BPD - Borderline personality disorder. I can’t escape myself??

One way to break this cycle is to catch and regulate your emotions before they explode. We cannot totally control other people, but we can control ourselves. Therefore, if someone does something that makes you jealous, you can catch yourself here and calm yourself.

The emotion of jealousy, in my opinion, stems from a perception of powerlessness, and powerlessness can arise when people forget their own strengths. For some reason, you felt like you could not handle what that person did, so you attempted to "destroy" them, but if you felt that you could handle it in some way, you would not have felt as threatened in the first place.

The situation of a weak father or other relational abuse can train us to think, subconsciously or otherwise, that these sort of aggressive and pre-emptive attacks and other controlling behaviors are needed and acceptable, but we have to push against this, because any bad behavior influences how people view and interact with us. It is like your "informal" level of authority as a person.

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Thank you so much brother these words get to me and make a lot of sense. It could have saved me earlier. I will practice it now as well, to deal with the loss and eventually gain ground to be okay again and sail this ship.🙏🏼

This is self-imposed distance because it is very likely you have put up a barrier to them, too, under the same premise that they could hurt you somehow. Other people do this, too, by the way.

Knowing this, you can imagine their energy impacting you more strongly, because the limit is actually on your end and can therefore be consciously "opened" more than normal.

I think I feel shame besides them and a weird feeling that I could never comprehend how vast they truly are and that scares me.

Brother Serpentwalker created this post and I wanted to link it here if anyone might need help with this.

I just started the working and it’s very relieving and cathartic. I want to heal so I can be a better person to myself and so I don’t hurt the people I love and be a good mature person with them.

https://ancient-forums.com/threads/managing-borderline-personality-disorder.299608/ancient-forums.com

Brother Serpentwalker created this post and I wanted to link it here if anyone might need help with this.

I just started the working and it’s very relieving and cathartic. I want to heal so I can be a better person to myself and so I don’t hurt the people I love and be a good mature person with them.

Keep in mind this will ultimately take time, but as long as you are patient it will yield very good results. It can take some months, years even in some cases. This can be restarted at certain intervals and or done continuously for awhile. I am very happy and pleased this is helpful, this means a great deal to me as this is also a very personal matter for me regarding this specific disorder as I have relayed before.

Keep in mind this will ultimately take time, but as long as you are patient it will yield very good results. It can take some months, years even in some cases. This can be restarted at certain intervals and or done continuously for awhile. I am very happy and pleased this is helpful, this means a great deal to me as this is also a very personal matter for me regarding this specific disorder as I have relayed before.

I also think it will a bit quicker for this to resolve or be consistently under control as I am younger and the sickness hasn’t took enough time to completely crystallize my mental situation is more malleable than your wife propbably so I’m thankful for the help.

I’m happy I spoke up about this and got immediate and suitable help as it’s much worse when I’m silent.

Being understood and heard and provided with proper help resolved like 80% of the torture for me.

Keep in mind this will ultimately take time, but as long as you are patient it will yield very good results. It can take some months, years even in some cases. This can be restarted at certain intervals and or done continuously for awhile. I am very happy and pleased this is helpful, this means a great deal to me as this is also a very personal matter for me regarding this specific disorder as I have relayed before.

I’m usually also more under control, probably I lashed out immediately like this because I’ve been overwhelmed for so long while also forgetting to take care of myself for much longer and have been careless with my advancement and progress and gave in to just emotions.

I’m back on the right track now, with everything.

I also think it will a bit quicker for this to resolve or be consistently under control as I am younger and the sickness hasn’t took enough time to completely crystallize my mental situation is more malleable than your wife propbably so I’m thankful for the help.

I’m happy I spoke up about this and got immediate and suitable help as it’s much worse when I’m silent.

Being understood and heard and provided with proper help resolved like 80% of the torture for me.

The natural of this condition is circular. It is a very intense cycle and you will have good and bad days until this is resolved.

You can be fine for months or weeks and symptoms can crop up rather unexpectedly and intensely, for seemingly no apparent reason.

Make certain you follow through with doing this working for quite some time after it is through, and follow through therapy and whatever else is necessary in resolving this.

You may even have this gone, but symptoms kick up later down and need beat back with another working. Just keep this all mind.

You will be fine, but take your time with this, it is a very complicated problem.

**: Please be compassionate I’m going through a lot and can’t handle anything.

Okay, guys now I really know I need help.

I am really short of time today but I wanted to say a word.
I have been reading your posts for some time and I was barely sure you had similar buried issues. I know how it's had to bear similar suffering sometimes, please receive my sorrow and empathy for what you are going through. You are not alone here, do remember that please.
Send me a PM if you want to talk anyway.

I’m sorry for sounding so unstable but I’m really dying here..

You are NOT dying. I was convinced I was dying many years ago but this was in my mind only.
You know, traumatized people do have some buried selves, into subconscious mind, storing all negative emotions. When your ego is down, those selves may emerge, take over, and lead you to feel irrational fears and emotions like this. It's very overwhelming sometimes.

You can take those actions :
- Boost your ego so the buried negativity will be silenced again and you can cope with life. This can be done by pleasant activities (your favorite music, sports, weight lifting, sex, masturbation, going out to do something rewarding like a good lunch/dinner, playng some games, etc.). You need to boost your ego.
- Empower 3rd chakra in any way you can. Breath of Fire works greatly for me in those cases.
- Drink spicy teas like ginger, cinnamon, and the such.
- Everything that keeps your morale high.

I am really short of time today but I wanted to say a word.
I have been reading your posts for some time and I was barely sure you had similar buried issues. I know how it's had to bear similar suffering sometimes, please receive my sorrow and empathy for what you are going through. You are not alone here, do remember that please.
Send me a PM if you want to talk anyway.

You are NOT dying. I was convinced I was dying many years ago but this was in my mind only.
You know, traumatized people do have some buried selves, into subconscious mind, storing all negative emotions. When your ego is down, those selves may emerge, take over, and lead you to feel irrational fears and emotions like this. It's very overwhelming sometimes.

You can take those actions :
- Boost your ego so the buried negativity will be silenced again and you can cope with life. This can be done by pleasant activities (your favorite music, sports, weight lifting, sex, masturbation, going out to do something rewarding like a good lunch/dinner, playng some games, etc.). You need to boost your ego.
- Empower 3rd chakra in any way you can. Breath of Fire works greatly for me in those cases.
- Drink spicy teas like ginger, cinnamon, and the such.
- Everything that keeps your morale high.

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Thank you brother, this was kind of a low point for me.

But it caused me to get on a much much better path. I had many empowering epiphanies. I trust all that’s to come is only the best and that I deserve to be the best.

I’ve realized very deep mistakes and weaknesses that were buried and I was so accustomed to them I believed they were reality.

Reality is what I work towards and how I believe in myself.

I won’t talk much about it until it manifests but I have been put on a very powerful and electrifying path after this low point. I understand many things that have been plaguing me since many years and multiple relationships but accumulating on this year and this relationship.

You get it, the secret is in the self, the ego, the Sun, the fire, and the male chakras. They have the secrets to be limitless, I’m beginning to tap into this and I’m doing great. Now what’s needed is the discipline and patience to let it materialize

I’m also on the path again, I missed it, and I have been off it since like November. A transformation is brewing again.

I have access to all the tools, the Gods, and now myself, to be limitless.

Thank you brother.

Thank you brother, this was kind of a low point for me.

But it caused me to get on a much much better path. I had many empowering epiphanies. I trust all that’s to come is only the best and that I deserve to be the best.

I’ve realized very deep mistakes and weaknesses that were buried and I was so accustomed to them I believed they were reality.

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I'm glad you've had your realization, it was the same for me also and why I nudged you this direction in chat. Gotta be your own guy. Your self is the only thing that truly belongs to you and you only.

There is a divinity in the darkness, no matter how oppressive and crushing it is, because once you find your fire, that place is the birthplace of diamonds. The nigredo, the dark night of the soul.

There is a divinity in the darkness, no matter how oppressive and crushing it is, because once you find your fire, that place is the birthplace of diamonds. The nigredo, the dark night of the soul.

I know this to be the truth, my most powerful transformations were after reaching rock bottom physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.

Then you pull yourself up after pain, and you begin the process of transformation of turning lead to Gold, and you’re free from things that seemed inescapable, then you have a story to tell.

Writing this I remember the thread I created for food addiction and I was getting fatter by the day, bingeing and I was ugly, I just also remembered I haven’t been fat since July and the addiction has resolved totally. I thought ot was inescapable. Now I’m planning for something much bigger, transformation is brewing.

This is the truth about the story in the “falling” of Lucifer. It’s time to RISE.🔥