Theres so much to say but I wont burden time. I've been a strong satanist for three years now... and my dreams are precious to me. But last night I received one that kind of startled me... almost two years now since my beloved aunt passed away.She was every meaning of the words strong willed. I lay in bed next to my boyfriend in our home. I get chills for an instant then a warmth seeps into me I open my eyes an see my aunt sitting on the edge of our bed and her smile is beautiful. And she asks me am I happy? I knew she was talking about my life and I sit up and say I am but I miss her so much. She smiles softly and tells me, why are you not happy with him? and points a finger over to my boyfriend. I didnt say anything because I knew she knew why. I could feel it. She sighs and sits next to me and says become my Mo'o, hawaiian for dragon, and be strong in him he loves you very much. Believe in him and in time he will believe in you again,my leimana and she kisses me on the forehead I wish I could of felt it for real. Before she left she said strength to love takes truth my manao'o, on both sides. Let him know theres no need for protection and he should have more faith in you to understand. You are beautiful together. And you both need to stop lying it will destroy you together. Dont make my mistake... Beware of the concequences. She stands up and by her side came out of the shadows is Father... I've seen him 8 times now and I know its him. Trust your instincts but most of all love yourself. You've been missed in our sessions an been astray for awhile, return to me young one and bring Damien too. then they both disappeared.I wake up sweating and im disoriented a bit. but I think it over for a bit and text me bf how I felt. still waiting to hear back from him actually. im concerned about my relationship in the real world is affecting the relationship I have with father. how can I maintain both? sorry for those who this wasnt epic for... im just lost and I hate it... advice welcomed... Leimana
