know numbers and exactly how it works but I think you become a tier 1 donor even if you have donated like 10 dollar. For how much time, idk but again I think everyone can afford it. It's just a choice.

 

[卐 Null Sechs 卍]

Don't worry about the lack of a calendar, as mentioned:
Tagami Light and AFODO
See above

In the meantime, you can track the Moon’s course using apps like Moonlight. I use this app because it’s one of the simplest and most readable ones I’ve found. Unfortunately, that specific app is paid, but you can find the Moon's trajectory for free on various websites. For planning your rituals, any digital or physical calendar will suffice.
If you are unsure about the schedules, you can always ask here on the forum, but you should strive for self-reliance. Independence and taking initiative are qualities that truly please the High God Zeus.
Furthermore, you shouldn't speak so poorly of yourself. By doing so, you are actively lowering your vibrations. The Gods want us to become like Them, not to drag ourselves down. The first thing you should do is perform an aura cleaning. You also need to work on your mindset, specifically regarding self-esteem and productivity.
If you improve your productivity, your self-esteem will naturally follow. At the same time, work on your sense of self-worth and emotional control. Start planning your rituals properly, and you will see that you can manage even without a dedicated calendar.
Hail Satan!

 

[SoulSails13]

I thank both of you for your responses: I will give a more detailed reply tomorrow.

 

[SoulSails13]

Firstly, I want to apologize for my freakout, I was extremely upset about something entirely unrelated, and simply snapped when I read that.

Secondly, the calendar wasn't always a part of ToZ. In fact, I and many other Zevists used to schedule our workings by looking at a website online what zodiac sign the moon was in and when it was void of course (to avoid beginning things at that time). High Priestess Maxine has an article about what each zodiac sign represents and how we should schedule our workings: https://templeofzeus.org/Timing
It is so simple and easy to understand. We may have gotten used to the ToZ calendar, but no one prevents us from doing magical workings without it. The general information about moon signs and void moon (and Mercury retrograde and everything) is freely available online. We just need to put a little more extra effort to find something reliable (I always double check a website with other websites to see that the hours correspond). Make sure your insert your country/city and local hour.

I was extremely hesitant to use external sources, as I have had a previously bad impression of Astrology. (Thanks to Retarded new ager's)

In the meantime, you can track the Moon’s course using apps like Moonlight. I use this app because it’s one of the simplest and most readable ones I’ve found. Unfortunately, that specific app is paid, but you can find the Moon's trajectory for free on various websites. For planning your rituals, any digital or physical calendar will suffice.
If you are unsure about the schedules, you can always ask here on the forum, but you should strive for self-reliance. Independence and taking initiative are qualities that truly please the High God Zeus.

Thank you very much for the suggestion, I will look into it.

Make sure to do the basic things, clean yourself and keep your energies high, do as well some breathing exercises and proper meditation. You can do deep cleaning every saturday and empower one chakra per day. Sunday - Sun chakra, Monday - 6th chakra, etc.

first thing you should do is perform an aura cleaning. You also need to work on your mindset, specifically regarding self-esteem and productivity

I was dramatizing very badly here. I was mentally "nudged" to start doing the daily chakra empowerment a few months ago, and have been cleaning and doing AoP for quite a while.
The only basic thing I have not been doing: is Void meditation, though have started doing so, as of Wednesday.

I have seen actual improvement, one of which being my willingness to speak on here at all. (I have had crippling social anxiety)
As for my self image, I have been making a gradual improvement to it, what happened here is more so just a severe case of backlash (I had been spiraling in self loathing for nearly 4 years now)

I am attempting to take things slowly with my productivity, as I am incredibly prone to burnout.
I have been able to develop the basic discipline to now do my daily stuff, along with God Ritual schedule's and my spells.

Please, be more patient with yourself and with your meditative journey. There's no need to think so badly of yourself. The Gods have guided you here - and they wouldn't do it for someone who is "pathetic." The Gods and Goddesses see value in you.

Continue with your meditative journey and be patient, Brother/Sister. It's after the storm, when the rainbow appears.

The Gods have guided me here indeed, quite frankly, if I had not found my way here, I would have been dead.
I was always searching for this place, and I doubt I will ever leave this place for real. I cannot truly give up, because I seem almost incapable of doing so. I don't even really know how to describe this, it is almost beyond words.

I Thank you all for replying to me, HAIL ZEUS!

 

[High Priest Hooded Cobra 666]

Greetings SoulSails, thank you for sharing your concerns.

Be aware, that everything that the Temple of Zeus instructs, is for the sake of development out there for free. All the original content of the Temple of Zeus which many others charge tens of thousands of for 1% of this and it's all untrue, is free. One needs nothing else to advance fundamentally as a soul.

The difference between tools on the Hall of Osiris, is that these are streamlined and more easy to use and far more organized. Some people want faster tools, more organized tools, acceleration and empowerment. The Hall of Osiris exists to accelerate this in a managed system.

But there is nothing one cannot find externally and information is public about this. If you go this way, you will pay again; via your time and a headache [which is normal with anything in this world]. Hall of Osiris makes it just faster to achieve the same end, while giving a constructive aim to everyone.

People also spend enormous time to create these tools and these were given out for free, while others were not giving anything for the Temple or the continuation of the Temple. This has changed and now, everyone is able to provide way more, to receive way more.

However, as you can see for example, many applications for astrology or lunar things, are out there [but you still pay for them, especially on iOS] and in many cases, huge amounts where they do not provide you nothing but basics. I remember paying 39$ for an application per year simply for the Moon Calendar on iOS.

So it's normal for the Hall of Osiris to have a membership situation, since there are phenomenal tools in there which are created by adepts in the path to streamline certain processes.

One can also enter the Hall of Osiris by doing service or tasks in the Vultem platform of SG Alexandros; ie, not a single penny given to that end. Many people have high tier and ranking merely based on this. The situation is we keep certain tools for people who construct and help others create also for the evolution of this place.

Basically access to the Calendar can come as low as 1-2$ per month, since Tier 1 is essentially received by almost everyone who does anything at all for the Temple [Versus doing nothing at all whatsoever]. There are people who don't have much but still manage to engage with 2-3$ for this and all the other tools.

Then they understand one must not limit themselves, they evolve higher and the Gods grace with more, and they can do more in time, and to RECEIVE more in time. This creates a development cycle for the whole of the community and banishes laziness.

Don't limit your mind over false pretext that you have no access - YOU DO. Everyone does. A minimal amount of effort or giving is necessary for this; this is generosity and at the same time, activates you to become a higher version of yourself in the realistic sense.