leon.wanderi
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Hi
I'm writing this post to express myself and to give other Satanists some ideas on how to go about life. It's going to be a very long post so take your time reading it. I'll first start with a little about my self.
I finished high school in June 2010 and my parents didn't have money to take me to University so I stayed home, I did nothing much for the rest of the year. Then in 2011 after I got a stable internet connection a whole new world of learning opened up to me. I did a bunch of stuff like online poker , computer programming and watched many documentaries, that was when I came across Ancient Aliens. If you haven't seen it, it's a documentary that suggests Extra terrestrials came in the distant past and created humanity as a slave race, also it shows proof of archeological sites around the world that were supposedly built by Gods. I was fascinated by this, even as a christian at the time. I wasn't a real christian, I mean I never prayed or read the bible, I only considered myself a christian because I was surrounded by xtians and my parents were both xtians. After watching Ancient Aliens and George Carlin on youtube I could no longer consider my self a xtian.
Two moths later I came across JOS while looking for information on how to be telekenetic. When I found the site I was amazed. HP Maxine had made all the pieces fit together about things that I often wondered about and had made so much knowledge available to all. I had read that JOS had been hacked once so I downloaded the whole site to my computer as well as the sermons on youtube. If for some reason the site is hacked again or taken offline at least I will have a backup. So I went through the site and read the articles some more than 3 times and decided to embark on a journey of knowledge.
So I decided to make a list of things that were important to me and do them every day
1. Power meditation (concentration & telekenesis)
2. Working out (sit ups, press ups, jogging etc)
3. Maths and Physics ( scientific knowledge and occult knowledge is important)
From July 2012 every day I practiced my concentration and telekenesis, I worked out and did some maths or read an article on physics. I've always been interested in maths and physics and the universe in general, also studying the occult from a scientific viewpoint helps. It had to be consistent so I had to learn and improve every day.
How did it go?
1. After 3 days of telekenesis practice I got the psi wheel to spin. I always used a handkerchief(to cover my nose & mouth) to make sure I don't blow or breath on it. At first it was spinning slowly, just for 2 or 3 seconds. Then I got it so spin for as long as 2 minutes at a time and even in both directions. This was after a 2 weeks of practice. I was slowly improving, I could even do it from a distance across the room. The power meditation improved my mind. I felt more focused and aware and was also able to remember certain things like what someone was wearing 2 days ago and paying attention to small details. It wasn't a super memory I just had more attention than normal.
2. I worked out everyday not only for a healthy body but also for my Aura. I want it to become strong. I think it helps my telekenesis.
3. I tried reading physics book once but didn't understand it, so I decided to brush up on my maths by starting from the basics, with Algebra. In future I plan on learning about waves, light, nuclear physics, consciousness, existence, the universe and anything else important. I'm only 18 so I have the rest of my life to learn these things. KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.
Things went well until mid May. My mum got some money and sent me to a university, a boarding xtian university. I was unlucky that I got accepted. I've never liked school in general, I prefer to learn things by myself. This university really sucks. I had to take 3 bible classes last semester, obviously I didn't go to the classes or do the exams so I now have 3 Fs. Also there is a church service on tuesday's and thursday's every week. I only went once(in the whole semester) and now I risk expulsion if I miss church next semester again. They have a roll call and if you don't sign they'll know you didn't go and you'll get in trouble. Also there are 4 people per room, so I have 3 other room mates and no privacy.
The worst part is I've now stopped my power meditation and telekenesis practise and my daily work outs. I have no time or privacy. I still consider myself a Satanist even after losing the little power I had and not doing the meditations. I am now unable to spin a psi wheel, I've tried a few times this month. It did spin but I can only do one at a time and I have to give it a lot of effort, before I could spin two without any effort. Looking at them was enough.
Being a Satanist isn't easy. You often have to deal with some xtian crap and be some kind of social outcast. My mum tells me that I'm antisocial and that I live in "my own world". I've argued with her many times. One time she accused me of not closing my eyes when someone was praying and for calling god an invisible man. She took it so seriously that we had an argument. She said that the internet has corrupted me and I'm stupid for believing these things(she once caught me on JOS on the computer) and that I'm going to hell and that it will be my fault when I get there.
I hate my school and my home. Sometimes I feel that I'm trapped in a meaningless existence and without purpose. The life I have now is not the one that I want to keep on living, so I made a plan to get out of it. I thought that if I was rich and not under my mum anymore than I could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. So I found one way. Forex trading. By being a trader or an investor I could set my own working hours, which is important to me because I have a sleep disorder. There are some days that I don't sleep, sleep longer that usual, wake up at night or wake up early in the morning.
Lately I've been learning alot about forex trading and have even bought a course on it. My plan is to learn how to invest make money from it and drop out of university. I wonder whether this sounds insane to anyone reading this. It may seem a little crazy but its better than working a 9 to 5 job and paying 40 to 50 percent in taxes and being broke all your life. I would only have to work 2 to 4 hrs a day as a trader and I could spend the rest of my time learning. Also I wouldn't be taxed because my money would be in offshore accounts.
This post could have been longer than it is if I went into detail about things, but I think I've written enough. What motivated me to write it was the "I need help posts" on the groups from all the newbies who are unsure about what to do. I've taken a long time to write this and would like a response; any comment or question would be appreciated.
I'm writing this post to express myself and to give other Satanists some ideas on how to go about life. It's going to be a very long post so take your time reading it. I'll first start with a little about my self.
I finished high school in June 2010 and my parents didn't have money to take me to University so I stayed home, I did nothing much for the rest of the year. Then in 2011 after I got a stable internet connection a whole new world of learning opened up to me. I did a bunch of stuff like online poker , computer programming and watched many documentaries, that was when I came across Ancient Aliens. If you haven't seen it, it's a documentary that suggests Extra terrestrials came in the distant past and created humanity as a slave race, also it shows proof of archeological sites around the world that were supposedly built by Gods. I was fascinated by this, even as a christian at the time. I wasn't a real christian, I mean I never prayed or read the bible, I only considered myself a christian because I was surrounded by xtians and my parents were both xtians. After watching Ancient Aliens and George Carlin on youtube I could no longer consider my self a xtian.
Two moths later I came across JOS while looking for information on how to be telekenetic. When I found the site I was amazed. HP Maxine had made all the pieces fit together about things that I often wondered about and had made so much knowledge available to all. I had read that JOS had been hacked once so I downloaded the whole site to my computer as well as the sermons on youtube. If for some reason the site is hacked again or taken offline at least I will have a backup. So I went through the site and read the articles some more than 3 times and decided to embark on a journey of knowledge.
So I decided to make a list of things that were important to me and do them every day
1. Power meditation (concentration & telekenesis)
2. Working out (sit ups, press ups, jogging etc)
3. Maths and Physics ( scientific knowledge and occult knowledge is important)
From July 2012 every day I practiced my concentration and telekenesis, I worked out and did some maths or read an article on physics. I've always been interested in maths and physics and the universe in general, also studying the occult from a scientific viewpoint helps. It had to be consistent so I had to learn and improve every day.
How did it go?
1. After 3 days of telekenesis practice I got the psi wheel to spin. I always used a handkerchief(to cover my nose & mouth) to make sure I don't blow or breath on it. At first it was spinning slowly, just for 2 or 3 seconds. Then I got it so spin for as long as 2 minutes at a time and even in both directions. This was after a 2 weeks of practice. I was slowly improving, I could even do it from a distance across the room. The power meditation improved my mind. I felt more focused and aware and was also able to remember certain things like what someone was wearing 2 days ago and paying attention to small details. It wasn't a super memory I just had more attention than normal.
2. I worked out everyday not only for a healthy body but also for my Aura. I want it to become strong. I think it helps my telekenesis.
3. I tried reading physics book once but didn't understand it, so I decided to brush up on my maths by starting from the basics, with Algebra. In future I plan on learning about waves, light, nuclear physics, consciousness, existence, the universe and anything else important. I'm only 18 so I have the rest of my life to learn these things. KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.
Things went well until mid May. My mum got some money and sent me to a university, a boarding xtian university. I was unlucky that I got accepted. I've never liked school in general, I prefer to learn things by myself. This university really sucks. I had to take 3 bible classes last semester, obviously I didn't go to the classes or do the exams so I now have 3 Fs. Also there is a church service on tuesday's and thursday's every week. I only went once(in the whole semester) and now I risk expulsion if I miss church next semester again. They have a roll call and if you don't sign they'll know you didn't go and you'll get in trouble. Also there are 4 people per room, so I have 3 other room mates and no privacy.
The worst part is I've now stopped my power meditation and telekenesis practise and my daily work outs. I have no time or privacy. I still consider myself a Satanist even after losing the little power I had and not doing the meditations. I am now unable to spin a psi wheel, I've tried a few times this month. It did spin but I can only do one at a time and I have to give it a lot of effort, before I could spin two without any effort. Looking at them was enough.
Being a Satanist isn't easy. You often have to deal with some xtian crap and be some kind of social outcast. My mum tells me that I'm antisocial and that I live in "my own world". I've argued with her many times. One time she accused me of not closing my eyes when someone was praying and for calling god an invisible man. She took it so seriously that we had an argument. She said that the internet has corrupted me and I'm stupid for believing these things(she once caught me on JOS on the computer) and that I'm going to hell and that it will be my fault when I get there.
I hate my school and my home. Sometimes I feel that I'm trapped in a meaningless existence and without purpose. The life I have now is not the one that I want to keep on living, so I made a plan to get out of it. I thought that if I was rich and not under my mum anymore than I could do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. So I found one way. Forex trading. By being a trader or an investor I could set my own working hours, which is important to me because I have a sleep disorder. There are some days that I don't sleep, sleep longer that usual, wake up at night or wake up early in the morning.
Lately I've been learning alot about forex trading and have even bought a course on it. My plan is to learn how to invest make money from it and drop out of university. I wonder whether this sounds insane to anyone reading this. It may seem a little crazy but its better than working a 9 to 5 job and paying 40 to 50 percent in taxes and being broke all your life. I would only have to work 2 to 4 hrs a day as a trader and I could spend the rest of my time learning. Also I wouldn't be taxed because my money would be in offshore accounts.
This post could have been longer than it is if I went into detail about things, but I think I've written enough. What motivated me to write it was the "I need help posts" on the groups from all the newbies who are unsure about what to do. I've taken a long time to write this and would like a response; any comment or question would be appreciated.
