Coming back redemption

[Satan's pilgrim80]

Hello fellow Satanists, I was a spiritual Satanist some years ago I studied most of the contents from the main site, made the dedication signed in blood even, started the 40 day meditation program however halfway trough the program my mind just got flooded with doubt is this real am I in the right path, more and more doubts then some people were making articles about Jos being a lie plagiarism no more than a money making scheme by Pythia, so back then I quit gave up, done a ritual of my own reversing the dedication and that was that, however years have come and gone and I feel I'm still blessed my life goes better than ever despite the chaos of late I feel gifted protected but plagued with thoughts of remorse guilt and unworthiness did I make the wrong decision am I just a betrayer a fool, it sucks to be the prodigal son returning home, but I couldn't take it anymore this feeling of guilt and unworthiness,I know I have no right to be asking anything but what should I do am I lost,forever estranged in this place an outsider betrayer, thank you anyway sorry to take your time.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

One can only be deluded with these ideas, as they don't coincide with any reality. Money making? Who asked you for any money or anyone else? And what do you think this is? The striking majority of people in this side are beaten individuals who come to Satan desperate for a quick buck to sell their soul for the price of a donut.

The thing is as you probably know, you did the dedication like many other do, and you got in a sense blessed materially. Some people don't return the favor, and this creates guilt in someone for obvious reasons. In the back of your mind you may still know you should advance spiritually.

Eventually also one does not have any special perks such as spiritual ability or protection. And these states don't last forever unless one is really cautious. In this case, returning and meditating is the only way to move past chaos and keep your things going, because fate can be cruel in these situations.

 

[Satan's pilgrim80]

One can only be deluded with these ideas, as they don't coincide with any reality. Money making? Who asked you for any money or anyone else? And what do you think this is? The striking majority of people in this side are beaten individuals who come to Satan desperate for a quick buck to sell their soul for the price of a donut.

The thing is as you probably know, you did the dedication like many other do, and you got in a sense blessed materially. Some people don't return the favor, and this creates guilt in someone for obvious reasons. In the back of your mind you may still know you should advance spiritually.

Eventually also one does not have any special perks such as spiritual ability or protection. And these states don't last forever unless one is really cautious. In this case, returning and meditating is the only way to move past chaos and keep your things going, because fate can be cruel in these situations.

thank you for answering, I'm glad to see you are still around cobra , in the back of my mind I keep feeling a void an emptyness I ignored it for so long but I kept feeling drawn to the Jos, how do I get to face him? I'm ashamed enough as it is I guess redemption is a bit##, I'm not expecting easy fixes after what I have done, just some guiding light I'll take responsibility bear the burden of redemption.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

One can only be deluded with these ideas, as they don't coincide with any reality. Money making? Who asked you for any money or anyone else? And what do you think this is? The striking majority of people in this side are beaten individuals who come to Satan desperate for a quick buck to sell their soul for the price of a donut.

The thing is as you probably know, you did the dedication like many other do, and you got in a sense blessed materially. Some people don't return the favor, and this creates guilt in someone for obvious reasons. In the back of your mind you may still know you should advance spiritually.

Eventually also one does not have any special perks such as spiritual ability or protection. And these states don't last forever unless one is really cautious. In this case, returning and meditating is the only way to move past chaos and keep your things going, because fate can be cruel in these situations.

thank you for answering, I'm glad to see you are still around cobra , in the back of my mind I keep feeling a void an emptyness I ignored it for so long but I kept feeling drawn to the Jos, how do I get to face him? I'm ashamed enough as it is I guess redemption is a bit##, I'm not expecting easy fixes after what I have done, just some guiding light I'll take responsibility bear the burden of redemption.

It's not about redemption from your sins it's that you've wrong yourself mostly that's all.

You do this by meditating and stating your situation in a genuine way. No words or excuses here, just doing the right thing will do. And staying at it.

Wish you a lot of luck.

 

[Satan's pilgrim80]

One can only be deluded with these ideas, as they don't coincide with any reality. Money making? Who asked you for any money or anyone else? And what do you think this is? The striking majority of people in this side are beaten individuals who come to Satan desperate for a quick buck to sell their soul for the price of a donut.

The thing is as you probably know, you did the dedication like many other do, and you got in a sense blessed materially. Some people don't return the favor, and this creates guilt in someone for obvious reasons. In the back of your mind you may still know you should advance spiritually.

Eventually also one does not have any special perks such as spiritual ability or protection. And these states don't last forever unless one is really cautious. In this case, returning and meditating is the only way to move past chaos and keep your things going, because fate can be cruel in these situations.

thank you for answering, I'm glad to see you are still around cobra , in the back of my mind I keep feeling a void an emptyness I ignored it for so long but I kept feeling drawn to the Jos, how do I get to face him? I'm ashamed enough as it is I guess redemption is a bit##, I'm not expecting easy fixes after what I have done, just some guiding light I'll take responsibility bear the burden of redemption.

It's not about redemption from your sins it's that you've wrong yourself mostly that's all.

You do this by meditating and stating your situation in a genuine way. No words or excuses here, just doing the right thing will do. And staying at it.

Wish you a lot of luck.

Thank you,when I say redemption I'm not referring to the Christian concept of sin, just redemption for a mistake accepting and moving forowards making up for it fixing what I have wronged,though I left the Jos I allways maintained my view of Christianity I despise everything judeo Christian

 

[Satan's pilgrim80]

One can only be deluded with these ideas, as they don't coincide with any reality. Money making? Who asked you for any money or anyone else? And what do you think this is? The striking majority of people in this side are beaten individuals who come to Satan desperate for a quick buck to sell their soul for the price of a donut.

The thing is as you probably know, you did the dedication like many other do, and you got in a sense blessed materially. Some people don't return the favor, and this creates guilt in someone for obvious reasons. In the back of your mind you may still know you should advance spiritually.

Eventually also one does not have any special perks such as spiritual ability or protection. And these states don't last forever unless one is really cautious. In this case, returning and meditating is the only way to move past chaos and keep your things going, because fate can be cruel in these situations.

What is your opinion on this? Specially the first answer in this link

Thank you.