A big problem

[jamesmarshall237]

So my mom's forehead and top of her head have it's skin falling off along with her finger tips. I can not get it to see a dermatologist because she is to scared after her having breast cancer. I honestly do not know what to do with myself. I always see her scratching now and when I tell her to please stop she just gets pissed at me. Any idea of what it might be?

 

[soutlaw92]

Generally speaking, dermatological problems are caused by blood, lymph and or digestive issues. On the other hand it can be just a side effect from a bigger problem.

 

[soutlaw92]

Hello, JamesSo you are saying that your mother has overcome cancer in the past?How old is she?When she scratches, does the skin fall off and does it bleed?Does she have any other health problems?
I hope you do not mind me asking these questions but they are helpful in determining what the cause may be.
The member CentralForce is very good with giving great advice from a Traditional Chinese Medicine point of view.
Be Well.

 

[soutlaw92]

Hello, James.
You say she has had breast cancer in the past and has overcome it?When she crates does the skin fall off and bleed? How do they look?How old is she?What is the state of her health and what problems, if any, does she have with her health?
I hope you don't mind me asking these things because they are factors in determining the cause.
Be well.
High Priestess Shannon

 

[jamesmarshall237]

I do not mind at all. I know you are trying to help and it means the world to me. She has overcome cancer before and the way she did was through very very aggressive chemo/radiation/surgery. All of which made her look twice her age. Which is currently 57. Before cancer she looked in her late 20s. She has many issues both mental and physical. On a hardcore anti-depressant that she in her own words' Rather die then stop taking'. She is also xain even though i have tried to help. So as you can see she is heavily influenced by the enemy and jooz at that. Her skin itself is cracking and some parts i believe i can see the upper most layers of muscle. Her forehead/top of her head is covered in half scabs and red skin that is burning to the touch. She was also a heavily pill popper although she denies it. Also refuses the massive issues we have in our family. Rapist child molesters and hell her niece sold their children into sexual slavery. 3 Kids all under 6. When ever i try to help her threw these mental issues she is clearly blocking and acting like don't exist it just turns into a fight where i am mean and have nothing good to say. She is always mad i call out 'the faults of everything' when in reality i am simply trying to say things are no perfect and wonderful like she acts they are. She is also full of hate and refuses to release any of it. Her mother forced her at 15 to marry a drunken drug attic just to be mean to her. My 'grandmother', sad to say in fact so much so it i feel my heart wrench even thinking of it, is jealous of her because her mother, my mothers grandmother, showed her love and affection when my 'grandmother' gave her up. Then at 5 stole her back just cause she was happy. Then every time she got a present of they gave her affection she always got back at her. I have tried to get that vile evil monster outta our lives but no always saying 'because she is my mother i have to show her respect'. Nonstop she says that because she was beat and brainwashed. Then my cousin, practically her son and they where closer then my worthless half brother is with her, just OD'd and it is killing her. That half brother i mention makes up lies about her and what horrible she did to him yet it is common knowledge that drug attic of a father did all that shit to him. He even got my half brother on heroin. Not to mention where we are staying at is her old bosses place. She use to clean here a lot and i spend a lot of my child hood her because of how my 'dad' is. Let just say he traumatized the both of us horribly. In fact just to give you an idea here is a good example. One time he had a mental break down and was up for seven days and had 'god and the devil' speaking to him. While my mother was at a chemo treatment he gabbed my and forcefully made me go into a room we had for smoking because my lungs are very bad. It had a window and he started talking all this crazy gibberish along with 'talking in tongues'. To me a 5 just about 6 year old . So my other half brother, yeah i know i have two my family seems to be bad at the forever till death part, and my 'dads' brother, they stopped by and both had a key and came in to make sure everything was alright, came in the room and tried to get him to stop. He yelled at them then at me about them being the devil and how god needed my 'dad' to protect me from them. So he ended up 'talking in tongues' some more swallowed a golden chain cross then jumped outta the window. We only had a one story house and he hit his head on a large rock that was nearby as well. Some neighbors already called the cops from the commotion luckily. Just then my mom got home and burst outta crying from everything trying to make sure I was alright. To which i was not in the least. They put him in a ward but because his mother was a bipolar skitso so she knew how to talk her way outta those places, and her learned how to do the same cause he was always in and outta them. He ended up telling my mom Ill kill you if you let me stay and longer. She signed him out fearing for her life because the place they were at was just like the court she ended up taking him to years later. They are utterly against woman and children in any sense. Sorry for the long super block of words but I just wanted to let you know her mental state is truly not in any kinda well shape. 

---In SSHealth@yahoogroups.com, <soutlaw92@... wrote :

Hello, James.
You say she has had breast cancer in the past and has overcome it?When she crates does the skin fall off and bleed? How do they look?How old is she?What is the state of her health and what problems, if any, does she have with her health?
I hope you don't mind me asking these things because they are factors in determining the cause.
Be well.
High Priestess Shannon

 

[soutlaw92]

Well.. That is a lot, James.Your mother is not physically or mentally well, thats for sure. It is sad. Many are going through these kind of situations.
For starters I hope you are actively meditating, cleansing your aura and advancing your soul through power meditation. With this, it will give you the strength, power and protection to get through this and balance you out. So, no matter what, keep increasing your bioelectricity.
If your mother and her overall well being is your focus for now, you should carefully plan this out.Her mental health is the most important factor here because without any mental stability she will not have the competence and will to actively further her own healing. So, in other words, she needs mentally and spiritual healing. Being a Xian definitely does not help at all. We all know the degeneration that Xianity brings.
I understand how it might feel to watch the person you care about deteriorate before you. It has happened to me before. But I have brought it upon my self to heal that loved one in the best way possible.
Spiritually speaking, the Sun Square would be a good overworking to promote her health both mentally and physically while working on the physical step at a time. You know your mother better than I do obviously so would she be stubborn in taking certain food based supplements for her general immune system and body? Such as Cod liver oil. This works on the immune system, skin and liver.
From what you can see, does she want to heal herself...Some such as Xians pretty much "accept" the problems they have and do not even think of taking it upon themselves to do what they can to save themselves. They became the mirror of the program of Xianity based on death and being the complete victim. Some Xians will not even take life saving medicine because they want to rely on that nazarene or god to heal them...through constant praying...
No doubt, your mother's situation is very sad indeed.

 

[jamesmarshall237]

She surely seems to wanna get better but anything she doesn't see as helpful she shall ignore. I found that soaking her hands in non pasteurized slightly warmed milk can help. So does doing the same with aloe vera and olive oil. She refuses. Instead she puts bandaids on her fingers and suffers. Going between the verge of wanting to just cut them off and crying herself to death. As for me I just started again on the 24th cause of the taurus moon. I have big issues with perseverance due to that 'dad' i spoke about. Every time I would something good he would try to one up me or make me feel bad. Any thing good I did was to ease or meaningless. Any time I could do something better he would tear down my confidence. He has threatened to kill me because of how effeminate I can be. I am third sex and I love to be what people might call girly even if I am six feet tall with a masculine albeit slightly chubby build. Another thing he would attack me on that my mom tried to defend. I have love handle and a slight belly but I was always fat. I would always eat to much sugar he would say. Which was true but I ate it so much as a comfort from their endless fighting. Nonstop yelling then they would both take it out on me in the ways they did. Any time i tried to spend time with them. Nope to busy. Never finding time for me. I don't whole heartily blame my mom but it still kills me to have all my feelings buried. Then i get angry and i push I do meditation then i collapse. I don't even have the will nor want to even get outta bed. I was never able to make friends cause little did i know i was surrounded by jooz when i was young. The principal, full on jooz and boy how he loved to say it and how proud he was of it, payed a bully to harass me. So when i never made any real friends my dad bitched to me. Said how weak and girly I was. A cocksucker. Stuff like that. Only outlet i had was my best buddy duke. A lovely dog we had. He died of a stroke and when he did i had to hear him all night long suffering through it but was told to keep quite by that asshole. When he went to go put him down i wasn't allowed with. Forced to go to that hell of a school. Only to come home to him already buried and when i say i wanna visit before we have to move, he made the house get foreclosed on me and my mom just so we didn't have a place to live so we had to stay with him in his cramped apartment, he yells at me saying how annoying i am. He personally made it so I can't even cry or have any intense feelings and when i admit it i just feel dead inside. I am sure my moms no different. Every time I have ever ever tried to vent or just feel like someone is truly listing it back fires on me. So i just stopped trying to even feel human. I can't even say I hate cause i have not been able to feel the sweet release of hate in years. I really have no idea what to do honestly. I know that i need to be persistent but every time i try its like my whole body gives up on itself. I just can't bring myself to even try. It also seems like I always cause my own downfall. Last time i did a sun square I could not even start until it was almost sun up but i made it all the way until the last day. I slept for so long that it was noon the next day. I know it has to do with the fact that he, 'dad', made me go to church and get brainwashed with how worthless i was and evil and sinful. For i time i hated the fact i was third sex cause of it. Even now I kinda just feel pathetic in how i am. I know I need a good kick but any time one comes it just hurts me emotionally. Makes me self loath. I am utterly lost trying to save someone who doesn't even want my help. Who I know wouldn't accept father Satan. Not for a moment. She wont accept the fact jooz are evil. She would laugh at how the world truly works and call it a bad sifi movie. Even knowing this I still wanna help and it makes me feel dumb. Can you believe that. I feel dumb cause i love. In my head it is always screaming love is a weakness. Yet it is something I really want. I would love to have a lovely Satanic Boyfriend and hold him close. That is why I want a incubus but ever time i even think about it the thought that ' I am not good enough, and how could they even be attracted to me. Fat slobbish overbearing arrogant and not half as smart as you think you are all at the age of 19' pops right in. It took me well over a week to read the incubus and succubus page because i felt so dammed ashamed of myself. Every time i opened it i felt this sense of dread and self loath mixed with my want to be able to have someone. Even while wrting this I just bite down hard on my left thumb in a slight tingling of rage but as soon as it i could barely feel it. It dies and fades instantly just like any another feeling i have. I know i wasn't always like this too and it makes me feel so much worst about it. I don't even really wanna send this huge text cause i feel like i am just wasting your time or that your just gonna be like 'uughh fucking moron'. I know its not true but its there nagging at me. It is like i can't even trust other people or myself.
---In SSHealth@yahoogroups.com, <soutlaw92@... wrote :

Well.. That is a lot, James.Your mother is not physically or mentally well, thats for sure. It is sad. Many are going through these kind of situations.
For starters I hope you are actively meditating, cleansing your aura and advancing your soul through power meditation. With this, it will give you the strength, power and protection to get through this and balance you out. So, no matter what, keep increasing your bioelectricity.
If your mother and her overall well being is your focus for now, you should carefully plan this out.Her mental health is the most important factor here because without any mental stability she will not have the competence and will to actively further her own healing. So, in other words, she needs mentally and spiritual healing. Being a Xian definitely does not help at all. We all know the degeneration that Xianity brings.
I understand how it might feel to watch the person you care about deteriorate before you. It has happened to me before. But I have brought it upon my self to heal that loved one in the best way possible.
Spiritually speaking, the Sun Square would be a good overworking to promote her health both mentally and physically while working on the physical step at a time. You know your mother better than I do obviously so would she be stubborn in taking certain food based supplements for her general immune system and body? Such as Cod liver oil. This works on the immune system, skin and liver.
From what you can see, does she want to heal herself...Some such as Xians pretty much "accept" the problems they have and do not even think of taking it upon themselves to do what they can to save themselves. They became the mirror of the program of Xianity based on death and being the complete victim. Some Xians will not even take life saving medicine because they want to rely on that nazarene or god to heal them...through constant praying...
No doubt, your mother's situation is very sad indeed.

 

[centralforce6661]

Shannon is correct in her assessment of the skin problems that your mother is experiencing originating in deeper systems of the body. In this instance it sounds like it might be blood, especially if the skin is very dry and flaky. I would suspect your mother is very pale and gets tired easily - the cytotoxic drugs that are used to combat cancer take a heavy toll on the blood and yin of the body and certainly if one does not overcome the cancer then the chemo drugs would contribute to the high rate of mortality (death) that we see with most cancers today.

It sounds as though you yourself have not had it easy, and as brute as it might sound, perhaps you would be best focused on yourself for the time being. It's not wrong to love your mother and want to help her, that is very natural however I have found that if one is not in good shape themselves, mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually then certainly their capacity to effectively help others is also diminished. I am especially drawn to your last statement that despite knowing that sharing this information here is not a waste of time, you still feel bad for doing it.

It would seem that subconsciously you are still trying for your father figure's approval, whether you want it or not you are still looking for it. Might I suggest exploring that part of your mind for a little while to see if it helps? If you would like herbal advice for your mother I would also be happy to help however I would like to see YOU as one of Father Satan's own get to your feet sooner than someone who might only further drain you of what energy you have left in trying to help them.

 

[soutlaw92]

As CentralForce has put it, it seems that you really need to focus on yourself. After sending this message, I see that you have your own issues to work to first. We all do.
Don't over extend yourself in that you are trying to make yourself well and then handle the baggage of your mother's. You might have to become consumed in yourself. Help yourself now and then you'll have the strength to help those close to you.
These self loathing and negative feelings you have for yourself and with the assumptions that the gods or we SS here would think you are a moron or not good enough, are definitely not healthy.
Its very sad to see the mental abuse you experienced. Learn to have a loving and caring attitude toward yourself and as was mentioned in the last message, the power meditations will heal you from the inside out. Just try your best to be consistent. Do not see them as a chore. See them as something as vital as eating. In this world, most of humanity are on such a low level and these problems manifest. Purify the dross within you and keep on elevating. 
Take care of your body, treat it well. Compliment yourself and highlight your best features. Don't let anyone ever tell you that you are an abomination or perverted because you are a third sex. Being third sex is a wonderful thing and how you were born. Satanism stands for all that is natural. It doesn't tale much to see that those around you are the ones who are unnatural.
You are with Satan now. You are not alone.Having a positive loving outlook to yourself is very, very important. If you are not mentally well then everything else begins to degrade.
So with this being said, work on yourself first. You can make use of the runes or energy from the sun by way of runes, sanskrit or breathing energy from the sun. Just take things step at a time. Increasing your bioelectricity will give you the raw energy and power needed to tackle these issues in your life and wit empowering the soul, things will fall into place for you. I like to invoke fire in cases like this and keep your aura clean so negative though forms and energy does not cling to your aura to cause more havoc.
Please do not hesitate to ask anymore questions here concerning your mental health and well being. Or you can email me or central force (If that is okay with him) if you have any personal health related issues to work out. 
For now you have:Invoking FireUse of runes such as Wunjo for healingPositive affirmations before bed which work to reprogram your brainSun SquareMeditating on Father Satan's and his sigil, as well as his calming blue energyOverall power meditation

 

[centralforce6661]

"Or you can email me or central force (If that is okay with him) if you have any personal health related issues to work out."

Yes that is totally fine.

 

[Taol]

I understand the part about wanting to help someone else. I too have had the urge a lot in the past. I was taking on other peoples problems as my own and it has given me too much negative results.

I don't think anyone here thinks of you as a moron, honestly, maybe some might but I highly doubt it.

This next alinea might be of little significance but I still would like to share:
I was told when I was seven years old that I didn't understand how other people feel. I tried to learn how other people behave after that, watching their reactions to things. Now I am quite a bit older. I've had a compliment from some people that if anyone could relate to something it would be me. I've always had more intense emotions than everyone else, and now I understand after coming here that that is in my natal chart too.

What was said to me was faulty. But that doesn't have to define who I am.

When you have negative thoughts about subjects, try to find something else to show perspective. This is hard I know and easier to do after you climb out of that pit you're in.

Indeed, work on yourself. The road may seem long, but after a while you will look back and see the progress you've made. 

I know you will be able to do it. Now you have to believe that yourself too.
I am who I am and no one but me is ever going to succeed in changing that.
(you may take that last sentence as an affirmation if you like)