I just want to be honest. I came here several years ago, but I wasn’t diligent enough. As a result, I am still at a level of a beginner which is so ashamed.
I seriously regret about the time that I lost and hate the laziness. This is really something that hangs around my heart and I couldn’t let go.
I’ve just finished 40days program for beginners. I feel frustrated that I did not feel as described when opening chakras. Results are not clear. I don’t know who is my guardian demon though I tried several ways to figure out.I wished for a demon lover and am not sure if I have as i did perform the ritual. I just want to know the answer.
And for some reason, I cannot out too much meditating, will thirty minutes a day work also?
I hope I can get some advice.

