yarri.dosti
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I am trying to post this thread for third time. I do not know that what happened to my first two posts. I am new to Yahoo groups so I do not know much about how this works.
Hi Satanist Friends,I am a new Satanist. I dedicated my soul to Great Lord one month ago. I am from Pakistan. I was previously a muslim. But I am now so happy and proud to be Satanist. I am 24 years old now. (Today, Feb 2, is my birthday).
I am suffering from lots of problem since I was 14 years old. I am having serious thoughts of killing myself for last two years. Islam never worked for me. A month ago, I embraced the truth. I am so happy after dedicating my soul. But from last two days I am again having thoughts of killing myself. My life is totally unbearable. So much pain, so much loses. Although, I am very happy from when I embraced Satanism (a month), but I cannot live this painful life any more. I am proud to be Satanist and I want to do a lot for my Lord but at this moment I can do nothing. I have not started power mediations yet. There is just so much stress that I cannot focus. However, I performed standard ritual many times during this month. Now I am thinking of trying Enochian keys in standard ritual and prayers.
My questions are,
1. Should I use Enochian keys in rituals and prayers? As I said I am totally new. No power mediations yet. I think my aura is very weak and dirty. I might also not able to pronounce keys in Enochian rightly.
2. Are these keys dangerous? specially for newbies?
3. What is the most effective and fast way for a new Satanist to resolve his problems?
4. What can I do now to make my Lord proud of me?
And one thing more, I did not use contract/method of dedicating soul from JOS. I used a contract from sinceisoldmysoul.tumblr to dedicate my soul. I used candles and I signed in my blood from right hand fingers. I did not bathe before dedication ritual and I did not use any incense. I cannot use incense as incense has very sharp smell and I perform rituals at home (muslims home) Should I dedicate my soul again by using JOS method? I believe that I am Satanist and I believe that Satan is true God and Creator. Should I perform my dedication ritual again?
Thank you.
Hi Satanist Friends,I am a new Satanist. I dedicated my soul to Great Lord one month ago. I am from Pakistan. I was previously a muslim. But I am now so happy and proud to be Satanist. I am 24 years old now. (Today, Feb 2, is my birthday).
I am suffering from lots of problem since I was 14 years old. I am having serious thoughts of killing myself for last two years. Islam never worked for me. A month ago, I embraced the truth. I am so happy after dedicating my soul. But from last two days I am again having thoughts of killing myself. My life is totally unbearable. So much pain, so much loses. Although, I am very happy from when I embraced Satanism (a month), but I cannot live this painful life any more. I am proud to be Satanist and I want to do a lot for my Lord but at this moment I can do nothing. I have not started power mediations yet. There is just so much stress that I cannot focus. However, I performed standard ritual many times during this month. Now I am thinking of trying Enochian keys in standard ritual and prayers.
My questions are,
1. Should I use Enochian keys in rituals and prayers? As I said I am totally new. No power mediations yet. I think my aura is very weak and dirty. I might also not able to pronounce keys in Enochian rightly.
2. Are these keys dangerous? specially for newbies?
3. What is the most effective and fast way for a new Satanist to resolve his problems?
4. What can I do now to make my Lord proud of me?
And one thing more, I did not use contract/method of dedicating soul from JOS. I used a contract from sinceisoldmysoul.tumblr to dedicate my soul. I used candles and I signed in my blood from right hand fingers. I did not bathe before dedication ritual and I did not use any incense. I cannot use incense as incense has very sharp smell and I perform rituals at home (muslims home) Should I dedicate my soul again by using JOS method? I believe that I am Satanist and I believe that Satan is true God and Creator. Should I perform my dedication ritual again?
Thank you.