Doubts. I need help and advice to get started

[Chiyo]

Hello, I am a little lost with all this. And I will take the opportunity to ask other questions, I apologize because it will be a long writing.
I have dedicated myself to Father Satan for some years, but I was never constant with the power meditations, I had many problems and was totally immature.
I want to change for the better because I love Satan with all my heart, I still won't do the rtr because I read that you have to be strong since the enemy will attack, sorry for being a coward. I want to move on but I don't know where to start, I don't understand many of the meditations. For example, sixth chakra meditation, if anyone can help me, I would really appreciate it. I have not felt Father Satan for a long time, I am afraid he has abandoned me. I was being stupid, immature and lazy, but I really love him above all and I will do whatever it takes to keep going, but I keep thinking about it and guilt kills me for being useless. Also a long time ago I did the ritual to have an incubus, but it was not psychically open and I think I often confused the sexual attacks of a spirit thinking it was my incubus. I flirted with other men and women out of solitude, but I never allowed anything serious to happen, I never allowed them to kiss me or anything like that. All I did was talk and fantasize, but I also feel guilty about this.
From a very young age I loved demons, I was very attracted to them. My childhood wish was to be with a demon, even if I had grown up in a Christian trash environment and believed many lies about Father Satan. Possibly I ruined that desire that I have had since childhood because it was immature and stupid. I can't help but think that my incubus also abandoned me, although I would have their reasons for doing so.
And another thing, in adolescence I tattooed the symbol of Salomon on my left hand because it looked good (https://miweb2017.webnode.es/_files/200000071-a6f43a8e80/star_salomon.jpg), is it something offensive to the gods? I invested it, if it is offensive I will remove it as soon as I can and while hiding it with a glove.
Sorry for all my doubts.
I want to change, be the best version of myself and fight alongside Satan, but I need help and advice to get started, please.

 

[Shael]

I still won't do the rtr because I read that you have to be strong since the enemy will attack, sorry for being a coward.

As long as you have done the Dedication, you wont be attacked by the enemy or anything like that. The Gods protect us from these things, especially those who are beginners. You do NOT need to be strong to do the RTR, and anyone who says this is an idiot that you should not listen to. Anyone who is dedicated can do it.

I want to move on but I don't know where to start, I don't understand many of the meditations. For example, sixth chakra meditation, if anyone can help me, I would really appreciate it.

Explain more in detail what about it confuses you. Including any other meditations you don't understand. I will try to explain them to you then.

I can't help but think that my incubus also abandoned me, although I would have their reasons for doing so.

Nobody abandoned you. You just need to get real and get back on your feet. About your Incubus, these things take a lot of time. You need to first start working on your soul and doing the RTRs, doing your daily cleaning and protection. And then as you advance and slowly open up more to the astral you can start interacting with him more. There is no point trying this too much right now as too many enemy entities will have an easy time messing with you. You first need to become more open so you can discern friend from foe on the astral.

And another thing, in adolescence I tattooed the symbol of Salomon on my left hand because it looked good (https://miweb2017.webnode.es/_files/200000071-a6f43a8e80/star_salomon.jpg), is it something offensive to the gods? I invested it, if it is offensive I will remove it as soon as I can and while hiding it with a glove.

I'm relatively sure that this is indeed offensive in itself. Since you didn't have any bad intentions when doing this, I don't think the Gods would be angry at you for this though. I would still recommend removing it again if you can.

 

[Chiyo]

Thank you very much for answering. About the sixth chakra meditation how many times do I have to vibrate the AUM rune? And should I vibrate it out loud or can it be mentally? And if you can tell me in detail how to do the rtr I would really appreciate it.
Out of respect for the Gods I will keep the tattoo hidden until I can remove it.

 

[Darksage666]

Most of the meditations are self explanatory: you just have to follow the steps listed on the JoyofSatan website. The only way you’re gonna get good is by practicing power meditation consistently. You can also add hatha or kundalini yoga into your program because they help to empower the soul which is the point of Satanism.

For opening the chakras, like opening the 6th chakra you just need to close your eyes and focus on that area(as shown on the JoS opening the 6th chakra meditation) and Thaum into it like how it says. just follow the instructions.

If you don’t understand how to do that, you know how you would see like monks meditating and they chant a long Aummmmm. it’s like that but you will use the word that the JoS says to use for opening the 6th chakra which is Thaum.

If you want, you can create another post perhaps titled audios for opening the chakras or something or that sort. and ask for the youtube channel that someone on here has that shows how to do this correctly. I cannot find them on my own lately but those videos/audios will explain how to do it better if you don’t know how to do it already.

Definitely get that tattoo removed or covered up.That is of the enemy’s side.

If you want you can follow a simple 40 day meditation program to help you get started.
https://web.archive.org/web/20160614010104/https://dawn666blacksun.angelfire.com/Joy_of_Satan_Ministries_Meditation_Program_40_day.pdf

https://www.dropbox.com/s/ba8fiob53cky65l/Joy_of_Satan_Ministries_Meditation_Program_40_day.pdf?dl=1

Not sure which of these links works for you but where you find this is on Satans library>JoyofSatan meditation program 40 days of empowerment by HP HoodedCobra.

 

[Chiyo]

I really appreciate it, today I will start doing hatha yoga and kundalini yoga.
I will follow the advice you have given me, thank you very much.