arabella_thomas
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I am in great need of your council.
A short background:
I have been a dedicated Satanist in previous lives, and recently dedicated again in this life. I have been close in all my lives to one guardian demon. My boyfriend of 6 years is a deeply religious Roman Catholic. He had been dabbling in meditation with me before I learned about Spiritual Satanism, but since I have awakened and dedicated he's turned back and resigned himself to Xianity.
However, this is not the issue I need advice on. More precisely, it is the war going on between us. Between his deities and mine. He (whether purposefully or not) tells the angels where I am, and they come and attack me and my demon constantly. I am not strong enough in this life to fend them all off.
Of course my guardian demon and his subordinates help as much as they can, but the attacks come as often as once a night and our resolve is wearing thin. The angels make me physically sick so I'm not strong enough to meditate as often or as strongly. In turn I'm unable to help my guardian demon fight them off.
Please advise me on how to protect against them!
- Bella
A short background:
I have been a dedicated Satanist in previous lives, and recently dedicated again in this life. I have been close in all my lives to one guardian demon. My boyfriend of 6 years is a deeply religious Roman Catholic. He had been dabbling in meditation with me before I learned about Spiritual Satanism, but since I have awakened and dedicated he's turned back and resigned himself to Xianity.
However, this is not the issue I need advice on. More precisely, it is the war going on between us. Between his deities and mine. He (whether purposefully or not) tells the angels where I am, and they come and attack me and my demon constantly. I am not strong enough in this life to fend them all off.
Of course my guardian demon and his subordinates help as much as they can, but the attacks come as often as once a night and our resolve is wearing thin. The angels make me physically sick so I'm not strong enough to meditate as often or as strongly. In turn I'm unable to help my guardian demon fight them off.
Please advise me on how to protect against them!
- Bella