Sarah, this isn't the end of the world, even though it may feel like it. I've been in your shoes more times than I care to admit. I've literally been in the exact same situation. Your situation does differ in the fact that you are an immigrant and have a child. I can't even imagine that kind of fear, but I understand that it must be overwhelming.
As I said though, it is not the end of the world. You need to go ahead and take the suicide thing off the table. That cannot even be an option at this point. The fear of not being able to provide for your child must be tremendous, I get that, but imagine how much worse your child's situation would be if you were gone. The system is not a particularly pleasant place for a child to get stuck in, and it quite often messes children up for life, and I'm sure that is not what you want for your child.
I can only assume that you have not been a Satanist for long, and are not well versed in the practice of magick and meditation, and the idea of patience and believing must seem rather difficult right now. That is understandable. Our society has been governed and influenced and brainwashed for 2000 years by religious lies and spiritual slavery. That is a hard thing to break if you don't know how to use the keys provided from Satan. Your problem is very real to you, very immediate, and thus needs a very immediate and very real solution. Satan CAN and WILL provide this, given you use your mind, your resources and trust. You must think very hard and apply some foot work. You need to find strength, motivation and most of all DETERMINATION within yourself not to fail. That is what Satan wants from you, as he wants from all of us. Satan helps those who truly want to help themselves. I understand you feel helpless, but you are not helpless.
If you don't have family that is willing to help, start getting in touch with friends and see if anyone can let you stay with them for a short period of time while you find a new job and get a new place. If you feel like you must keep the place you are in, then contact your landlord and try to have a face-to-face meeting and see if it's possible to work out some sort of payment plan and make sure they understand the severity of your situation and that you have a child. Be sincere and try to offer any ideas that you think may help and that they would be receptive to. I have done this several times, and it did offer a temporary fix long enough for me to figure out a better situation. Start looking in your area for any available jobs. Contact friends or anyone you know and explain your situation and let them know you desperately need work and see if anyone offers any leads. You will be surprised at how well that actually works. Take these ideas, meditate on them, and start trying to build off of them and incorporate your own ideas with them until you form a solid plan, or at least some strong possibilities. You create your life through your own will. I don't know you, or who you know, or anything about you, but I do know that times like these are where we develop true strength and start to learn the valuable lessons we need to create the life we want for ourselves. I know it just feels like survival at the moment, but it's the first step in changing your future, and as a Satanist you have that power within yourself, and only YOU can apply knowledge and action to unlock that power. That is how Satan works through us. Satanists are not weak, nor are we helpless. We face adversities and tragedies just as the rest of the world, but we are warriors moving towards a common goal and that makes us stronger and smarter.
It is not wrong to ask for help in a situation like the one you're in, you just need to learn how to utilize and resources you have and work for a solution. We can offer you what we know on a spiritual scale as far as empowering yourself, but for situations like these it takes strength and determination that only you can provide, as I said earlier.
Do trust in Satan, and do not stop meditating, Do not think that He will not help you. Open your mind, USE your mind and start looking for signs. I hope that this helps.
HAIL SATAN!!!
On Mon, Jun 10, 2013 at 8:16 PM, hailourtruegod <
hailourtruegod@... wrote:
We personally can't do anything. Just ask father satan for help. Ne patient. He is there for all his children. Keep ur head up n stay strong sister
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[email protected][/url], Sarah Payton <sexciblond66@... wrote:
PLEASE ANYBODY THAT CAN HELP ME I'M SO LOST, I'M AT MY END. I'M GETTING
KICKED MY APARTMENT IN FRIDAY WITH MY 3 year old son. PLEASE PLEASE HELP I
KNOW THERE IS NO MEDIATORS IN SATANISM BUT I'M SO LOST I FEEL DEPRESSED I
DON'T WANT TO KILL MYSELF AND LEAVE MY SON BEHIND I HAVE BEEN BATTLING TOO
MANY OBSTACLES IN MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN IN MY APARTMENT 9 Months I CAN'T GET
KICKED OUT PLEASE SOMEONE HELP. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE I TRIED PRAYING TO
SATAN I GOT NO REPLY.I JUST BEEN CRYING OVER AND OVER AGAIN. PLEASE SOMEONE
HELP ME. I JUST NEED TO TALK TO SATAN SO HE CAN SHOW ME THE WAY.
