Done

[Rebecca Martin]

I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[Magus Immortalis]

I'm not a doctor, but don't stop your meds without professional supervision.It's important to start and do a power meditation program. Do it everyday. Clean your aura, your chakras and do an aura of protection at least twice daily.You can look at HP Hooded Cobra's 40 Day Empowerment Program under Satan's Library (Updates) on JoS siteor look at the article about Basic Meditation Program in the Meditation section to get started.Good luck.

On Monday, July 14, 2014 6:24:26 PM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[magnum.arcanum]

My personal opinion regarding Psychologists or Psychiatrists, is that they don't believe that you are a spiritual being and that if you think your a spiritual being they will call you delusional.  In other words they are my enemy.  Also, if you learn about Satanism and say anything about it to them, they will do a full psychiatric evaluation on you and if you have any insurance or anything attempt to hold you against your will, pending them screwing you up more than you already are.  Coming off Psychiatric psychotropic drugs isn't like stopping cigarette use or something.  It can kill you dead.  Personally I think the shit was designed that way on purpose.  Sounds to me like the label and drugs they gave you aint working out.  Try a real medical doctor.  One that's trained in homeopathic medicine.  Have him guide you through the process of gradually coming off the bullshit drugs they gave you and  and find out if you have anything wrong physically.  Find a good one.  Really shop around.  The Chinese dude I have can look at you, feel your dam arm and tell you what's wrong internally.  It could be a food allergy or some other chemical your exposed to i.e. it could be anything.  Have your doctor work with you to set up a daily exercise routine.  Start making shit happen to your environment.  It could be anything.  That will help.  Until you get straightened out - and you will - stay away from the meditations and focus on learning the materials on the website.  Read it and study it.  When your doctor thinks its OK to do meditations then start doing the basics.

 

[Rebecca Martin]

Thank you very much and I am willing to do anything at this point but yes I will do that right now but thank you

On Jul 14, 2014 6:56 PM, "Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I'm not a doctor, but don't stop your meds without professional supervision. It's important to start and do a power meditation program. Do it everyday. Clean your aura, your chakras and do an aura of protection at least twice daily. You can look at HP Hooded Cobra's 40 Day Empowerment Program under Satan's Library (Updates) on JoS site or look at the article about Basic Meditation Program in the Meditation section to get started. Good luck.

On Monday, July 14, 2014 6:24:26 PM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[Ass Hole]

You want to die, why? Because you think you have nobody or because of a mere man? Wtf is wrong with females in this world, wtf is wrong with people and wtf is wrong with you? You think you've suffered enough? You think you've seen enough? Do you know what rejection is? Do you know what it feels like to have parents, extended family members, siblings who don't care about you? What level of betrayal have you dealt with? I'm assuming none. Well, my own mother will gladly kill me if someone promises her god's forgiveness. Cos the only reason I think she won't do it is cause she's scared of hell. Have you ever screamed, i mean physically screaming and people are walking about no one cares enough to save you. Have you dealt with blackmail? I mean from your own house, from same bloodline. I'm talking about someone that has people, who's supposed to be all round secured, loved, cared for but this same people made themselves wolves, everything deadly against the one. You think you had a hard childhood? Well, lemme describe some of mine. My mom had a powerful hold on my dad and used him as a naked weapon against me right from when I was 4yrs old. I suffered all kinds of physical abuse in the hands of my father, when the beatings starts ( with a cow tail wire that has five extensions) if I'm not half dead he doesn't stop, at that age imagine being beaten by a huge man with such a weapon when you've done absolutely nothing to justify the punishment. If I sleep too early at night after doing all the heavy house chores, the stinging pain from his spacial Cain woke me up, they believed in spare the Cain and spoil the child, but the child was specially me not any other of my 4 siblings. Any of them does anything wrong, I receive the severe punishment. This is just a periphery. But in all that I didn't get crazy, I felt like dying a few times but I didn't have the guts to do it. I had people but I was badly rejected among them. Well, thank God (Satan) they gave me all my basic needs and today that nonsense is over cos Father Satan made it stop. I saw Him do it. One thing you should understand (which I didn't understand back then but now knows) is that these are weapons of the enemy against us. It comes from past lives, you die now, well, sorry cos you're coming back to face a worse case scenario, you die again, you repeat the whole circle. You, only you has the power to stop this nonsense, this hold they have against you, this weakness that's been implanted in your head and the time is now! Cos in the next life you won't know who this Rebecca is, you won't even know her name, you won't know what you did to her. What do you want woman? To suffer and die suffering? To live die live again die again, I mean by taking ur own life in suffering. No, there has to be a point where you win, a point where you conquer, a point where you become a master or a mistress of your life, of your situations, a point where your birth chart respects you, where you author what happens and what doesn't. Don't let them win again. Get up and fight, fight violently, fight without mercy, since this world won't pity you, then don't pity it and anyone else in it, until you come out a victor. If you're not dedicated already then do it www.joyofsatan.com also study exposingchristianity.com . then with your problems in mind choose meditations that you believe will help you win this battle and focus on nothing else but winning it. The suggestions Magus made are also good. Don't stop studying and don't stop fighting till you have a testimony.

On Jul 14, 2014 11:56 PM, "Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I'm not a doctor, but don't stop your meds without professional supervision. It's important to start and do a power meditation program. Do it everyday. Clean your aura, your chakras and do an aura of protection at least twice daily. You can look at HP Hooded Cobra's 40 Day Empowerment Program under Satan's Library (Updates) on JoS site or look at the article about Basic Meditation Program in the Meditation section to get started. Good luck.

On Monday, July 14, 2014 6:24:26 PM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[Rebecca Martin]

True yes I agree that is correct, I am currently prescribed to 20mg of Citalopram (for depression) and 5mg abilify (for seeing things and voices) I even got a brain scan and it resulted in normal and everything is normal but I personally believe that the things I see and hear are actually there and not in my head idk but yea :/ I am looking at the website to gain information too

On Jul 16, 2014 1:10 PM, "magnum.arcanum@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  My personal opinion regarding Psychologists or Psychiatrists, is that they don't believe that you are a spiritual being and that if you think your a spiritual being they will call you delusional.  In other words they are my enemy.  Also, if you learn about Satanism and say anything about it to them, they will do a full psychiatric evaluation on you and if you have any insurance or anything attempt to hold you against your will, pending them screwing you up more than you already are.  Coming off Psychiatric psychotropic drugs isn't like stopping cigarette use or something.  It can kill you dead.  Personally I think the shit was designed that way on purpose.  Sounds to me like the label and drugs they gave you aint working out.  Try a real medical doctor.  One that's trained in homeopathic medicine.  Have him guide you through the process of gradually coming off the bullshit drugs they gave you and  and find out if you have anything wrong physically.  Find a good one.  Really shop around.  The Chinese dude I have can look at you, feel your dam arm and tell you what's wrong internally.  It could be a food allergy or some other chemical your exposed to i.e. it could be anything.  Have your doctor work with you to set up a daily exercise routine.  Start making shit happen to your environment.  It could be anything.  That will help.  Until you get straightened out - and you will - stay away from the meditations and focus on learning the materials on the website.  Read it and study it.  When your doctor thinks its OK to do meditations then start doing the basics.

 

[call_me_something_else]

Sometimes, Father Satan's power and love for us just mystifies me. Haha.

Rebecca, A little while back, I also woke up, every morning and the first words to enter my mind were "I need to die." Not, "I want to die" but "I NEED to die." It was very much like they were words from someone else and not my own, (because they were and now I know).

Also, you should know, you're not "crazy," for merely being sensitive to seeing and hearing things others cannot. You're not "broken" simply because you are VASTLY SUPERIOR to those kikes. Remember, the enemy lies to you. ALL THEY KNOW IS TO LIE LIE LIE UPON LIES! Their "psychiatry" is NOT based on actual, legitimate science. I've had licensed psychiatrists admit as much to me.

You're not crazy. More likely, you're surrounded by enemy energies, seeking to pre-emptively destroy you, because you pose a threat to those weak, cowardly monsters and vampires. 

Raise your energies. Have sex (or masturbate) regularly and as often as you can. Meditate RAUM into each and every one of your chakras, one-at-a-time, eight times apiece. Visualize the sigils of our Gods and Goddesses as often as you need to and talk to them. Meditate, even when it's not easy.

Now is not the time toget down o yourself or to give up and quit. Now is the time to set your mind to finding a way through - forcefully if you must.

And, please, please believe me when I tell you, you CAN trust Father Satan to get you through this and strengthen you further. The enemy fears you. This is why they're trying to murder you. They know, should you ever find your True Power, they've an ass-whippin' comin'.

Also, FWIW, at the time of my own struggles with those implanted suicidal thoughts, one of the friends who Father Satan sent my way, his last name was Martin, too.

I cannot help but praise Father Satan and ALL of the Tue Gods and Goddesses of Duat, anymore.

 

[Rebecca Martin]

*can't let the enemy win

On Jul 16, 2014 8:28 PM, "Rebecca Martin" <rebeccamartin12678@... wrote:

And yes you are right, I can let the enemy win and this is why I seeked for all of you guys help this is why, but yes thank you I am willing to go on the website and do what's right for me On Jul 16, 2014 7:47 PM, "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  You want to die, why? Because you think you have nobody or because of a mere man? Wtf is wrong with females in this world, wtf is wrong with people and wtf is wrong with you? You think you've suffered enough? You think you've seen enough? Do you know what rejection is? Do you know what it feels like to have parents, extended family members, siblings who don't care about you? What level of betrayal have you dealt with? I'm assuming none. Well, my own mother will gladly kill me if someone promises her god's forgiveness. Cos the only reason I think she won't do it is cause she's scared of hell. Have you ever screamed, i mean physically screaming and people are walking about no one cares enough to save you. Have you dealt with blackmail? I mean from your own house, from same bloodline. I'm talking about someone that has people, who's supposed to be all round secured, loved, cared for but this same people made themselves wolves, everything deadly against the one. You think you had a hard childhood? Well, lemme describe some of mine. My mom had a powerful hold on my dad and used him as a naked weapon against me right from when I was 4yrs old. I suffered all kinds of physical abuse in the hands of my father, when the beatings starts ( with a cow tail wire that has five extensions) if I'm not half dead he doesn't stop, at that age imagine being beaten by a huge man with such a weapon when you've done absolutely nothing to justify the punishment. If I sleep too early at night after doing all the heavy house chores, the stinging pain from his spacial Cain woke me up, they believed in spare the Cain and spoil the child, but the child was specially me not any other of my 4 siblings. Any of them does anything wrong, I receive the severe punishment. This is just a periphery. But in all that I didn't get crazy, I felt like dying a few times but I didn't have the guts to do it. I had people but I was badly rejected among them. Well, thank God (Satan) they gave me all my basic needs and today that nonsense is over cos Father Satan made it stop. I saw Him do it. One thing you should understand (which I didn't understand back then but now knows) is that these are weapons of the enemy against us. It comes from past lives, you die now, well, sorry cos you're coming back to face a worse case scenario, you die again, you repeat the whole circle. You, only you has the power to stop this nonsense, this hold they have against you, this weakness that's been implanted in your head and the time is now! Cos in the next life you won't know who this Rebecca is, you won't even know her name, you won't know what you did to her. What do you want woman? To suffer and die suffering? To live die live again die again, I mean by taking ur own life in suffering. No, there has to be a point where you win, a point where you conquer, a point where you become a master or a mistress of your life, of your situations, a point where your birth chart respects you, where you author what happens and what doesn't. Don't let them win again. Get up and fight, fight violently, fight without mercy, since this world won't pity you, then don't pity it and anyone else in it, until you come out a victor. If you're not dedicated already then do it www.joyofsatan.com also study exposingchristianity.com . then with your problems in mind choose meditations that you believe will help you win this battle and focus on nothing else but winning it. The suggestions Magus made are also good. Don't stop studying and don't stop fighting till you have a testimony. On Jul 14, 2014 11:56 PM, "Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I'm not a doctor, but don't stop your meds without professional supervision. It's important to start and do a power meditation program. Do it everyday. Clean your aura, your chakras and do an aura of protection at least twice daily. You can look at HP Hooded Cobra's 40 Day Empowerment Program under Satan's Library (Updates) on JoS site or look at the article about Basic Meditation Program in the Meditation section to get started. Good luck.

On Monday, July 14, 2014 6:24:26 PM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[Rebecca Martin]

And yes you are right, I can let the enemy win and this is why I seeked for all of you guys help this is why, but yes thank you I am willing to go on the website and do what's right for me

On Jul 16, 2014 7:47 PM, "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  You want to die, why? Because you think you have nobody or because of a mere man? Wtf is wrong with females in this world, wtf is wrong with people and wtf is wrong with you? You think you've suffered enough? You think you've seen enough? Do you know what rejection is? Do you know what it feels like to have parents, extended family members, siblings who don't care about you? What level of betrayal have you dealt with? I'm assuming none. Well, my own mother will gladly kill me if someone promises her god's forgiveness. Cos the only reason I think she won't do it is cause she's scared of hell. Have you ever screamed, i mean physically screaming and people are walking about no one cares enough to save you. Have you dealt with blackmail? I mean from your own house, from same bloodline. I'm talking about someone that has people, who's supposed to be all round secured, loved, cared for but this same people made themselves wolves, everything deadly against the one. You think you had a hard childhood? Well, lemme describe some of mine. My mom had a powerful hold on my dad and used him as a naked weapon against me right from when I was 4yrs old. I suffered all kinds of physical abuse in the hands of my father, when the beatings starts ( with a cow tail wire that has five extensions) if I'm not half dead he doesn't stop, at that age imagine being beaten by a huge man with such a weapon when you've done absolutely nothing to justify the punishment. If I sleep too early at night after doing all the heavy house chores, the stinging pain from his spacial Cain woke me up, they believed in spare the Cain and spoil the child, but the child was specially me not any other of my 4 siblings. Any of them does anything wrong, I receive the severe punishment. This is just a periphery. But in all that I didn't get crazy, I felt like dying a few times but I didn't have the guts to do it. I had people but I was badly rejected among them. Well, thank God (Satan) they gave me all my basic needs and today that nonsense is over cos Father Satan made it stop. I saw Him do it. One thing you should understand (which I didn't understand back then but now knows) is that these are weapons of the enemy against us. It comes from past lives, you die now, well, sorry cos you're coming back to face a worse case scenario, you die again, you repeat the whole circle. You, only you has the power to stop this nonsense, this hold they have against you, this weakness that's been implanted in your head and the time is now! Cos in the next life you won't know who this Rebecca is, you won't even know her name, you won't know what you did to her. What do you want woman? To suffer and die suffering? To live die live again die again, I mean by taking ur own life in suffering. No, there has to be a point where you win, a point where you conquer, a point where you become a master or a mistress of your life, of your situations, a point where your birth chart respects you, where you author what happens and what doesn't. Don't let them win again. Get up and fight, fight violently, fight without mercy, since this world won't pity you, then don't pity it and anyone else in it, until you come out a victor. If you're not dedicated already then do it www.joyofsatan.com also study exposingchristianity.com . then with your problems in mind choose meditations that you believe will help you win this battle and focus on nothing else but winning it. The suggestions Magus made are also good. Don't stop studying and don't stop fighting till you have a testimony. On Jul 14, 2014 11:56 PM, "Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I'm not a doctor, but don't stop your meds without professional supervision. It's important to start and do a power meditation program. Do it everyday. Clean your aura, your chakras and do an aura of protection at least twice daily. You can look at HP Hooded Cobra's 40 Day Empowerment Program under Satan's Library (Updates) on JoS site or look at the article about Basic Meditation Program in the Meditation section to get started. Good luck.

On Monday, July 14, 2014 6:24:26 PM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[centralforce66]

+1 in regards to finding a real doctor, ie homeopathy, naturopathy, ayurvedic or chinese traditional. Many emotional disharmonies have a physical rooting and visa versa. These medicinal styles treat both the body and the emotions by recognising they are connected (by energy no less). HAIL SATAN!

 

[cand.cru5h3r1]

Thanks for that man someone who has a true understanding of this world is godhead material all of you other retarded kids who are just dabbling because you think you're hard,don't kid yourself and figure you're shit out before asking stupid questions

 

[Rebecca Martin]

Uhm actually yes,  I was abused physically like really badly... I been to a psych ward twice, and we'll it all started with my mom and dad, my dad beated and raped my mom like crazy... She was not allowed to leave the house go to work or nothing, one day they argued and my dad took me and my sisters before my mom got back home. So she called police to search for us... So we are constantly moving left and right, I was abused in every home and he even paid five men to fuckin rape me.. So I am so screwed up, so he drops us off at his sisters home. And I was not allowed to be fed, I was constantly locked in the closet, if I was really sick I was not taken to a hospital... And my mom is searching for me like crazy but I had no control, I was a useless kid.. I was beaten all the time.. I wasn't allowed to do homework or study so as my education wasn't so well and I was molested every fuckin time... I witnessed a boy living there, my cousin, commit suicide.. When police got involved, they said I was lying about the abuse. They eventually gave me and my sisters to my mother.. I never had a real home, I was constantly moving.. But what makes the "boy" so important is because he is the only one I have. I am still getting bullied at home and everything hates me for my beliefs and they think I am evil and they just hate me because I am always in the hospital and this "boy" is the reason I choose to live because he went through tough abuse too, he knows how it is like and he is the only one understands me and listens to me.. I am planning on moving out because I turned 18 and I just can't concur the world.. I can't even walk down the street without thinking someone is out to get me.. I am so screwed up, I am not your average girl that has the life.. No I am not. And I was so close to going into a foster home but my mom was innocent so they let us stay with her, my dads goal was to sell me. He doesn't care, I have no friends because my life is too "dark" for them.. My family thinks I am going to burn forever because of my music choice my beliefs everything, and my school is scared of me because they think that I am sadistic and will hurt the other students because of the way I react to bad situations..

On Jul 16, 2014 7:47 PM, "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  You want to die, why? Because you think you have nobody or because of a mere man? Wtf is wrong with females in this world, wtf is wrong with people and wtf is wrong with you? You think you've suffered enough? You think you've seen enough? Do you know what rejection is? Do you know what it feels like to have parents, extended family members, siblings who don't care about you? What level of betrayal have you dealt with? I'm assuming none. Well, my own mother will gladly kill me if someone promises her god's forgiveness. Cos the only reason I think she won't do it is cause she's scared of hell. Have you ever screamed, i mean physically screaming and people are walking about no one cares enough to save you. Have you dealt with blackmail? I mean from your own house, from same bloodline. I'm talking about someone that has people, who's supposed to be all round secured, loved, cared for but this same people made themselves wolves, everything deadly against the one. You think you had a hard childhood? Well, lemme describe some of mine. My mom had a powerful hold on my dad and used him as a naked weapon against me right from when I was 4yrs old. I suffered all kinds of physical abuse in the hands of my father, when the beatings starts ( with a cow tail wire that has five extensions) if I'm not half dead he doesn't stop, at that age imagine being beaten by a huge man with such a weapon when you've done absolutely nothing to justify the punishment. If I sleep too early at night after doing all the heavy house chores, the stinging pain from his spacial Cain woke me up, they believed in spare the Cain and spoil the child, but the child was specially me not any other of my 4 siblings. Any of them does anything wrong, I receive the severe punishment. This is just a periphery. But in all that I didn't get crazy, I felt like dying a few times but I didn't have the guts to do it. I had people but I was badly rejected among them. Well, thank God (Satan) they gave me all my basic needs and today that nonsense is over cos Father Satan made it stop. I saw Him do it. One thing you should understand (which I didn't understand back then but now knows) is that these are weapons of the enemy against us. It comes from past lives, you die now, well, sorry cos you're coming back to face a worse case scenario, you die again, you repeat the whole circle. You, only you has the power to stop this nonsense, this hold they have against you, this weakness that's been implanted in your head and the time is now! Cos in the next life you won't know who this Rebecca is, you won't even know her name, you won't know what you did to her. What do you want woman? To suffer and die suffering? To live die live again die again, I mean by taking ur own life in suffering. No, there has to be a point where you win, a point where you conquer, a point where you become a master or a mistress of your life, of your situations, a point where your birth chart respects you, where you author what happens and what doesn't. Don't let them win again. Get up and fight, fight violently, fight without mercy, since this world won't pity you, then don't pity it and anyone else in it, until you come out a victor. If you're not dedicated already then do it www.joyofsatan.com also study exposingchristianity.com . then with your problems in mind choose meditations that you believe will help you win this battle and focus on nothing else but winning it. The suggestions Magus made are also good. Don't stop studying and don't stop fighting till you have a testimony. On Jul 14, 2014 11:56 PM, "Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I'm not a doctor, but don't stop your meds without professional supervision. It's important to start and do a power meditation program. Do it everyday. Clean your aura, your chakras and do an aura of protection at least twice daily. You can look at HP Hooded Cobra's 40 Day Empowerment Program under Satan's Library (Updates) on JoS site or look at the article about Basic Meditation Program in the Meditation section to get started. Good luck.

On Monday, July 14, 2014 6:24:26 PM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[Ass Hole]

I feel you @ Rebecca . Don't worry the time is coming when you'll look back at all this and laugh out very loud but don't forget you have to stay alive to see that time come. So survive my dear. @ Cand.Cru5h3r or were you going to answer Candy Crush? What do you mean by that thing you wrote? Fucking kikes , infiltrators. There should be a way of filtering people here, maybe a full registration form.

On Jul 19, 2014 3:38 AM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Uhm actually yes,  I was abused physically like really badly... I been to a psych ward twice, and we'll it all started with my mom and dad, my dad beated and raped my mom like crazy... She was not allowed to leave the house go to work or nothing, one day they argued and my dad took me and my sisters before my mom got back home. So she called police to search for us... So we are constantly moving left and right, I was abused in every home and he even paid five men to fuckin rape me.. So I am so screwed up, so he drops us off at his sisters home. And I was not allowed to be fed, I was constantly locked in the closet, if I was really sick I was not taken to a hospital... And my mom is searching for me like crazy but I had no control, I was a useless kid.. I was beaten all the time.. I wasn't allowed to do homework or study so as my education wasn't so well and I was molested every fuckin time... I witnessed a boy living there, my cousin, commit suicide.. When police got involved, they said I was lying about the abuse. They eventually gave me and my sisters to my mother.. I never had a real home, I was constantly moving.. But what makes the "boy" so important is because he is the only one I have. I am still getting bullied at home and everything hates me for my beliefs and they think I am evil and they just hate me because I am always in the hospital and this "boy" is the reason I choose to live because he went through tough abuse too, he knows how it is like and he is the only one understands me and listens to me.. I am planning on moving out because I turned 18 and I just can't concur the world.. I can't even walk down the street without thinking someone is out to get me.. I am so screwed up, I am not your average girl that has the life.. No I am not. And I was so close to going into a foster home but my mom was innocent so they let us stay with her, my dads goal was to sell me. He doesn't care, I have no friends because my life is too "dark" for them.. My family thinks I am going to burn forever because of my music choice my beliefs everything, and my school is scared of me because they think that I am sadistic and will hurt the other students because of the way I react to bad situations.. On Jul 16, 2014 7:47 PM, "Ass Hole stripsilly1989@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  You want to die, why? Because you think you have nobody or because of a mere man? Wtf is wrong with females in this world, wtf is wrong with people and wtf is wrong with you? You think you've suffered enough? You think you've seen enough? Do you know what rejection is? Do you know what it feels like to have parents, extended family members, siblings who don't care about you? What level of betrayal have you dealt with? I'm assuming none. Well, my own mother will gladly kill me if someone promises her god's forgiveness. Cos the only reason I think she won't do it is cause she's scared of hell. Have you ever screamed, i mean physically screaming and people are walking about no one cares enough to save you. Have you dealt with blackmail? I mean from your own house, from same bloodline. I'm talking about someone that has people, who's supposed to be all round secured, loved, cared for but this same people made themselves wolves, everything deadly against the one. You think you had a hard childhood? Well, lemme describe some of mine. My mom had a powerful hold on my dad and used him as a naked weapon against me right from when I was 4yrs old. I suffered all kinds of physical abuse in the hands of my father, when the beatings starts ( with a cow tail wire that has five extensions) if I'm not half dead he doesn't stop, at that age imagine being beaten by a huge man with such a weapon when you've done absolutely nothing to justify the punishment. If I sleep too early at night after doing all the heavy house chores, the stinging pain from his spacial Cain woke me up, they believed in spare the Cain and spoil the child, but the child was specially me not any other of my 4 siblings. Any of them does anything wrong, I receive the severe punishment. This is just a periphery. But in all that I didn't get crazy, I felt like dying a few times but I didn't have the guts to do it. I had people but I was badly rejected among them. Well, thank God (Satan) they gave me all my basic needs and today that nonsense is over cos Father Satan made it stop. I saw Him do it. One thing you should understand (which I didn't understand back then but now knows) is that these are weapons of the enemy against us. It comes from past lives, you die now, well, sorry cos you're coming back to face a worse case scenario, you die again, you repeat the whole circle. You, only you has the power to stop this nonsense, this hold they have against you, this weakness that's been implanted in your head and the time is now! Cos in the next life you won't know who this Rebecca is, you won't even know her name, you won't know what you did to her. What do you want woman? To suffer and die suffering? To live die live again die again, I mean by taking ur own life in suffering. No, there has to be a point where you win, a point where you conquer, a point where you become a master or a mistress of your life, of your situations, a point where your birth chart respects you, where you author what happens and what doesn't. Don't let them win again. Get up and fight, fight violently, fight without mercy, since this world won't pity you, then don't pity it and anyone else in it, until you come out a victor. If you're not dedicated already then do it www.joyofsatan.com also study exposingchristianity.com . then with your problems in mind choose meditations that you believe will help you win this battle and focus on nothing else but winning it. The suggestions Magus made are also good. Don't stop studying and don't stop fighting till you have a testimony. On Jul 14, 2014 11:56 PM, "Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I'm not a doctor, but don't stop your meds without professional supervision. It's important to start and do a power meditation program. Do it everyday. Clean your aura, your chakras and do an aura of protection at least twice daily. You can look at HP Hooded Cobra's 40 Day Empowerment Program under Satan's Library (Updates) on JoS site or look at the article about Basic Meditation Program in the Meditation section to get started. Good luck.

On Monday, July 14, 2014 6:24:26 PM, "Rebecca Martin rebeccamartin12678@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  I want to die and the last time I felt this way..I found Satan and felt better and went to a hospital but now I want to die... It happens every summer and on February, which is fuckin weird but in the summer time I get severely depressed, I don't know...And I know some of you will not like it of course and say I am a troll or whatever, but it's to the point I am taking things to heart now, I have no one and that one person that was important to me, he left and I am in that state where I don't care about life anymore,my therapist cancelled my case and I haven't been taking my meds, I wanna use them for a special time but I am so alone and it's so hard for me to connect and meditate when all I think about is the horrors I went through as a child and it's so hard to concentrate and focus on Satan... Everyone is pulling me down and everyone left me so I literally have no support, I don't know what to do to get my mind off of it... It's fuckin killing me everyday, I want to reconnect with Satan again, I want that spark to come back and all I have to do is meditate but I can't simply do one because I am so depressed

 

[cand.cru5h3r1]

Damn Rebecca some of you guys really have shitty lives I have no clue how you didn't just the everyone up and burn them alive im 13 and honestly just chillin out here in California just be safe and stay away from drugs man good luck

 

[iexya108]

I used to be where you are now and I just want to say you can and will get better. And you are not alone! You have Satan, your guardian, and the other gods&goddess...they are protecting you,guiding you, and they care and love you! They haven't given up on you so you shouldn't either!! Not to mention everyone on this group is here for you. A lot of us have had horrible lives and have a lot of problems, but that's the greatest gift Satan gives us...we can change it and make it better! we don't have to suffer anymore! No matter how bad things are you can always fix it and start over! The past is the past, don't keep dreading over it...it doesn't do anything, but make you feel horrible and waste your time. Just forget everything and start from scratch, that's what I did.    

01.Start building an aura of protection(http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ction.html) and cleaning you aura and chakras(http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html) daily as much as possible(depression is caused by holes in your aura and having a dirty aura/chakras), I clean my aura almost every hour 40x using the sauil rune and my chakras 8x each using sauil again and affirm "my
___ is completely and totally clean and empowered in every way NOW". while visualizing a bright white/gold light like the sun around me/my chakra.

02. you should probably do a detaching med. too. I can't find the original post, but I'll just post it on here.Breathe in satanic blue energy on a chakra(when you breathe in imagine light flowing into/around your chakra) and imagine it burning away all connections(like vines wrapped around it) Then on the exhale vibrate the Aza rune 9x and affirm "My _ is now free from any and all connections and influences from all enemies of Satan and those who are without eternally and completely NOW." do this for each chakra. then clean your aura and chakras.

03.You can also do a 40day working on banishing your depression. just do a full satanic rosary(108x) and affirm that your depression is complexly and totally gone etc.You can use the wunjo rune,This rune is excellent for banishing depression.You can start when the moon is in Taurus(long lasting) and because it's waning(good for endings) now is the perfect time to do it

04.take care of yourself! get healthy!...eat better(http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/diet-recovery), workout(http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/e ... depression), and do hatha yoga daily...also do things fun, splurge on yourself etc. Just make sure not to do anything you might regret later.

05.What I also started to do is really simple, whenever you get a bad thought, memory, etc. anything that's unpleasant..tell it to fuck off.Lol it sounds silly, but it works you don't even know how well. And then think of something pleasant like one of you favorite things or a happy memory.  

06.And i think it's dangerous to just quit you medicine, you could tell to your doctor that you want to try alternative medicine and they'll guide you on what to do.

use this to find out when the moon will be in taurus where you live(http://www.lunarium.co.uk/?location=Tam ... mat=degMin) make sure it isn't in void! if you start when it's void it wont work.

runes(http://thelightofea.webs.com/apps/blog/ ... -the-runes)


OMG Lol I posted A LOT of info..it must be because the moon is in Aries lol. I hope all this helps though

 

[Rebecca Martin]

Thank you so much for understanding, me seeing and hearing things is a gift and I should use it. Unfortunately I am in Canada with a family trip I was forced to go to so I can not meditate or even masterbate but I will came back to the U.S on Monday!!! Save up for my own place and just mediate, learn, and make myself a true satanist I was ment to be but thank you so much

On Jul 17, 2014 11:23 AM, "no.state@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Sometimes, Father Satan's power and love for us just mystifies me. Haha.

Rebecca, A little while back, I also woke up, every morning and the first words to enter my mind were "I need to die." Not, "I want to die" but "I NEED to die." It was very much like they were words from someone else and not my own, (because they were and now I know).

Also, you should know, you're not "crazy," for merely being sensitive to seeing and hearing things others cannot. You're not "broken" simply because you are VASTLY SUPERIOR to those kikes. Remember, the enemy lies to you. ALL THEY KNOW IS TO LIE LIE LIE UPON LIES! Their "psychiatry" is NOT based on actual, legitimate science. I've had licensed psychiatrists admit as much to me.

You're not crazy. More likely, you're surrounded by enemy energies, seeking to pre-emptively destroy you, because you pose a threat to those weak, cowardly monsters and vampires. 

Raise your energies. Have sex (or masturbate) regularly and as often as you can. Meditate RAUM into each and every one of your chakras, one-at-a-time, eight times apiece. Visualize the sigils of our Gods and Goddesses as often as you need to and talk to them. Meditate, even when it's not easy.

Now is not the time toget down o yourself or to give up and quit. Now is the time to set your mind to finding a way through - forcefully if you must.

And, please, please believe me when I tell you, you CAN trust Father Satan to get you through this and strengthen you further. The enemy fears you. This is why they're trying to murder you. They know, should you ever find your True Power, they've an ass-whippin' comin'.

Also, FWIW, at the time of my own struggles with those implanted suicidal thoughts, one of the friends who Father Satan sent my way, his last name was Martin, too.

I cannot help but praise Father Satan and ALL of the Tue Gods and Goddesses of Duat, anymore.

 

[Rebecca Martin]

Thanks for the support guys! It truly means a lot right now, and I always find you guys and Satan to be comforting. I do have a purpose to live now, and not die over some stupid boy. Especially when I have great helping hands here,  and Satan by my side
Hail Satan!

On Jul 21, 2014 11:58 AM, "iexya108@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I used to be where you are now and I just want to say you can and will get better. And you are not alone! You have Satan, your guardian, and the other gods&goddess...they are protecting you,guiding you, and they care and love you! They haven't given up on you so you shouldn't either!! Not to mention everyone on this group is here for you. A lot of us have had horrible lives and have a lot of problems, but that's the greatest gift Satan gives us...we can change it and make it better! we don't have to suffer anymore! No matter how bad things are you can always fix it and start over! The past is the past, don't keep dreading over it...it doesn't do anything, but make you feel horrible and waste your time. Just forget everything and start from scratch, that's what I did.    

01.Start building an aura of protection(http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ction.html) and cleaning you aura and chakras(http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html) daily as much as possible(depression is caused by holes in your aura and having a dirty aura/chakras), I clean my aura almost every hour 40x using the sauil rune and my chakras 8x each using sauil again and affirm "my
___ is completely and totally clean and empowered in every way NOW". while visualizing a bright white/gold light like the sun around me/my chakra.

02. you should probably do a detaching med. too. I can't find the original post, but I'll just post it on here.Breathe in satanic blue energy on a chakra(when you breathe in imagine light flowing into/around your chakra) and imagine it burning away all connections(like vines wrapped around it) Then on the exhale vibrate the Aza rune 9x and affirm "My _ is now free from any and all connections and influences from all enemies of Satan and those who are without eternally and completely NOW." do this for each chakra. then clean your aura and chakras.

03.You can also do a 40day working on banishing your depression. just do a full satanic rosary(108x) and affirm that your depression is complexly and totally gone etc.You can use the wunjo rune,This rune is excellent for banishing depression.You can start when the moon is in Taurus(long lasting) and because it's waning(good for endings) now is the perfect time to do it

04.take care of yourself! get healthy!...eat better(http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/diet-recovery), workout(http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/e ... depression), and do hatha yoga daily...also do things fun, splurge on yourself etc. Just make sure not to do anything you might regret later.

05.What I also started to do is really simple, whenever you get a bad thought, memory, etc. anything that's unpleasant..tell it to fuck off.Lol it sounds silly, but it works you don't even know how well. And then think of something pleasant like one of you favorite things or a happy memory.  

06.And i think it's dangerous to just quit you medicine, you could tell to your doctor that you want to try alternative medicine and they'll guide you on what to do.

use this to find out when the moon will be in taurus where you live(http://www.lunarium.co.uk/?location=Tam ... mat=degMin) make sure it isn't in void! if you start when it's void it wont work.

runes(http://thelightofea.webs.com/apps/blog/ ... -the-runes)


OMG Lol I posted A LOT of info..it must be because the moon is in Aries lol. I hope all this helps though

 

[cand.cru5h3r1]

I don't fully understand what you're asking