Joshua Cuono
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I believe it has been one year since I dedicated to Father. A little late in celebrating my anniversary of being in the family, but I thought I should recap everything that's happened, as well as tell you all some of the stuff that's been going on.
So, when I first dedicated, I was under attack by the enemy. We're talking painful attacks. I felt like they were worse than they actually were. The enemy managed to attempt many "kidnappings" of my soul (so to speak). Yet every time I felt the enemy try to take my soul hostage, I felt even stronger pulls from the side of my new family.
Eventually, I cut off a lot of useless clutter in my life: I fired a doctor for caring only about his paycheck and rushing our appointments (as well as being an ass regarding my mental illness), I managed to get into a college class for one semester (though I did lose two weeks worth of attendance), I finally got the official approval to drop my psych meds, and I feel a lot happier, emotionally.
In addition, there's also an emotional burden I was hiding from others for nearly my entire life (from the time I was 6 or 7; and it had been growing stronger since then) that I've now been able to share with others. Getting this off my chest has been extremely pleasant. But that's not all.
Lately, I can't stop thinking about the Goetia and Father. I have frequent thoughts about the following Gods/Goddesses:
Andras, Gaap, Abigos, Marbas, Astaroth, Lilith, Lilim (I consider her an individual, not a collective like the enemy does), Baal, Shax, and just Father in general.
Oftentimes, I think about them without even realizing it. They expose themselves in my story ideas and overall creativity. I fantasize about friendly relationships with them (and in many cases when I'm doing so, I treat them with extreme trust - as if we've known each other for years).
I've been able to identify things about myself I couldn't really see very clearly before, and I know more about myself than I ever have. I'm also getting much better at fighting the enemy - my knowledge is increasing, and I'm using that knowledge to give more people glimpses of the truth. I don't lead them to Father on my own - I let destiny do that.
My top 3 animals have been identified as the wolf, the raven, and the snake. I think about these three more than any other animal in existence. I love rock - heavy metal. I'm a strong believer in making those who bring suffering onto others suffer just as much, and I hate liars, traitors, and tyrants most of all.
I don't have my third eye open, but I don't need that to know I can feel Father's presence in my life every day just by using emotional perception.
Here's to my first year as a Son of the Serpent, as well as many more to come!
HAIL SATAN! HAIL LUCIFER! HAIL ANDRAS! HAIL AGARES! HAIL BEELZEBUB! HAIL ASTAROTH! HAIL MARBAS! HAIL ABIGOS! HAIL SHAX! HAIL GUSION! HAIL GAAP! HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GODS OF DUAT! MAY THEY REIGN FOREVER AND EVER, AS THEY SHOULD HAVE FROM THE BEGINNING!
MAY THE TYRANT OF THE KIKES FALL ONE DAY, DIGGING HIS OWN GRAVE! LET THE WORLD KNOW THAT SATAN IS MAKING HIS RETURN, AND HE'S GONNA COME BACK WITH A BANG!
So, when I first dedicated, I was under attack by the enemy. We're talking painful attacks. I felt like they were worse than they actually were. The enemy managed to attempt many "kidnappings" of my soul (so to speak). Yet every time I felt the enemy try to take my soul hostage, I felt even stronger pulls from the side of my new family.
Eventually, I cut off a lot of useless clutter in my life: I fired a doctor for caring only about his paycheck and rushing our appointments (as well as being an ass regarding my mental illness), I managed to get into a college class for one semester (though I did lose two weeks worth of attendance), I finally got the official approval to drop my psych meds, and I feel a lot happier, emotionally.
In addition, there's also an emotional burden I was hiding from others for nearly my entire life (from the time I was 6 or 7; and it had been growing stronger since then) that I've now been able to share with others. Getting this off my chest has been extremely pleasant. But that's not all.
Lately, I can't stop thinking about the Goetia and Father. I have frequent thoughts about the following Gods/Goddesses:
Andras, Gaap, Abigos, Marbas, Astaroth, Lilith, Lilim (I consider her an individual, not a collective like the enemy does), Baal, Shax, and just Father in general.
Oftentimes, I think about them without even realizing it. They expose themselves in my story ideas and overall creativity. I fantasize about friendly relationships with them (and in many cases when I'm doing so, I treat them with extreme trust - as if we've known each other for years).
I've been able to identify things about myself I couldn't really see very clearly before, and I know more about myself than I ever have. I'm also getting much better at fighting the enemy - my knowledge is increasing, and I'm using that knowledge to give more people glimpses of the truth. I don't lead them to Father on my own - I let destiny do that.
My top 3 animals have been identified as the wolf, the raven, and the snake. I think about these three more than any other animal in existence. I love rock - heavy metal. I'm a strong believer in making those who bring suffering onto others suffer just as much, and I hate liars, traitors, and tyrants most of all.
I don't have my third eye open, but I don't need that to know I can feel Father's presence in my life every day just by using emotional perception.
Here's to my first year as a Son of the Serpent, as well as many more to come!
HAIL SATAN! HAIL LUCIFER! HAIL ANDRAS! HAIL AGARES! HAIL BEELZEBUB! HAIL ASTAROTH! HAIL MARBAS! HAIL ABIGOS! HAIL SHAX! HAIL GUSION! HAIL GAAP! HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GODS OF DUAT! MAY THEY REIGN FOREVER AND EVER, AS THEY SHOULD HAVE FROM THE BEGINNING!
MAY THE TYRANT OF THE KIKES FALL ONE DAY, DIGGING HIS OWN GRAVE! LET THE WORLD KNOW THAT SATAN IS MAKING HIS RETURN, AND HE'S GONNA COME BACK WITH A BANG!
