rickygreen01261999
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Hey guys, first time post here. I'd like to start off by saying that I came across the JoS website when I was about 13; I'm now 18 and in a much better position to practice what I feel is my true religion. Before I get into the specific questions I would appreciate guidance for, I'd like to give a bit of background on my experience.When I fist came across the site and began studying back around 2012-13, I was dedicated to the beliefs of the left-hand path and was always eager to further my knowledge and relationship with Satan and his Demons. I even dedicated my soul to Satan within days of coming across the community using the ritual provided on the site- and that's one of the main subjects I'm concerned about. As I said, at the time I performed the dedication ritual, I was only about 13, and looking back I've realized that I may have not truly understood the words in which I wrote down on that paper and signed in my blood. In-between the time I dedicated my soul and today, which has been about 5 years, I fell away from Satan and the JoS community. When I was about 16, my christian grandmother, who is very forceful of her beliefs, took me to get "baptized" at a local scum christian church. However, I of course have never felt a real connection to the false christian god, thank Satan! However, the baptism and falling away from the truth concerns me-I'd like to note that in the past few days, I have come back to Satanism and have been studying restlessly; completely reading the book "Satanism" by Brother Nero (any thoughts on this book?) and extensively studying the JoS site. Some of what I read was a refresher of what I read when I was 13, but now I feel that I have a much better understanding looking at things with a matured mind. -I'd also like to note that as I read through the dedication ritual FAQ I was able to come to a peace of mind when I read that the false christian baptisms are nothing but a hoax. However, I hope the fact that I participated in this doesn't ruin my relationship with Satan or his Demons. I also read that the dedication ritual is very real and should only be done once, however, DOES MY LACK OF UNDERSTANDING AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE HAVE AN EXCEPTION TO THIS? I feel that maybe because I didn't truly have a full understanding, the ritual may have been invalid. I'm now 18 and living on my own, with a much better understanding on our true religion, and a lot more freedom to practice it. I appreciate any feedback and guidance you guys have to offer! thank you!