accepting reality

[lahh]

I feel like a failure, having a lot of difficulty getting a job. My last one was so toxic that staying there would harm my mental health. I can't be disciplined anymore, but even so, I do yoga every day, and other things one after the other. I have poor sleep quality; I watch TV to escape my reality, or I'm anxious and afraid. Why is being a woman so difficult? Not only women, but children too, being persecuted and killed for nothing.

 

[Endóxos Stylobátēs]

Many share these same struggles so do not fret.
It’s important not to hold the weight of the world on our shoulders.
It sounds like these things are compounding and causing a spiral.
We may not always see the way out of the storm, but we can see first few steps in front of us. It can be calming to give ourselves permission to not take on the whole journey but instead focus on those few steps in front.
This makes things more achievable and helps us gain momentum

leaving a job can sometimes be a door that brings us to somthing even better
money workings or certain God rituals can aid in finding better employment .

Distracting to mask anxiety is also normal
I would focus on more cleaning and void meditation
But planetary squares and other workings can be helpful to build on traits or desired goals.
Also burnout can happen which can cause us to fall out of positive habits and routines or feel like the battle is too far uphill.
I would pray to the Gods and ask for guidance and a sign for a good place to start, maybe work out some of these concerns in a journal and brainstorm possible solutions.
But I do think an important note is to take it one step at a time and not be too hard on yourself