Carry on?

[LDL23691]

I have one question. I've been dedicating well over a year I'm getting to know my soul more each day I had a let's say addiction when I came here I was led here in a hopeless no more life in me state I've done good if I have to grade myself I've never stuck to anything I am severely strict on myself then I will get back in self destruct mode for a day or two hate myself admit to FATHER im ridiculous in my decisions that set me back. Vicious cycle. I won't own my recklessness its not me or where I'm going but it occurs. im doing a working now I'm in 24 days other than the 40 day which took 4 plus months of self doubt and laziness I've stuck with fighting the fight everyday and this working I've asked buer for healing my problem which I believe he guiding me but I have to put forth the effort and redirect my desire for destructive habits. My question is anyone please chime in if I mess up after I've asked for help what do I do? Something tells me ok it done no undoing get the toxicity out and restart until I get right one day I'll get it right. Any advise? I'm my worst critic in this word I've finally realized I'm a child of SATAN and I am worthy after 47 years of not belonging always being lonely never being heard. I do know I'm home the ones that I cared what they thought have become ugly and unappealing in everyway I hope that's progress I don't feel alone ever so maybe I answered myself! Sorry it's been a rough day I'm rambling I've wasted a lot of energy on those who are without and think they are one step ahead of me. Thanks to everyone who reads this I needed to be heard and no one would shut up. Respect to all.
HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER!!!!

 

[Anonymous]

I will say this much. Addiction is actually shown in the astrology chart, which is basically the "DNA" of your soul. But this working will definitely help you CHANGE that, for it is indeed possible to change our astrology chart through meditation and workings. If you mess it up, as said before, just continue, restarting until you finish a full 40 day working. Even if you mess up early,  you WILL notice that it will become easier to continue it each time you start, as you will get closer and closer to the 40 days. Good luck to you comrade!

On Thursday, August 10, 2017 10:25 PM, "LDL2369 ldwest1969@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I have one question. I've been dedicating well over a year I'm getting to know my soul more each day I had a let's say addiction when I came here I was led here in a hopeless no more life in me state I've done good if I have to grade myself I've never stuck to anything I am severely strict on myself then I will get back in self destruct mode for a day or two hate myself admit to FATHER im ridiculous in my decisions that set me back. Vicious cycle. I won't own my recklessness its not me or where I'm going but it occurs. im doing a working now I'm in 24 days other than the 40 day which took 4 plus months of self doubt and laziness I've stuck with fighting the fight everyday and this working I've asked buer for healing my problem which I believe he guiding me but I have to put forth the effort and redirect my desire for destructive habits. My question is anyone please chime in if I mess up after I've asked for help what do I do? Something tells me ok it done no undoing get the toxicity out and restart until I get right one day I'll get it right. Any advise? I'm my worst critic in this word I've finally realized I'm a child of SATAN and I am worthy after 47 years of not belonging always being lonely never being heard. I do know I'm home the ones that I cared what they thought have become ugly and unappealing in everyway I hope that's progress I don't feel alone ever so maybe I answered myself! Sorry it's been a rough day I'm rambling I've wasted a lot of energy on those who are without and think they are one step ahead of me. Thanks to everyone who reads this I needed to be heard and no one would shut up. Respect to all.
HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER!!!!

 

[LDL23691]

Thank you for your encouragement and response. I read a post from Aldric Strickland that felt like it was written for me. About falling and getting back up. I've done that a few times but I'm up and fighting. Thanks again!
HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER!!!

On Aug 11, 2017 3:09 PM, "Ljóss Myrkr ljossmyrkr@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  I will say this much. Addiction is actually shown in the astrology chart, which is basically the "DNA" of your soul. But this working will definitely help you CHANGE that, for it is indeed possible to change our astrology chart through meditation and workings. If you mess it up, as said before, just continue, restarting until you finish a full 40 day working. Even if you mess up early,  you WILL notice that it will become easier to continue it each time you start, as you will get closer and closer to the 40 days. Good luck to you comrade!

On Thursday, August 10, 2017 10:25 PM, "LDL2369 ldwest1969@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  I have one question. I've been dedicating well over a year I'm getting to know my soul more each day I had a let's say addiction when I came here I was led here in a hopeless no more life in me state I've done good if I have to grade myself I've never stuck to anything I am severely strict on myself then I will get back in self destruct mode for a day or two hate myself admit to FATHER im ridiculous in my decisions that set me back. Vicious cycle. I won't own my recklessness its not me or where I'm going but it occurs. im doing a working now I'm in 24 days other than the 40 day which took 4 plus months of self doubt and laziness I've stuck with fighting the fight everyday and this working I've asked buer for healing my problem which I believe he guiding me but I have to put forth the effort and redirect my desire for destructive habits. My question is anyone please chime in if I mess up after I've asked for help what do I do? Something tells me ok it done no undoing get the toxicity out and restart until I get right one day I'll get it right. Any advise? I'm my worst critic in this word I've finally realized I'm a child of SATAN and I am worthy after 47 years of not belonging always being lonely never being heard. I do know I'm home the ones that I cared what they thought have become ugly and unappealing in everyway I hope that's progress I don't feel alone ever so maybe I answered myself! Sorry it's been a rough day I'm rambling I've wasted a lot of energy on those who are without and think they are one step ahead of me. Thanks to everyone who reads this I needed to be heard and no one would shut up. Respect to all.
HAIL FATHER SATAN FOREVER!!!!