Hello Everyone!
I'm not new here, I joined last year. But, then I forgot my account information. So, I was very annoyed for the fact that I couldn't even see the posts. I had witnessed something unworldly a couple months ago. I wanted to share, but I couldn't. After that incident I kinda became distant from satanism. Also, I was trying to dedicate my soul. And I don't know why but the knife I was using just wasn't working. Which was extremely annoying.
First, I would like to share the incident that occurred with me. So, basically I was out with my friends, we were smoking marijuana(a lot of it), and I was extremely high. Anyways, after coming back home. I wanted to sleep, but I normally can't sleep until 3AM(I don't know why). So, I was awake and moving around on my bed trying to lay in a comfortable position. So, after awhile I didn't realise when my eyes shut or I slept. But, then I was literally standing next to my body(which was laying on the bed). I had no clue what was going on. So, I being all confused, walked to my mothers room to see if all of this was real. And as I approached the entrance of my mothers room. I looked into the room, and saw this Black Gaseous figure sitting on the chest of my mother. And I started to panic, thinking that it was eating my mother. So I started to scream "Maaaaa!" and it seemed as though I was mute. Even though I was panicking and screaming. And suddenly the black gaseous figure turns towards me and comes right in-front of my face. And I'm so horrified I don't know what to do, so I chant this mantra that my mother chants when she goes to religious meets.(Even though I don't ever chant it). And suddenly I wake up from my bed, and am Sweating like crazy. I have a very very painful migraine. Not understanding anything I go and sleep next to my mother, making sure she's alive. And as I am laying down thinking what just happened. The television which is hung on the wall in her bedroom, switches on by itself. And I just say one thing "Lord Lucifer Satan is my god, and if you ever try to harm me bad will come to you!". The television switched off and then the entire week, things were disappearing and appearing in places I hadn't touched. Like my car keys were in my closet, my USB was in my shoe. My chair moved from my room to the living room, my Closet door which is hard to open(its made of steel), opened by itself at night.
I read that, once we start praying to Satan. Other forces will try to distract me. And I think that this was the other forces trying to scare me away. But I didn't give up, a couple months past and I choose to dedicate my soul to Satan. It was a Tuesday(Every Tuesday, my mother goes to her religious community meeting), When my mother left I set up 2 black candles, 2 red candles, that is all I had. And I wrote the words down on a piece of paper. I took a bath, and then I sat for awhile. I was really happy that I would do this today. I took the sharpest knife from the kitchen, I chose a knife because in-order to get needles I need a doctors prescription in my country(it sucks). As I am trying to cut my finger, nothing is happening. I made like 6 cuts and no blood comes out. I was so pissed off, I didn't know what was happening. And as I'm doing it, I get a call that my mum is nearly home. So, my mood was ruined because even though I had everything set up and did everything except the blood signature. I couldn't dedicate. I couldn't understand why the knife didn't work.
After that day, I was just super confused and still am. So, I bought myself a Rudraksha, and japa mala. And I chant and cite Hindi Mantras that help me meditate. I meditate everyday, but I just don't feel as though anything is happening. And is it important that I have to have sex to activate my sacral chakra? I'm a virgin. When I listen to Shiv Mantra's I can feel the energy flowing around my body. And is it normal for the lower most portion of the spine to hurt when we start meditating?
Excuse my punctuation and vocabulary. English is not my first language.
Hope someone can just explain to me what happened.
Hail Almighty Lord Lucifer!!
But now, who created the parents of the parents of the parents of the parents of our Gods... well, that I don't know. ^^; 
