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These two things I find to be the most dangerous from experience. All are poisonous when not kept in check, but Anger and Hate are straight up double edged swords. They can be exceedingly dangerous, and cause one to land themselves in the worst positions, such as Prison. And take it from me, friends and family, if there is anywhere you do not want to end up as a Satanist, it is in a Correctional Institution. I debated on weather to tell this story, but I think it will be a strong reminder as to why we must control ourselves, why really really have to learn to tame our fire when it flares up, and direct it accordingly and intelligently:
I messed someone up pretty badly when I was a younger man, around 20 years old. I nearly killed the guy for personal reasons; he did something to me that was absolutely detestable, depraved, and unforgivable. But I very much should have gone a different route than to unleash a vicious and deadly physical attack on him.
I landed myself in a nice, hard, Maximum Security Detention Center, for the charge of Attempted Murder. For absolutely no reason at all, as I should have been sent to general population, they stripped me naked and put me in segregation immediately from the get-go - LOAP, Loss of All Privileges. This is highly, highly abnormal, but was intentional, of course there was a reason: they know, whether or not you tell them, somehow they know. I expect some combination of technologies, and likely the staff are infected with enemy parasites, some are even of the enemy directly, there's no question. And of course, they want to make it as torturous as possible for someone like us who is unlucky enough to end up there, we're prime cattle for the type of negative energy farming that goes on here. No cloths, no blanket, I didn't even have a mattress for my cold metal bed. It fucking sucked.
Well, I just sat in my segregation cell, naked and cold, meditating, being forced to eat things like porridge and soup and chili and pasta with my hands, all messy spoon foods, and being as pleasant as possible all throughout - you have to be. You're completely at their mercy in these places, and they will do everything to try and farm the power that you have into negative waves of chaos. the correctional officers where quite thrown off by my behaviour, and actually took a liking to me, they even gave me extra food and had pleasant conversations with me and such, but I still lived my naked, cold, isolated life in there, only being dressed to be taken to court, and only really receiving any human interraction during this or when I was fed.
The water tastes like flouride, and the food is only enough to keep you alive, as well as being cursed with halal/Yehubor-approved ritual. These places are hubs of pure negitivity, ruled by the enemy, and built to cultivate and harvest negative chaotic energy, the treatment I recieved at first was that of a wild animal, I simply was strong enough to resist it and even influence a change in treatment. It was twice as hard though, due to the flouride poisoning and the lack of nutritional sustainance.
By the grace of our Gods, I managed to get out there far earlier than I should have, and even managed to reduce my sentance from "Attemted Murder" to "Assault Causing Bodily Harm" - that is a huge jump and difference between the gravity of the charge. Not only that, I somehow was sentenced to Manditory Psychological Therapy, Anger Management Classes, and to "Keep the Peace" and check in with an officer once a week for exactly one year.
But understand thta I was lucky. Things should have been far worse for me, but I was just barely powerful enough to make it through.
You may not be so lucky, or so steadfast in nature as I am. You may have it much worse if you end up in one of these places. People get killed in these institutions, and there are large populations of muslims and christians there - the enemy is everywhere in these institutions, they run these institutions, there is very little that can be done, though if you're devoted everything that can will, it is terrifying how constrained and limited even an adept can be in one of these places.
We are law abiding for both moral and ethical reasons, as well as for self preservational reasons. Always keep your anger in check, strive to be controlled and unwavering, and direct your hatred, rage, and vengance through magick, it's an incredible fuel for this as Cobra says (the more angry, hateful, and flat out psychotic you get during the Ritual for instance, the more effective it is), solicit the help of your GD and the Gods if need be, they will punish dearly those who bring harm or suffering to their most devoted, you'd better believe that.
That's all I wanted to share. Wrath can be an invaluable and dangerous tool to the enemy when controlled and directed correctly, but can be the literal death of you when not. I hope this little example really drives the nail in for that. You really, really don't want to end up in the position that I did.
Keep your minds always in check, family and friends. Play the long game, as the saying goes.
Praise to the Gods. Hail Satan.
How much I understand you, instead it happened to me that they tried to attack me and I found myself forced into a situation in which a group of people surrounded me, fortunately I managed to take a makeshift tool to use for personal defense, I risked a big sentence, fortunately the charge was dropped to personal injury.
And this happened therefore not driven by my anger, but simply by wanting to protect my safety, all in self-defense, so if you risk even in self-defense imagine what could ever happen if you act impulsively driven by anger.
I have noticed that in many countries self-defense is now being sunk, and especially in my country if you try to defend yourself from a thief, a robber or a malicious person you could get into serious trouble and even the robber could get away with it, never mind that you then accidentally kill him, you have then ruined your life.
Imagine being for example a father who goes to work honestly, takes his children to school and goes to work, suddenly a robber threatens to kill you and you manage to disarm him, but a shot goes off by mistake and you kill him, you not only as a person who has nothing to do with that context that you tried to defend yourself are already a victim of this trauma and you don't know how you survived it, but you will also have to face legal costs, a trial and most likely they will put you in pre-trial detention in prison, after perhaps all the sacrifices of a lifetime to try to give a better future to your children, your life is shattered because of a parasitic reject of society.
I think that as far as the emotions of anger, hatred, rage are concerned, if they are correctly used in Ritual, or in black magic rituals to curse those who hurt you, they have an incredible power and yes, I tried it myself and I was able to finally do justice intensely against those who hurt me.