So you'v all been hearing me complain about meditation well I'm coming clean! you see ever since I did the dedication ritual I have doubted that Father even acepted me because after I did it I didn't feel his love as most have but I did feel somthing and it was sickly so I thought did he not want me? But now I know I was attacked by the enemy they wanted me to feel alone and depressed and they almost won too that is until someone came and viseted me and how do I know this well when I was playing a game I felt somthing like a little ant bite but there was no ant then my mind said "was that a pinch?" so I said "If anyones there could you please pinch me again?" but I some what blew it off because my body started to feel funky and when my parents got back home I started talking to them and the first thing I noticed was that my voice somewhat got a little deeper but it didnt stop there then I started to feel alot of joy and excitement and I felt like I could barely contain it I started laughing I knew that there was a god in me and so I asked if whoever was there could you help me with my meditation and he/she did I did I could feel how he/she guided my body to help it be in the most relaxed position we tryed so many things and eventualy got it :D my first sucsesful meditation and then for some reason I started to spill my heart out but I could feel the demon there listining to every word I started crying and such anyhow I feel much better.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!
HAIL THE TRUE Gods of Elysium!
