Just because you are surrounded by loved ones who are christians and you choose a different path, you do not need to love them any less, and you can keep receiving love and support from them.
Because of my situation I am also surrounded by christians, my entire medical school's legal framework they use is a private domain one through a church organization, no one knows what I believe in, they either think I am christian like one of them or am agnostic, believing in the Divine but not labeling it, good people will support you, you can still participate in the community, when they are praying silently or aloud to jesus and god you can be praying to Zeus and the Gods in your mind.
But if you believe you are here for a reason, and if you want to make the commitment to go on this enlightenment journey, I would recommend reading the entire website, when you do you will find this page
https://templeofzeus.org/Deprogramming_from_Christianity_Hypnosis.php
Once you fully deprogram from the yehuboric systems, you will find that you are not plagued by any negative emotions, you will see that they are just misguided, and most people although ignorant and spiritually misguided, have good intentions, but simply do not have the truth. And most are not ready for it, either too ruled by fear from past life trauma or other things. It is okay to accept this currently as reality, and you cannot honestly concern yourself with the programming of others if your goal is to find the truth, you must focus on what is right to you if you are finding yourself at this very moment drawn to the truth, you see the benefits of all the knowledge the Gods have laid out to you here, and if you are ready for the truth I recommend going all in, researching and meditating everyday, keep your beliefs to yourself, if you must pretend and wear a 'mask' to your loved ones, because they will not understand, the Gods are the most understanding and loving beings in existence. There is no need to fear losing anything. In Zevism the only thing lost is weakness, dross and negativity.
Thank yourself for being brave I wish you the best on this journey