masaradadevoted
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So for ma long time I was into kali worship....and I had a dream with a kaula guru teaching me darshan...and an angel made a black dog attack the guru and consume him in fire...and I called out to shiva as the dog was gonna get me..but the angel said 'you have been worshipping satan'so I called out to shiva many times but the dream wouldn't stop.and I admit I called out to Yehubor's leader in desperation and the dream stopped with the power out in the house when I woke up.
last year,I was christian again for maybe 4 months,yes I know I'm ashamed but I have mental disability and am very much acting on fear because these entities kept telling me I was going to hell etc and in that time I would get attacked by spiritual beings that were telling me to not worship Jesus,but if I said Jesus name they would stop their sleep paralyses and attacks etc
I think this is a ploy by the kabbalistic version of 'satan'(not the real one)that works as bad cop to the 'good'cop Jesus,but I need clarification...because what really influenced me was reading testimonies of ex-umbainda,ex-buddhist,ex-hindu,ex-muslim people being attacked by spiritual entities they used to worship when they found 'Yehubor's leader'and 'only Yehubor's leader name could save them'or the spirit of transgenderism being expelled since it was a 'demon'(I have transgenderism and always felt ashamed because of it).
charismatic sites like spiritreports wordpress also have all these type of stories,and people going to hell for having a fade haircut or wearing short sleeves and such bs.
I am in fear,I am confused,I know something doesn't feel right with Yehubor's leader and I do not want to go back but due to my ancious personality and being brainwashed with fear as a kid by my baptist grandma I still fear maybe I'm wrong and I do not know who to trust.
I do not know how to explain these attacks,since they started the first day I had become a christian during that period last year and these entities told me to kill myself,and I've been choked etc but I think its good cop bad cop because when I called on jesus it stopped but I know these greys are very clever.
what should I do and what happened to me?
last year,I was christian again for maybe 4 months,yes I know I'm ashamed but I have mental disability and am very much acting on fear because these entities kept telling me I was going to hell etc and in that time I would get attacked by spiritual beings that were telling me to not worship Jesus,but if I said Jesus name they would stop their sleep paralyses and attacks etc
I think this is a ploy by the kabbalistic version of 'satan'(not the real one)that works as bad cop to the 'good'cop Jesus,but I need clarification...because what really influenced me was reading testimonies of ex-umbainda,ex-buddhist,ex-hindu,ex-muslim people being attacked by spiritual entities they used to worship when they found 'Yehubor's leader'and 'only Yehubor's leader name could save them'or the spirit of transgenderism being expelled since it was a 'demon'(I have transgenderism and always felt ashamed because of it).
charismatic sites like spiritreports wordpress also have all these type of stories,and people going to hell for having a fade haircut or wearing short sleeves and such bs.
I am in fear,I am confused,I know something doesn't feel right with Yehubor's leader and I do not want to go back but due to my ancious personality and being brainwashed with fear as a kid by my baptist grandma I still fear maybe I'm wrong and I do not know who to trust.
I do not know how to explain these attacks,since they started the first day I had become a christian during that period last year and these entities told me to kill myself,and I've been choked etc but I think its good cop bad cop because when I called on jesus it stopped but I know these greys are very clever.
what should I do and what happened to me?