A few questions from a new member

[LoGirl]

I have been lurking for quite a while and have started meditating. I have looked for a place where I belong for so long and I am so happy to find this place. I am feeling overwhelmed trying to find where to start.

My husband doesn't know how I feel about so many things. He is not active in any kind of church, but is very vocal about his love for "God" and Jesus Christ. I have never said anything either way, so he assumes I feel the same. I do not.

Is it possible to have a happy marriage with someone who feels the opposite of me as far as who we worship? We have 3 kids together and I just don't know how to address the subject.

Also, he doesn't know that I am bisexual. I love him but we are different in so many ways. As I am reading through this forum and realizing things about myself I never even knew, I want him to support or at least tolerate the real me.

Has anyone here had a loving marriage with someone who is the way I just described my husband?

Also, I would really appreciate someone directing me toward a good starting point as far as this forum goes. Thank you.

 

[Aquarius]

The honest truth is that the more you will start advancing your soul the more you are probabily gonna reject him more and he could be an obstacle to your meditations if he comes to know you hate xianity. Use your intuition, you can’t live with someone you don’t like(if you don’t like him obviously).

 

[Luna Black]

Well you got options on the interpersonal level. Experimenting with women could turn very enjoyable.
You need to be in charge of your destiny now and not let a xtian dictate you. Think about your future and the one of your children in 5 years. Try discussing your situation with him and that his religiosity has started to take a serious toll on you. Don't mention Satanism or Paganism but make him understand that you have become sick of it and don't want religious indoctrination for your children. You can pose as an increasingly militant atheist person, they tend to have a staunch disgust for any religions and it will keep your cover
Love is a complicated situation. Often it is solely about personal perceptions of the other, habits and links that formed at the soul level (they can be removed if one knows about them and wants to).
But in any case do not feel any obligation to act like a perfect obedient xtian wife.
You could also choose be solely involved as a front for the children even if you ultimately decide to not divorce legally.

 

[LoGirl]

The honest truth is that the more you will start advancing your soul the more you are probabily gonna reject him more and he could be an obstacle to your meditations if he comes to know you hate xianity. Use your intuition, you can’t live with someone you don’t like(if you don’t like him obviously).

Thank you for your honesty. I do like him. He is a good person. I am just the type of person who doesn't want secrets. I suppose I will just have to see how it goes and follow my gut. Thank you.