slyscorpion said:
I have not used any such drugs in about two years but have been recently getting dreams where I buy and use them especially crack. I live in kind of an Urban area it would be quite easy to get this kind of thing if I really wanted to. For the last year or two I have had moments where I am tempted to do so and thoughts of doing so.
How to get over this completly. I mean I know this stuff is terrible though my mind rationalizes that one use might not be so bad maybe I should just get a bunch and enjoy it once. Stuff like that.
I mean it's been two years why am I still even tempted by this I know it's bad.
But as of recent this stuff has been more intense. I wonder if this is an enemy attack. I mean one of the dreams a couple of nights ago (it seems I am dreaming of this every night almost recently) one of the dreams even had an Israel flag in it and I was on a beach buying the drug from some Yehubor looking person. The strange thing was the dream was supposed to take place in Israel. I dont know why I got a dream like that but it was disturbing however in the dream like all others I have had the feeling of all this felt positive.
What do I do about this since i dont want to mess up on this. I mean before now I was tempted sometimes but not often like this and not in this way. It was usually kind of weak and passing.
Addiction has a strong effect and can take a deep hold. What you're experiencing is very normal and is nothing to make an issue out of. Just know that it means nothing, and let it go.
You know how shit that stuff is and the absolute misery it will bring. Once will not be enjoyable and very likely would not be once either you could be completely fucked if you go back to it. Even if it is once how are you going to feel about it afterwards? Probably wracked with guilt and deeply ashamed.
Not to mention you'd be wide open to the enemy and by the sound of that dream it looks like this is at least partly a manifestation of their attacks. You have NO idea how badly they can fuck you up when you're on drugs and you don't want to know, believe me, I'm speaking from experience and over 10 years agony I cannot describe because of ONE high they took full advantage of.
Carry on with your new path, keep up your spiritual practices, and leave this silly trash behind you. It will pass. I have not done drugs in almost two years and still occasionally dream about them but those dreams literally shake me awake with disgust and repulsion, or at least have me feeling deeply relieved that it was just a dream when I wake up in the morning.
You're better than that shit. Keep it that way!