Bad times in life

[ktrv]

So i have a question. Why does every time when I think I have my life getting better it just goes downhill. Why does every time something good happens Something more bad happen sometime after.Does it all have a meaning. For many times, I understand something bad happened to me. It happened for a reason, but is that always the case? Also why do we have to
Endor if that’s how it spelled pain, and suffering. Even if I have reached a point where Lord Satan just knowing he is there keeps me happy, sometimes isn’t enough and feel very bad. I know the God’s probably don’t have anything to do with that maybe that’s just how it’s supposed to be. But sometimes I really don’t understand. After getting my life better after getting more spiritual I feel like my life goes sometimes worse than it was before.(Yes it has many benefits, and I feel the best I’ve ever felt.) But sometimes it feels empty you feel alone you feel like your whole life is crashing before you and there’s nothing you could do about it as those things cannot be influenced by you. Even in those times I still find time to feel happy that I was lucky to find Lord Satan. But can this be changed? Can I at least make this suffering less hard so I can comprehend and finally feel peace for sometime. I could write 50 more sentences describing what is bothering me, but that’s not the point.As i red here that I shouldn’t be complaining and saying God’s are the reason why my life is bad. I have to make change and get my life to be better that’s why I’m writing this.How should I stop this? The pain is both physical and psychological. I’m not looking for attention. I’m looking for guidance. This forum so far has been the best thing that’s happened to me after Lord Satan.

Hail Satan!

 

[HadrianDidNothingWrong]

Hello,

I understand how you feel and I extend my sympathy.

Some more context would be helpful in better understanding your situation. You could give us some examples without disclosing personal information.

From my perspective, what you wrote is quite ambiguous and makes it difficult to provide guidance to you.

At most, what I could say to you given what you wrote is:

1. This might be just a matter of perception. You could be really just experiencing highly accentuated perception. The highs may seem very high to you and the lows very low.
2. As you become more spiritual, it could be that your sensitivity is temporarily higher. You notice more things and things may have higher impact on you.
3. I recommend reading Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. It's a great read. It changed me for the better. Stoicism is paramount to mental fortitude and resilience.
4. Lastly, don't forget to use the knowledge we've been blessed with.

Sincerely,
HDNW.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

So i have a question. Why does every time when I think I have my life getting better it just goes downhill. Why does every time something good happens Something more bad happen sometime after.Does it all have a meaning. For many times, I understand something bad happened to me. It happened for a reason, but is that always the case? Also why do we have to
Endor if that’s how it spelled pain, and suffering. Even if I have reached a point where Lord Satan just knowing he is there keeps me happy, sometimes isn’t enough and feel very bad. I know the God’s probably don’t have anything to do with that maybe that’s just how it’s supposed to be. But sometimes I really don’t understand. After getting my life better after getting more spiritual I feel like my life goes sometimes worse than it was before.(Yes it has many benefits, and I feel the best I’ve ever felt.) But sometimes it feels empty you feel alone you feel like your whole life is crashing before you and there’s nothing you could do about it as those things cannot be influenced by you. Even in those times I still find time to feel happy that I was lucky to find Lord Satan. But can this be changed? Can I at least make this suffering less hard so I can comprehend and finally feel peace for sometime. I could write 50 more sentences describing what is bothering me, but that’s not the point.As i red here that I shouldn’t be complaining and saying God’s are the reason why my life is bad. I have to make change and get my life to be better that’s why I’m writing this.How should I stop this? The pain is both physical and psychological. I’m not looking for attention. I’m looking for guidance. This forum so far has been the best thing that’s happened to me after Lord Satan.

Hail Satan!

I don't know your situation exactly; but I can tell you how I experienced some moments of suffering, even though I had already been dedicated to Satan for a long time.

A while back I found myself losing all my friendships. My truly bad and offensive behavior had made all my friends distance themselves from me and I was left alone. I despaired whole nights for this reason. But then I saw that the problem was my really bad character. I decided to improve it, I succeeded, and now I have found all my friends who love me more than before. I used suffering as an opportunity to improve myself.

Another time, due to a health problem, I had to take very heavy medicines in large quantities which made me gain weight and made me hungry. I had reached 20 kilos overweight. At first I was desperate, it wasn't even my fault this time, it was largely the fault of the medicines. But here again, I thought I could get positivity instead of negativity. So I used this as motivation to start training intensely 6 days a week and adopt a more balanced lifestyle. Here too I used suffering as an opportunity to improve myself.

On another occasion, I lost something very important to me that I won't be here to explain what it was. I cried all my tears, even several times, but from there I understood that if I had more spiritual power I would have been able to protect that thing. So I told myself it would never happen again and I started meditating seriously and consistently. I derived from this suffering an opportunity to improve myself.

On another occasion I lost the respect of all people due to my excessive behavior. From there I learned to contain myself. Or I was often laughed at in many contexts, from there I learned to commit myself to studies to obtain specific skills and abilities. Or again, I had legal problems due to excesses of anger, and today I no longer have outbursts of anger, because I calmed down and learned to manage this thing, at first with effort and then everything came spontaneously. Etc.

This is to make you understand that sometimes it will be directly your fault if you suffer, other times you don't deserve it at all and are just a victim of events, other times you will suffer because you could have tried harder.

But regardless of your role in this game, you will have to be able to take lessons and opportunities to improve yourself. Obviously there are sufferings such as excessive lack of money which are factual situations and not much can be done about it, or some very serious handicap. But most suffering situations can be useful in understanding and implementing certain things in your life. I, as strange as it sounds, am VERY happy about the things I went through because, if I hadn't gone through these things, I would absolutely not be the person I am today, in any way.

Very often learning to manage suffering and getting out of suffering situations is MUCH more important than not suffering at all...

 

[ktrv]

I understand how you feel and I extend my sympathy.

Some more context would be helpful in better understanding your situation. You could give us some examples without disclosing personal information.

I don't know your situation exactly;

I won’t be long as you already helped enough,

But for a couple of months i had some health problem that even afer visits to the doctor they still don’t know what it is and it hits hard on me mentally as i’m every day in constant uncomfortable state and even pain in some parts of the day.That led for me to lose touch and become a worse person as half of my energy goes just to get out of bed and hold a smile while i suffer. That led me to lose a relationship,and now is even affecting my frends.I would try to change but the health problem just won’t go away.And finally when there was progress it all just got worse i felt worse then ever and started to make my frends like me less as i probably was emitting bad energy.And i want to change that i want to feel “normal” like before.To not have to worry about pain or that feeling so i could focus on other things.I will try to fix these things even in pain but i at least want to know,is it all what is chosen for us for maybe future(like that’s everything happen for a reason?).

 

[Henu the Great]

Very often learning to manage suffering and getting out of suffering situations is MUCH more important than not suffering at all...

Without resistance life would breed soft people at best, and decays people at worst.

Congratulations for your growth process.

 

[SeguaceDiSatanas]

I won’t be long as you already helped enough,

But for a couple of months i had some health problem that even afer visits to the doctor they still don’t know what it is and it hits hard on me mentally as i’m every day in constant uncomfortable state and even pain in some parts of the day.That led for me to lose touch and become a worse person as half of my energy goes just to get out of bed and hold a smile while i suffer. That led me to lose a relationship,and now is even affecting my frends.I would try to change but the health problem just won’t go away.And finally when there was progress it all just got worse i felt worse then ever and started to make my frends like me less as i probably was emitting bad energy.And i want to change that i want to feel “normal” like before.To not have to worry about pain or that feeling so i could focus on other things.I will try to fix these things even in pain but i at least want to know,is it all what is chosen for us for maybe future(like that’s everything happen for a reason?).

I think some things just happen, without a mind behind it. This is why it is up to us to be strong enough, because it is not predestined that you will succeed, but it depends on your resistance.

I don't really understand if your sadness is directly linked to your illness and is a side effect, or is it your reaction to it. I repeat that there are situations that just happen, but we are strong.

We are Satanists, we act strong, we endure life as strong people, our strength is unknown to outsiders who do not understand the value of it all. Hold on. They are all good at performing their noble tasks when life is happy, but heroes fight in extreme situations, you have a chance to be your own hero, so that one day you will look back and proudly say to yourself: "despite all the difficulties, I did it, I succeeded."

However, when you have health problems, give them priority. If you have to do actions that require energy consumption, learn to manage this energy you have. As if you have a resource limit and need to figure out how to best manage it.

Obviously the things you should do, do them, if you feel you can do these things without it becoming a stress, but learn to manage your energy so that you can conserve yourself.

When I train, I have to do several things for martial arts, and I have to learn not to use all my strength just for warming up because then I wouldn't have it in fighting, etc. it's ALWAYS a question of managing yourself in a practical and effective way. Listen to yourself and your possibilities.
What are your doctors telling you about your problem?

 

[The Alchemist7 [JG]]

So i have a question. Why does every time when I think I have my life getting better it just goes downhill. Why does every time something good happens Something more bad happen sometime after.Does it all have a meaning. For many times, I understand something bad happened to me. It happened for a reason, but is that always the case? Also why do we have to
Endor if that’s how it spelled pain, and suffering. Even if I have reached a point where Lord Satan just knowing he is there keeps me happy, sometimes isn’t enough and feel very bad. I know the God’s probably don’t have anything to do with that maybe that’s just how it’s supposed to be. But sometimes I really don’t understand. After getting my life better after getting more spiritual I feel like my life goes sometimes worse than it was before.(Yes it has many benefits, and I feel the best I’ve ever felt.) But sometimes it feels empty you feel alone you feel like your whole life is crashing before you and there’s nothing you could do about it as those things cannot be influenced by you. Even in those times I still find time to feel happy that I was lucky to find Lord Satan. But can this be changed? Can I at least make this suffering less hard so I can comprehend and finally feel peace for sometime. I could write 50 more sentences describing what is bothering me, but that’s not the point.As i red here that I shouldn’t be complaining and saying God’s are the reason why my life is bad. I have to make change and get my life to be better that’s why I’m writing this.How should I stop this? The pain is both physical and psychological. I’m not looking for attention. I’m looking for guidance. This forum so far has been the best thing that’s happened to me after Lord Satan.

Hail Satan!

Hello. Can you describe some of the issues?

 

[ktrv]

Hello. Can you describe some of the issues?

I won’t be long as you already helped enough,

But for a couple of months i had some health problem that even afer visits to the doctor they still don’t know what it is and it hits hard on me mentally as i’m every day in constant uncomfortable state and even pain in some parts of the day.That led for me to lose touch and become a worse person as half of my energy goes just to get out of bed and hold a smile while i suffer. That led me to lose a relationship,and now is even affecting my frends.I would try to change but the health problem just won’t go away.And finally when there was progress it all just got worse i felt worse then ever and started to make my frends like me less as i probably was emitting bad energy.And i want to change that i want to feel “normal” like before.To not have to worry about pain or that feeling so i could focus on other things.I will try to fix these things even in pain but i at least want to know,is it all what is chosen for us for maybe future(like that’s everything happen for a reason?).

Hello. Can you describe some of the issues?

I did here in the most easy way to understand it.I didn’t want to write to much just the most important part.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

So i have a question. Why does every time when I think I have my life getting better it just goes downhill.

I do not know your situation, but I experienced similar facts and I found out the causes may be multiple; this is also sad and I am sorry for your suffering.
To my (limited) knowledge there may be some curse in your soul from the enemy, coming from past lives and manifesting. Also, lack of energies and very low 3rd/2nd chakra powerful may let external pressures from others/society/enemies/mass mind to bring down something you are builiding. Also issues in the 11th house (ruling also your objectives in life) may stop your projects from time to tome.

But sometimes it feels empty you feel alone you feel like your whole life is crashing before you and there’s nothing you could do about it as those things cannot be influenced by you.

I also found out, you may have a rule influencing events.
If you have a strong divergence between your conscious mind, and your emotions - subconscious, in some cases you may be an obstacle to yourself. Like driving with a foot on throttle and the other foot on brakes while in low gear, at the same time.
Your unconscious mind, or part of it depending your mental health status, may direct energies against what you are doing, because the unconscious does not "want" it.
An example comes from people that suffered heavy programming from xianity in childhood, when they build wealth or have a good income, their (still programmed) unconscious may try to ruin this as "money is evil" or so. Sexuality, too, people may be avoiding sex and ruining relationship as "this is bad" in a programmed mind.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

* I meant very low 2nd/3rd chakra power.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

So i have a question. Why does every time when I think I have my life getting better it just goes downhill. Why does every time something good happens Something more bad happen sometime after.Does it all have a meaning. For many times, I understand something bad happened to me. It happened for a reason, but is that always the case? Also why do we have to
Endor if that’s how it spelled pain, and suffering. Even if I have reached a point where Lord Satan just knowing he is there keeps me happy, sometimes isn’t enough and feel very bad. I know the God’s probably don’t have anything to do with that maybe that’s just how it’s supposed to be. But sometimes I really don’t understand. After getting my life better after getting more spiritual I feel like my life goes sometimes worse than it was before.(Yes it has many benefits, and I feel the best I’ve ever felt.) But sometimes it feels empty you feel alone you feel like your whole life is crashing before you and there’s nothing you could do about it as those things cannot be influenced by you. Even in those times I still find time to feel happy that I was lucky to find Lord Satan. But can this be changed? Can I at least make this suffering less hard so I can comprehend and finally feel peace for sometime. I could write 50 more sentences describing what is bothering me, but that’s not the point.As i red here that I shouldn’t be complaining and saying God’s are the reason why my life is bad. I have to make change and get my life to be better that’s why I’m writing this.How should I stop this? The pain is both physical and psychological. I’m not looking for attention. I’m looking for guidance. This forum so far has been the best thing that’s happened to me after Lord Satan.

Hail Satan!

It is not "complaining" to list your problems so others can help you. Otherwise, we have no idea what is going on.

Optimism and physical health both correlate strongly with the fire element, so there can be a relation here. The fire element charges both the mind and the cells of the body with energy. Our solar energies provide vitality from the digestive system, as well as a strong sense of ability and self-esteem. Conversely, someone who is sick is going to have a much harder time feeling happy, as you experienced.

However, as Engineered Transformation pointed out, you have to be careful about putting energy into the thought that "any time something goes well, it crashes down". This is a negative exaggeration of the normal ups and downs that occur in life, yet we are always advancing. Even though you may be sick now, your soul still remembers the skills of before, including skills that will provide value in your life.

It is possible you had experienced trauma in a past life that resulted in you feeling like this "world crashing down" sensation was normal or expected, but you have to break out of this at least by exerting mental force to think positively. Regarding other practices of ours, I would highly encourage consulting Valefor and doing some simple exercises, such as Qigong, breath of fire, etc. These provide the energy for us to get better and rebuild. Look up yoga asanas related to your condition.

On the spiritual side, the Uruz rune is great for physical healing. You can also breath in white-gold energy and affirm it is healing you. It may not feel like it, nor will results be immediate, but I guarantee it increases your vital energies from before.

Also, make an appointment with Centralforce: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/...ese-medicine-consultations.76057/#post-376531
TCM and other holistic medicines can do much better than western medicines with certain conditions.

 

[Ælberiigor]

I'd say psychic flow is made of vibrations, one time it's nice, the next is bad, and this for each sectors of life that are independent each others.

At end, your life look like a chaotic succession of events, and this lack of control can make us insecure.

This phenomena run like this for you, in another way for me... according to what we need to understand, to put in perspective.

There is surely a logic in it, for example when love comes, jealousy appears.

 

[ktrv]

It is not "complaining" to list your problems so others can help you. Otherwise, we have no idea what is going on.

It just that life before Satan didin’t treat me well so i have hard time talking to people for help with this kind of stuff. I’m used to fighting everything in life alone.

Conversely, someone who is sick is going to have a much harder time feeling happy, as you experienced.

I guess that could be true as in mentally strong enough typically to fight it but when almost all of my energy is going to fight with the “pain” from the health problem it is much harder.

However, as Engineered Transformation pointed out, you have to be careful about putting energy into the thought that "any time something goes well, it crashes down".

I try to reverse this by putting in my mind that even if it’s a hard time a better time will come aa this is just to make us stronger.But not always could i reverse it at the moment of “breaking down from the stress” but typically it passes fast as im used to it.

It is possible you had experienced trauma in a past life that resulted in you feeling like this "world crashing down" sensation was normal or expected, but you have to break out of this at least by exerting mental force to think positively.

I do that unconsciously I guess as i do it but never on purpose as my body and soul got used to it i think.

On the spiritual side, the Uruz rune is great for physical healing. You can also breath in white-gold energy and affirm it is healing you. It may not feel like it, nor will results be immediate, but I guarantee it increases your vital energies from before.

Also, make an appointment with Centralforce: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/...ese-medicine-consultations.76057/#post-376531
TCM and other holistic medicines can do much better than western medicines with certain conditions.

Thank you for this and also for the rest of the answer very much it is appreciated!!!

Hail Satan!

 

[ktrv]

To my (limited) knowledge there may be some curse in your soul from the enemy, coming from past lives and manifesting.

So how to reverse these curses if they are there?

Also, lack of energies and very low 3rd/2nd chakra powerful may let external pressures from others/society/enemies/mass mind to bring down something you are builiding.

I’m doing meditation at this time and i’m starting to empower my charkas in the next couple of days so we will see if it improves.

Also issues in the 11th house (ruling also your objectives in life) may stop your projects from time to tome.

I have almost zero astrology knowledge but planning to improve this just still figuring where to start.

If you have a strong divergence between your conscious mind, and your emotions - subconscious, in some cases you may be an obstacle to yourself.

I think that’s the case as my early life tormented me to the point where i feel very little emotion generally(also connected to my ADHD)and have a mind set of “i don’t care about that” so i would protect my mind and body from depression and more….But sometimes i wonderd maybe i want something buy my subconscious want something else i don’t know how to find that out and fix it.

An example comes from people that suffered heavy programming from xianity in childhood, when they build wealth or have a good income, their (still programmed) unconscious may try to ruin this as "money is evil" or so.

This also i was under heavy heavy programming in my childhood and was also a big time xian believer but Satan helped me find him and it changed everything.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

So how to reverse these curses if they are there?

It is personal depending on what happened to you. But, in general, doing RTR helps.
If you have time and energies this meditation from HPS Lydia is of great help and healing. This may be energy consuming, but definetly worth.

I have almost zero astrology knowledge but planning to improve this just still figuring where to start.

It is worth studying your Natal Chart as issues may come from there, too.

I think that’s the case as my early life tormented me to the point where i feel very little emotion generally(also connected to my ADHD)and have a mind set of “i don’t care about that”

Probably you are burying emotions. Not feeling any emotion is typical in PTSD and repressed and "discarded" emotions may cause any sort of problem, as they still "run in backround" (in the unconscious mind) that can manifest events if your soul is powerful enough. For example repressing self-hate, if any, may cause events damaging you.

This also i was under heavy heavy programming in my childhood and was also a big time xian believer but Satan helped me find him and it changed everything.

Xian programming does not disappear is a second, I think it's worth planning Munka meditation in the future, once you have found out what programming is preventing you to have a better life. This may take time and approach should be long-term, no rush.

 

[xlnt]

Every bad thing that happends has the upside of you becoming stronger and learning to cope with tough situations.

I recently lost my job because the store closed down. So now I'm unemployed and have to deal with that.

I'm dealing with this by going deep into projects for JoS, as I now have more time for it than before.
I also think to myself that a new job would mean new experiences and places to explore rather than the same old place all the time.

Shit happens, but without any shit there would also be less growth.

 

[ktrv]

I recently lost my job because the store closed down. So now I'm unemployed and have to deal with that.

Damm i hope you recover fast.That’s really bas and seeing you go through it like it’s not a big deal is a motivation on it’s on.Keep it up Brother and i hope you the best!

 

[xlnt]

Damm i hope you recover fast.That’s really bas and seeing you go through it like it’s not a big deal is a motivation on it’s on.Keep it up Brother and i hope you the best!

Well, I did after all hate my job in the end, and almost wished I would lose it somehow so I could be free from that shit hehe.
But yes it can be a bit anxious and depressing being unemployed also. It's sort of shit either way with that shit. Hope I can get a new job some day that don't feel shitty.

Besides working hard with JoS projects I'm also exercising way more now, and that is a must for me to cope with the situation.
Should be meditating more also. That is always hard for me to prioritize, but it's also a must if one wants to have a balanced and clear mind.
I notice on myself when I've been lacking in meditation. Get easily angry at stuff etc. Meditation is the most underrated thing in this world.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I recently lost my job because the store closed down. So now I'm unemployed and have to deal with that.

Sorry to hear this, a Satanic soul should always have what is needed to sustain.
As far as I can see, demand of workers in shops/general service is high in several western countries.

Shit happens, but without any shit there would also be less growth.

I know what you mean, but I advise against this mentality "you need to suffer" that sounds very xian in its roots.
I understand what you mean, Saturnian endeavors and Plutonian transformation are not easy to bear, this is part of life.

I don't read all of the forum but I perceive this "no fap do not ejaculate" and "suffer to become better" ideas spreading around and I do not feel comfortable with that.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

So how to reverse these curses if they are there?

I just found around this old post in another thread and thought it is worth reading. Maybe you are sorry for someting?
https://ancient-forums.com/threads/feeling-sorry.262350/

 

[ktrv]

I just found around this old post in another thread and thought it is worth reading. Maybe you are sorry for someting?
https://ancient-forums.com/threads/feeling-sorry.262350/

This is probably the answer i was looking for!!!!

I was feeling sorry for somethinf that’s when the whole spiral of event came.

I now the first step is to stoo feeling sorry but how to clean the curses and damage it caused it the mean time?

 

[xlnt]

Sorry to hear this, a Satanic soul should always have what is needed to sustain.
As far as I can see, demand of workers in shops/general service is high in several western countries.


I know what you mean, but I advise against this mentality "you need to suffer" that sounds very xian in its roots.
I understand what you mean, Saturnian endeavors and Plutonian transformation are not easy to bear, this is part of life.

I don't read all of the forum but I perceive this "no fap do not ejaculate" and "suffer to become better" ideas spreading around and I do not feel comfortable with that.

I don't see how fapping have anything to do with anything here x) "nofap" is bs yes. But so is the idea that one "has to suffer" for sufferings sake or "Gods sake".
I was only referring to the "no pain no gain" factor in life which is a true one that do exist.
Without any form of suffering there cannot be much progress unfortunately.
If everything was served to me so I did not have to do shit, then I would end up being a quite saggy and weak individual.

 

[ktrv]

I was only referring to the "no pain no gain" factor in life which is a true one that do exist.

I could agree with this as when sometimes bad things happen to me and ask the Lord why typically after it passes i see why did that “bad” thing had a benefit from in in other form.For example let’s say i wanted ti write a good song,and then me and my friend get in to a fight and while trying to cope with that i write a awsome song to pour my emotions somewhere.My point being i think everything happens for a reason and even if there is “pain” sometimes it will benefit in the long run.

suffer to become better

now i don’t mean this but maybe sometimes “pain” is needed for us to take a step we wouldn’t otherwise.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

This is probably the answer i was looking for!!!!

I was feeling sorry for somethinf that’s when the whole spiral of event came.

Glad this helps! It came at the right moment for me too.

I now the first step is to stoo feeling sorry but how to clean the curses and damage it caused it the mean time?

Best way to go i the meditation I linked before deep cleaning and removing curses and also Lunar chakra cleaning cycle from HPs Lydia

I don't see how fapping have anything to do with anything here x) "nofap" is bs yes.

I just detest this nofap personally so I wanted to mention

But so is the idea that one "has to suffer" for sufferings sake or "Gods sake".
I was only referring to the "no pain no gain" factor in life which is a true one that do exist.

I understand what you mean, I call this "hard work against odds" because carving in my mind the word "suffering" - for me - is at risk of attracting unneeded suffering by self programming.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

Glad this helps! It came at the right moment for me too.

Best way to go i the meditation I linked before deep cleaning and removing curses and also Lunar chakra cleaning cycle from HPs Lydia

Sorry this is the correct link :
Lunar chakra cleaning cycle from HPs Lydia

Deep cleaning and removing curses