Difficulty,can you help me?

[lukaswaddell]

Hello Brothers and Sisters! i have been dedicated since October of last year and with my progression i have learned things about myself one of them being that i am a sociopath. Most people will describe a Sociopath as a person with a personality disorder and it will basically be saying that the person is "Evil". Well as i far as i know i am not evil but i am a sociopath. Everyone is different and so are all Sociopaths. I have been finding meditation really difficult not because of lack of concentration or persistence but I am cold hearted, i don't feel empathy or remorse etc. I feel that my lack of emotional connection is making it harder for me to progress spiritually, not that its impossible. I was wondering if My fellow brothers and sisters could give me some advice me so that i may see progress. over these months iv'e had times where i thought i was progressing but it was hard for me to know if it wasn't just my imagination, that it just wasn't me wanting to progress so badly that i believed i was progressing but wasn't actually progressing. I've read the JOS website countless times and memorized the basic meditations for trance and cleansing among others.

 

[radzio_ss]

The key here is remaining consistent. The truth is that advancement that can have noticeable effects takes time. Trust me, if you are doing meditations daily then you ARE advancing, whether you are aware of it or not. I know that the pace can sometimes be slow and annoying, but don't give up.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "lukaswaddell" <waddell494@... wrote:

Hello Brothers and Sisters! i have been dedicated since October of last year and with my progression i have learned things about myself one of them being that i am a sociopath. Most people will describe a Sociopath as a person with a personality disorder and it will basically be saying that the person is "Evil". Well as i far as i know i am not evil but i am a sociopath. Everyone is different and so are all Sociopaths. I have been finding meditation really difficult not because of lack of concentration or persistence but I am cold hearted, i don't feel empathy or remorse etc. I feel that my lack of emotional connection is making it harder for me to progress spiritually, not that its impossible. I was wondering if My fellow brothers and sisters could give me some advice me so that i may see progress. over these months iv'e had times where i thought i was progressing but it was hard for me to know if it wasn't just my imagination, that it just wasn't me wanting to progress so badly that i believed i was progressing but wasn't actually progressing. I've read the JOS website countless times and memorized the basic meditations for trance and cleansing among others.

 

[lukaswaddell]

I have been looking at monastic living lately. I would of course be secretly studying and doing the meditations given to us from Father Satan. I would put all of the information in a journal and keep it with me always. I would go to a monastery in Japan i personally hate china. I hate life now a days i cant stand it, it is so stressful. im young so i do not really have ties besides family and it wouldnt be hard for me make the change. I was just wondering what you guys think about it. I would be able to just focus on getting stronger and nothing would distract me, it would basically be amazing. Plus japan is clean, the government is great in comparison to the rest of the world obviously there is a lot of preparation for this and i understand this. So i want to hear your thoughts on this what do you guys think?

-HAIL SATAN

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:

The key here is remaining consistent. The truth is that advancement that can have noticeable effects takes time. Trust me, if you are doing meditations daily then you ARE advancing, whether you are aware of it or not. I know that the pace can sometimes be slow and annoying, but don't give up.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "lukaswaddell" <waddell494@ wrote:

Hello Brothers and Sisters! i have been dedicated since October of last year and with my progression i have learned things about myself one of them being that i am a sociopath. Most people will describe a Sociopath as a person with a personality disorder and it will basically be saying that the person is "Evil". Well as i far as i know i am not evil but i am a sociopath. Everyone is different and so are all Sociopaths. I have been finding meditation really difficult not because of lack of concentration or persistence but I am cold hearted, i don't feel empathy or remorse etc. I feel that my lack of emotional connection is making it harder for me to progress spiritually, not that its impossible. I was wondering if My fellow brothers and sisters could give me some advice me so that i may see progress. over these months iv'e had times where i thought i was progressing but it was hard for me to know if it wasn't just my imagination, that it just wasn't me wanting to progress so badly that i believed i was progressing but wasn't actually progressing. I've read the JOS website countless times and memorized the basic meditations for trance and cleansing among others.

 

[misza2]

True that.

Slow and annoying pace - I can tell all about it. I've been meditating every day for over a year now (closer to a year and a half, as well as doing some other exercises like Yoga) and I still see no progress to speak of.

I guess that some people have it harder than the others.

Still, I believe (I can't really say "I know" as I haven't experienced it, so far I can only go by what others say/write and my own "guts") the end effect is worth all the time and energy put into it.

"Never give up" wasn't ever my motto but somehow, I was able to "keep going" for that long (stated above) that it is, in itself, a kind of a "miracle". That's the only "developing" activity I was able to keep at for longer than a few days/weeks.

Hail all the True Gods!
Hail Gods of War!
/Mike

 

[Magus Immortalis]

If you can afford it and your parents are cool with it. But are you finished high school yet? Be sure to finish high school first, that education is important.Even if you live in a monastery, and do the meditations from JoS, eventually you have to leave the monastery and come back to the real world to work and deal with what is real life.Living in a monastery is ideal. But the real world is not ideal. And sooner or later we have to face the reality of life.Lots of us here live with family, work, are raising a family and paying bills and/or running a household, yet still find time for meditation and yoga and a relationship with Lord Satan. It's about balance and priorities. As well as time management and setting a good routine.Life is stressful, I agree. But find something that will help you relieve that stress. It could be going to the gym, taking time everyday to do something just for YOU, whether it be reading, spending time with a loved one, for example.But meditation and yoga help reduce stress, I find. So don't give up your power meditation and yoga program!Even just going for a evening walk or morning run will help your mood. Find what works for you. And stick with it. Good luck!
Hail Satan!


From: lukaswaddell <waddell494@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, March 23, 2013 10:01:52 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Difficulty,can you help me? (japan monastery)

  I have been looking at monastic living lately. I would of course be secretly studying and doing the meditations given to us from Father Satan. I would put all of the information in a journal and keep it with me always. I would go to a monastery in Japan i personally hate china. I hate life now a days i cant stand it, it is so stressful. im young so i do not really have ties besides family and it wouldnt be hard for me make the change. I was just wondering what you guys think about it. I would be able to just focus on getting stronger and nothing would distract me, it would basically be amazing. Plus japan is clean, the government is great in comparison to the rest of the world obviously there is a lot of preparation for this and i understand this. So i want to hear your thoughts on this what do you guys think?

-HAIL SATAN

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:

The key here is remaining consistent. The truth is that advancement that can have noticeable effects takes time. Trust me, if you are doing meditations daily then you ARE advancing, whether you are aware of it or not. I know that the pace can sometimes be slow and annoying, but don't give up.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "lukaswaddell" <waddell494@ wrote:

Hello Brothers and Sisters! i have been dedicated since October of last year and with my progression i have learned things about myself one of them being that i am a sociopath. Most people will describe a Sociopath as a person with a personality disorder and it will basically be saying that the person is "Evil". Well as i far as i know i am not evil but i am a sociopath. Everyone is different and so are all Sociopaths. I have been finding meditation really difficult not because of lack of concentration or persistence but I am cold hearted, i don't feel empathy or remorse etc. I feel that my lack of emotional connection is making it harder for me to progress spiritually, not that its impossible. I was wondering if My fellow brothers and sisters could give me some advice me so that i may see progress. over these months iv'e had times where i thought i was progressing but it was hard for me to know if it wasn't just my imagination, that it just wasn't me wanting to progress so badly that i believed i was progressing but wasn't actually progressing. I've read the JOS website countless times and memorized the basic meditations for trance and cleansing among others.

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Do you keep a journal? You can keep track of your progress that way. It might seem slow, if you look at it day by day. But if look over the weeks that has passed, you might be surprised at how far you have come.
Hail Satan!
From: misza2 <misza2@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, March 23, 2013 7:18:49 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Difficulty,can you help me?

  True that.

Slow and annoying pace - I can tell all about it. I've been meditating every day for over a year now (closer to a year and a half, as well as doing some other exercises like Yoga) and I still see no progress to speak of.

I guess that some people have it harder than the others.

Still, I believe (I can't really say "I know" as I haven't experienced it, so far I can only go by what others say/write and my own "guts") the end effect is worth all the time and energy put into it.

"Never give up" wasn't ever my motto but somehow, I was able to "keep going" for that long (stated above) that it is, in itself, a kind of a "miracle". That's the only "developing" activity I was able to keep at for longer than a few days/weeks.

Hail all the True Gods!
Hail Gods of War!
/Mike

 

[Melissa Akins]

Heve you tried using imagery instead of yoga?

--- On Sat, 3/23/13, misza2 <misza2@... wrote:

From: misza2 <misza2@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Difficulty,can you help me?
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Saturday, March 23, 2013, 4:18 AM
True that.

Slow and annoying pace - I can tell all about it. I've been
meditating every day for over a year now (closer to a year
and a half, as well as doing some other exercises like Yoga)
and I still see no progress to speak of.

I guess that some people have it harder than the others.

Still, I believe (I can't really say "I know" as I haven't
experienced it, so far I can only go by what others
say/write and my own "guts") the end effect is worth all the
time and energy put into it.

"Never give up" wasn't ever my motto but somehow, I was able
to "keep going" for that long (stated above) that it is, in
itself, a kind of a "miracle". That's the only "developing"
activity I was able to keep at for longer than a few
days/weeks.

Hail all the True Gods!
Hail Gods of War!
/Mike



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