A little help would be appreciated!

[xblubli]

Hello brothers and sisters!

You have helped me so much before in the past, but I have yet another question.

I became a dedicated satanist in August. Since then and untill now I have being meditating (just aura- and voidmeditation) and praying each night. My praying works this way:
I kneel at my bed, fold my hands and then start with, "Dear Father", "My Lord" or similar things to show my respect. Then I pray and finish it with Hail Satan.

But the things is:
I have read the website many times and it says to expect many things like voices, appearances and such. But fact is that I have only seen such in August, which was before I became dedicated.

I know this sounds very bad and I feel so guilty about it, but my faith is not as strong as it once were. I don't know if Satan is testing me or what is going on, but I'm feeling that I'm just stuck.

Any help on what I should do will be much appreciated! But please don't get me wrong. I believe in Satan and despise the christian gods, which have never given me anything but pain.

The very best regards and thanks on forehand!
And sorry for my terrible grammar.

Hail Satan!

 

[xzibitkilla12]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "xblubli" <el_froggy@... wrote:

Hello brothers and sisters!

You have helped me so much before in the past, but I have yet another question.

I became a dedicated satanist in August. Since then and untill now I have being meditating (just aura- and voidmeditation) and praying each night. My praying works this way:
I kneel at my bed, fold my hands and then start with, "Dear Father", "My Lord" or similar things to show my respect. Then I pray and finish it with Hail Satan.

But the things is:
I have read the website many times and it says to expect many things like voices, appearances and such. But fact is that I have only seen such in August, which was before I became dedicated.

I know this sounds very bad and I feel so guilty about it, but my faith is not as strong as it once were. I don't know if Satan is testing me or what is going on, but I'm feeling that I'm just stuck.

Any help on what I should do will be much appreciated! But please don't get me wrong. I believe in Satan and despise the christian gods, which have never given me anything but pain.

The very best regards and thanks on forehand!
And sorry for my terrible grammar.

Hail Satan!

Don't be afraid.It happens to me either.I started to let myself do too much.I listened to music that kind of hurts satan and liked it.Now,I try to stay away from it.I am trying to get back on the track again.I got lazy and stopped meditating and praying.That happened to the best of us.Remember, we are not in millions in this world so our energy is nothing comparing to the huge amount of hate and energy of those false
religion believers.I recommend getting back to basics,read EVERYTHING in JoS and in Exposing Christianity.This will help. Much love.
HAIL SATAN!