omniquintess
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I don't want this to seem like another complaining post about how little one's faith for Father and Meditation is when at the beginning stage or why nothing in life works at out. I just want to tell my small story and figure out my next steps.
I am highly ashamed to even announce this, but I have been a half-assed Satanist for around 4 years (I kind of lost count), continuously on and off concerning meditation and attending the groups. I am confessing this and writing this post because I have reached a road block that I believe requires knowledge that I don't currently have or maybe just haven't been able to piece together with what I do have. Even though, I have been a Satanist for this large amount of time, I am generally still at a novice level concerning meditation and a complete amateur at magick.
The bright side is lately I have been able to be consistent with my meditation practices as of late for around 2+months every single day (this is a record for me of sorts). Within this time-frame I have been able to achieve a competence equal only to very slight tingles and small jerks in my upper body. For the 4 years this has been the max that my awareness has ever come up too. I remember a few times when I experienced pain or small shocks (mostly with the opening meditations), but that is it.
Recently my goal in Meditation is to reach some tangible usage for feeling energy. I have read the sermon about "beginning troubles" with meditation over 10 times literally, I have tested more powerful meditations believing that maybe I was at a higher stage than I thought, and have re-done the first month of the warfare training and beginning section on the meditation page thinking I missed too many basics, but I always end with nothing more than feeling absolutely nothing or a small tingle if I concentrate hard enough. I'm not even sure my Chakras are open, even though I have performed the opening meditation for each Chakra over 20 times each.
As I said I'm not trying to complain, or vent to the groups, I'm just trying to find some answers. I know consistency is the key, and I'm trying with all my might to at least do 10-15mins a day, but I don't even have a way to conform that my Chakras are even open (except the sixth, its suppose to be dramatic right?). Are there perhaps meditations designed to get someone out of these slumps, or even personal techniques that anyone has used to get themselves pass this? I'm not giving up, nowhere near giving in, I'm just seeking advice.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
-Omniquintess
I am highly ashamed to even announce this, but I have been a half-assed Satanist for around 4 years (I kind of lost count), continuously on and off concerning meditation and attending the groups. I am confessing this and writing this post because I have reached a road block that I believe requires knowledge that I don't currently have or maybe just haven't been able to piece together with what I do have. Even though, I have been a Satanist for this large amount of time, I am generally still at a novice level concerning meditation and a complete amateur at magick.
The bright side is lately I have been able to be consistent with my meditation practices as of late for around 2+months every single day (this is a record for me of sorts). Within this time-frame I have been able to achieve a competence equal only to very slight tingles and small jerks in my upper body. For the 4 years this has been the max that my awareness has ever come up too. I remember a few times when I experienced pain or small shocks (mostly with the opening meditations), but that is it.
Recently my goal in Meditation is to reach some tangible usage for feeling energy. I have read the sermon about "beginning troubles" with meditation over 10 times literally, I have tested more powerful meditations believing that maybe I was at a higher stage than I thought, and have re-done the first month of the warfare training and beginning section on the meditation page thinking I missed too many basics, but I always end with nothing more than feeling absolutely nothing or a small tingle if I concentrate hard enough. I'm not even sure my Chakras are open, even though I have performed the opening meditation for each Chakra over 20 times each.
As I said I'm not trying to complain, or vent to the groups, I'm just trying to find some answers. I know consistency is the key, and I'm trying with all my might to at least do 10-15mins a day, but I don't even have a way to conform that my Chakras are even open (except the sixth, its suppose to be dramatic right?). Are there perhaps meditations designed to get someone out of these slumps, or even personal techniques that anyone has used to get themselves pass this? I'm not giving up, nowhere near giving in, I'm just seeking advice.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
-Omniquintess