A Lonely Road to Freedom

[Sketches]

Comrades.

I only had time to write here in the forums because there is literally nothing I could do but this.

Before I explain why, I would like to bring light into my situation.


I've finally decided to completely focus on Detaching my seven main chakras to the enemies of Satan. Nothing else. Just detach, cleanse, and heal my seven main chakras until I can get my body as my soul's residence.


Now, some of the advanced members would say, "This is suicide! With no Aura of Protection, Chakra Spinning, or even Returning Curses, this would end badly."

I already did came to that conclusion. And guess what, it will not make a difference because these enemy leeches that have strong bonds in my soul will suck it up the moment I do any sort of empowerment.


I remembered why the F. RTRs kept backfiring on me. It was because the enemy will not allow me to get up from my bed to do Returning Curses. They always possess my body just to show that "wicked grin" in order to try and frighten me. My body felt heavy, I couldn't get up, and would throw "myself" to the bed in order to sleep. I've grown a cold face because of the countless times they did it.

They've also possessed me to buy something, let's say sweet foods that I like, in order to try and "appease me." It always caught me off-guard because they treat me as a kid who can be bribed by food easily. Even if I tried to turn my body back to my house, they'd just "smile" underneath the face mask and kept going to the direction they want to go until they bought the food I always loved to eat.

I also remembered that no matter how much I tried to empower myself in order to Detach successfully, my energy just "vanishes." Literally the next thing I would do is to rest my eyes a bit and fall asleep.


So, before the awaiting Detachment Working around Moon in Scorpio this December, I decided to experiment.

"Do Detaching at a good Moon sign, even if the Moon is Waxing, in order to lessen the (((bond))) and see how much I can handle."

Needless to say, I found the solution. I may only be able to Detach six main chakras and always fall asleep to my crown, but the next morning already showed signs of great improvement.


So, why am I here making a post if all seems well?

Well, it really isn't.

See, it would have been better to have end it there, but I also have physical responsibilities to handle.


I have four pets, and three more in waiting...

The Detachment Working is already long enough. Let's say four Detachment Workings in one hour. After that, rest, because it really takes a lot of willpower to do them. Then sleep, because I slept at 3 am again doing the Detaching, only to be attacked and possessed because I tried to rest my eyes before doing the crown.

I also mentioned that sometimes, them possessing me is usually out of my control. If they want me to go to bed and isolate, they'd simply focus and obsess over me and use my own legs to escort me there.

Even browsing in (((Jewbook))) in order to distract me.

Even if my pets are yapping in hunger.

Even if they need to be interacted by me because I have unreliable family members who can't be bothered to take care of them once they have free time...


I can only counter with Detaching on the spot in order to fight back. I've called Father Satan and my guardian demons so many times. I don't call them at all now because Detaching really is the only answer...


I'm... really upset that I can't take a break. I made a post concerning how I sacrificed spiritual warfare over my own free time for two years... only to have this nightmare of an experience.


I've... spent the day Detaching because the enemy sexually assaulted me once again, and I had to Detach from my chakras. I really struggled with it, so I decided to take a break by finally drawing my unfinished avatar in the forums.


I was too tired. Unable to concentrate. Which is why my post right now, might be a little... wonky.


I'll be editing unnecessary ramble in this post as much as I can. I just need a little bit of support. Since no one knows but my SS family this kind of feeling. To sacrifice your free time just for a little freedom in this war...

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Truthfully, I don't know about this plan. I don't think it is possible for something to have such control over you, yet also "allow" you to detach and other things against it.

More importantly, I think that Satan or any of the demons would have solved this for you if it was a FOREIGN enemy entity. They could've simply detached for you, then cleaned and protected you, and this would've been plenty for you to rest and recover on your own.

The difference is that if this is a self-created attack, then they cannot do that for you, because obviously, you will create the energy to attack yourself again.

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I think if you get relief from the detachment, this is because you are expecting some sort of temporary relief.

When I look at your linked post, you mention introversion and feelings of ungroundedness/not caring for your physical body. To me, this sounds like a lack of fire and earth/weaker lower chakras vs higher chakras.

So, therefore you are more susceptible to self-attacks or other issues that come from being imbalanced in that manner.

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However, whether these attacks are from foreign or self-created energies, you still need to ignore them entirely. In addition, they have no control over you, especially not your legs or whatever. If you keep thinking this, then this fuels the problem in both situations.

Make an effort to stop this thought process. You are here now, talking to other members, and you are able to detach and so forth, therefore you are independent of anything. Do your AOP as well, and you should be completely fine. This is how you should view it.

Lastly, try to empower at least your bottom chakras. Again, this will help you whether or not the attacks are foreign or self-created, because the bottom chakras will give you the ability to be grounded and more easily manifest your workings. The lower chakras are like the "doing" chakras, more so than the upper ones.

The same goes for cleaning, where you would be cleaning anything negative. Even doing this very briefly is much better than nothing.

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Also, when you are doing the detaching, are you using visualization alone, or are you incorporating runes like Uruz or Ansuz? Chanting runes before or simultaneously would be a much better use of your brainpower so you aren't exhausting your physical energy. This would also give you more energy to more easily detach with, assuming this is the solution to your problem.

The same goes for if you were feeling similarly about chakra spinning. Instead of spinning extensively, either do it less or use mantras. Better yet, use yoga for your empowerment, since this will help you stay grounded as well, and give you more physical energy.

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I can empathize with you in regards to feeling stuck, even when I was putting 110% effort in. However, in my case, and maybe yours, I was acting fervently, but not reasonably. I can see this where you mention going crazy hard with the meditations because I did the same.

However, working smarter is better than working hard. If you are making a mistake, this can ruin a lot of your overall efforts. Additionally, if you have been doing this detaching effort plus asking Satan for help for months now, maybe it is time to think differently.

Take care.

 

[darkmonkey666]

To be honest this may be an environment thing. What kind of environment are you in. Is anyone there practicing enemy beliefs.

Blitzkreig does not seem to realize the Gods would have to let an environmental thing happen they can't keep detaching someone from something only to have it reattach an hour later.

It's up to OP to figure this out. Possession the only case of possession I dealt with personally was links created to an xtian person and energies being drained by them it allowed foreign entities to take over. I can't say for sure it's the same thing here.

It's up to you to figure this out.

 

[Aquarius]

I think this is all in your mind. You might have mental problems.
Also, an aura of protection is an aura of protection, not empowering, it will protect you from negative energies and the like, stopping it is literally gonna make your situation worse.

You're right that you should not empower, but that doesn't mean cutting back on the essentials, like the Aop. Stick with a lot of void meditation, cleaning and aura of protection, and trance.

 

[Henu the Great]

I also remembered that no matter how much I tried to empower myself in order to Detach successfully, my energy just "vanishes." Literally the next thing I would do is to rest my eyes a bit and fall asleep.

I remember our past post history and how I advised you to do detaching in the past, because even though there were hints in the posts that things are not quite what they seem, it made sense to point into that direction back then.

Now however things seem more clear. It's most likely either or two things here right now. The first is that you lack grounding, balancing and self control aka major Earth issues and lower chakra weakness and/or your environment is keeping you back as slyscorpion makes a point.

In any case, you do do not want to stop doing aura cleaning, aura of protection and void meditation because those are staple of this path. Nowhere, absolutely nowhere at no point no one goes full detaching and drops everything else. It makes no sense. You would lack all the supporting features which would mean failure sooner or later.

It's clear to me that your lack of grounding and lack of self control is something that can be fixed by doing Hatha Yoga emphasising on the lower triangle over the higher triangle. Good resource would be to look up Lydias chakra yoga routines. On top of that chakra meditation with the emphasis on the lower three chakras would help, and this done at the same time as you are in the pose would be even more effective. Given that you lack endurance, you should not attempt this right away, but to build into it gradually. Hatha yoga will quite considerably build up your bioelectricity levels along with multitude of other benefits as long as you do it properly and daily, which eventually means that you spend 2+ minutes in one pose. In your case however, it is best to start with something like 30-60 seconds (maybe even only 15 seconds or 2-4 breaths!), and slowly build up time in the pose. Remember to relax fully in the corpse pose after every session.

Furthermore, you need to put serious effort on your other area of weakness which is controlling your mind. The most simple thing to do is to sit quiet and will your mind to be quiet. Even easier methods are to meditate on a single point of an external object, sound or your breathing, for example. This will train your mind to be under your control. It will not be easy, especially at first, but it's what you need the most.

So all in all you lack foundation, and you do not build a foundation by doing detaching. First and foremost you need to set it up and from there raise rest of the building.

Wise thing to do is to start small and build up slowly, especially in such a case as yours when there is not much endurance. Something like 2 minutes void meditation two times a day and 15 minutes of asanas per day every day will get your ball rolling and you can bet that you will be making progress over time as long as you keep showing up and doing the smallest of efforts to begin with. Do not be indimidated by any of the things presented here. Again, start slowly just do one more extra thing and build a habit, get the ball rolling by anchoring on more extra habit and go from there. When you do this right and keep at it, you'll be looking back in one year, two years and wonder how much you have changed.

As for the possibility of there being an actual draining entity versus this being your lack of endurance and weakmindedness. One thing for sure is that you have to fix your base first and then you can conquer other issues.

 

[Henu the Great]

See, it would have been better to have end it there, but I also have physical responsibilities to handle.

Also wanted to add to this: We all do, and we all should. Namely, to have a balance between things spiritual and material.

Point number four is something that I did not mention enough about in my last post: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=300838#p300838

It is important to stay part of this reality by taking care of yourself. Eating when you are hungry, going for walks, exercising, doing errands, socializing. You can not progress as a skeleton (figuratively speaking).

Take care.

 

[Sketches]

It's 4 am in the morning, and I've already stared blankly at the void, waiting in two hours to fall asleep. Nothing. I'm awake as a nocturnal owl.

So I'll have to answer here in the forums and see if I could get some shut-eye later.

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When I saw the names who answered here, I internally cringed, mostly to Aquarius since he is known to be sarcastic sometimes
Uh, no offense though. I can see why, there's so many things wrong with the post I made after mentally burning myself out and forcing myself to write things that are in no need to be mentioned.


Truthfully, I am thankful for the feedback.

Before I left the forums, I had the most uptight discipline to leave out any delusions and never put them in any of my posts, because I was still here in and out, studying JoS sermons and occasionally to the ones I wrote regarding this problem, and that the solution was already guided to me by Father Satan himself: sacrificing free time towards meditations.


Unfortunately, due to the horrible decision I made before I left the forums, it was clear that it had an effect to my mental and physical psyche.


An example is when I took a shower at midnight. I was prone to dandruff, and the schedule I gave myself admittedly gave me no time to do this, or I forced myself to do meditations before anything else.

I turned on the shower head, and was wondering why I was shaking. Turns out, it's because it's fucking December. Sure, it doesn't snow here in my country, but still, I keep underestimating how cold the water can be.


So... yes. Your assumptions were correct. I was fully ungrounded. Mentally unstable from the lack of proper physical stimulation and rest. The environment I live in doesn't exactly give me free reign to have free time...


I think it's time to start a new meditation schedule. And physical lifestyle. Because it's clear that I bum-rush, to the point of wanting to do everything at once instead of placing the others on a reasonable date.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

So... yes. Your assumptions were correct. I was fully ungrounded. Mentally unstable from the lack of proper physical stimulation and rest. The environment I live in doesn't exactly give me free reign to have free time...


I think it's time to start a new meditation schedule. And physical lifestyle. Because it's clear that I bum-rush, to the point of wanting to do everything at once instead of placing the others on a reasonable date.

In time you will be able to progress at a faster rate or devote more time, however, we are all constrained by certain limitations of the physical world which don't allow our mental concepts to be applied fully. That does not mean you cannot keep trying to push yourself, but you have to be mindful of when you are hitting limits, and adjust accordingly.

Prioritize workings that slowly improve your situation, and things will get easier. An easy example of this is working to gain more vitality, such that you don't become easily physically drained. The more fire energy one has, the more vitality they have, because their body both loses less yin substance, but can also recreate it more easily.

Other workings can be done to put yourself in a more favorable position in regards to your family and pets, for example.

I would keep in touch with other SS and the Gods so you can refine your routine to one that promotes growth at the fastest rate (which means stable and healthy growth).

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If you are having trouble sleeping or having dandruff, then this is a symptom of yin deficiency. This is fixed by hatha yoga and other yin-building acupoints like Spleen 6 or Kidney 3. However, be mindful of anything that transforms yang to yin because the winter months are more draining on yang, although the body produces more yin at this time as well.

Yang yoga would be the Tibetan 5 Rites, Kundalini yoga, or extended Breath of Fire practice. If you have a heavy air influence on your chart and were feeling cold, then you are probably also prone to yang deficiency as well. This is normal with the "vata" or air-type person in Ayurvedic medicine.

Therefore, working with both earth and fire could help you in their own ways. Uruz symbolizes this to some degree since it has properties of both. Upcoming planetary squares can help you a lot as well. For example, both the Sun and Mars will enter Capricorn soon, which gives a practical mindset and endurance. Soon after, they will both be in Aries, which can give you the pure fire for vitality or willpower.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Forgot to mention: If you are feeling too wired to fall asleep, then try a few things: Alternate nostril breathing or hatha yoga, deep breathing, or invoke earth and program it to help you sleep, in a healthy manner. The earth alone can easily make your body feel more weighted and able to relax "on command".

Good luck.

 

[BrightSpace666]

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Forgot to mention: If you are feeling too wired to fall asleep, then try a few things: Alternate nostril breathing or hatha yoga, deep breathing, or invoke earth and program it to help you sleep, in a healthy manner. The earth alone can easily make your body feel more weighted and able to relax "on command".

Good luck.

Hi, Blitzkreig!


Maybe I shouldn't be commenting here anyway. I would like to ask if you could work with me. I would like to ask for your help and opinion on something. Preferably by e-mail. Is your current email address, listed under your profile picture, active? Because if so, and it is, I would send you the information via E-mail. Thanks in advance for your reply.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Maybe I shouldn't be commenting here anyway. I would like to ask if you could work with me. I would like to ask for your help and opinion on something. Preferably by e-mail. Is your current email address, listed under your profile picture, active? Because if so, and it is, I would send you the information via E-mail. Thanks in advance for your reply.

Yes, you can email me there.

 

[Sketches]

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Yes, thank you all for the responses. Don't worry about me. I just need to organize my sleeping schedule because that's where the source of my stress is, which is unable to be fully awake to do any meditations, or force myself to do household chores because my family members are busy, either working or being lazy, there is no in-between.