Hello sir, this is Raven. Now what counts and matters is that you wish to pick yourself back up off your feet and knees and continue on moving forward. If you built a bad reputation for yourself in the past, that could have effect on other Spiritual Satanists outlook on you, but better late than ever to crawl back if that is the process you are working toward. Satan accepts those who crawl back, though those who have asked him to leave their life Im sure there is proof to ones self he does observe before any energy of his is put into someone who turns out to crawl back. I wouldnt be so hard on yourself if I were you though, it happens to some, and if you truly want to return to Spiritually progressing towards godhead and beyond like you agreed to in the dedication ritual, had you actually performed it, Im sure Enki would be quite happy that you are returning to a healthy lifestyle and will hopefully move yourself forward to attain that among make your life progressively the way you want it, being the best you make yourself to be and continuing to learn and grow. No reason to feel like you are unwanted, the feelings of shame are a given, but dont let them act as a stopper, a deterant of sorts. Pick yourself up, prove to yourself rather than others you can and will attain your desires large small and in between, spritually mentally and physically. Put that explosive force behind yourself, and not devote it to others, which often has ended badly in situations that used to be me in in the past that I learned and changed positively from. Know you are moving forward and getting to where you desire, shed the shame and have some pride if you truly do wish to be a part of what I almost see as a militaristic family, the elite of the elite above all others on this planet. Its not worth harboring negativity, learn from your mistakes, apply the lessons and move forward, I personally believe you will be just fine coming back to Spiritual Satanism. Hope this served as a bit of enlightenment and encouragement to you.
Raven, Winds of Change
Hail Enki!
Hail Baal!
Hail Azazel!
Hail Ashteroth!
Hail Andras!
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From: yc28@...
Date: Sun, 26 Aug 2012 13:40:33 -0700
Subject: Re: [Satanicgaycommunity] Coming Home
By the way i once fell off Spiritual Satanism and i was not doing my daily meditations ect.. I believe i am not the only one. But i am back here again and not falling.
Hail Satan!
From: avulias <avulias@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, August 26, 2012 1:40 PM
Subject: [Satanicgaycommunity] Coming Home
Good day all.
I don't know how to start this, i feel ashamed for what i have done. I where a active spiritualist a few years back. I fell for their lies, i left spiritualism, i threw away everything for a so called love. I do not know what to even type. When i read all these post i feel like i am not worthy to come back... if any support can be given or advice i would appreciate it very much. I want to return so badly... but i am filled with doubt that i will not be accepted back.
I am sorry for this long message, hope someone can help.
