The Gods #929 Belief that I've been Abused and Abandoned by Satan in some way

[Ask Satya Operator]

I'm having a hard time right now trying to hold onto the faith that I have in Satan. There is a lot of planetary transit things happening right now to me astrologically and on top of it all I have come to a negative belief that most of the things that I go through are actually caused by the gods.

One thing I admit is that my mind has been so fucking out of control for years and I believe that they just got sick of it and started bullying and victimizing me in some way. They want me to move out of a negative lifestyle that I've been living, but I don't understand why It seems like small negative things I go through throughout my day is caused by them and at the same time it feels like pure bullying. Maybe its not them and its something else, or its because of the current planet transits I've been having thats causing extreme miscommunication. Saturn isnt retrograde anymore but during that time period it was touching my Mercury and Moon and I'm wondering if this is causing stress in this way and causing me to believe that the gods are bullying and victimizing me.

It's very negative mindset to have and I don't want it anymore. I need something to restore my faith in Satan and I dont know where to look.

 

[Ĥl·lĥæ]

Maybe it's the same person who said slightly negative things about the guardian demon himself?

Is this trolling?

I think you've answered your own question, there are bad transits and your mind is unstable.
Solve it with a magical work, and if you don't have enough power to do one. Just create a decent protective aura and a soul cleansing.

 

[Bluecollarbutch666]

The manifestations of negative transits and one's personal karma are part of life and have nothing to do with the gods inflicting anything upon you it would never do such a thing. Negativity is a part of life, but much of it can be mitigated by our own personal choices. Becoming well versed in astrology helps you identify upcoming negative transits while studying what best options to offset them. Clearing your soul of negative karma also mitigates any negative manifestations. But the Gods by no means cause this in any way.

 

[Maelstorm [NG]]

An unstable mind becomes vulnerable to the rush of emotions. This is a very dangerous situation and can poison one's ability to reason, as it is now, because you believe that the Gods are treating you badly and bullying you.

It is simply not possible for the Gods to treat you like that, and they also will not do so because you are going off the path. We have a sermon that was shared just a week or two ago that the Gods never give up on you. If you have doubts about this, read it. For as long as you are not driving yourself to absolute annihilation and manifesting it, you can always rise. And you will rise. All this is a process, and without understanding this very fact, you cannot let go of your weights, to finally rise.

And one more thing, you have a lot of little negative things happening throughout the day? Astrological influences are one of the reasons why this happens, but you can prevent a lot of it with a proper AoP. I have observed clearly how small misfortunes escalate when I stop doing my protection and then they turn into bad events. So make sure you never skip it and do it properly.

 

[Khem Nefermed]

Everyone here gave great and constructive advice, that you should follow.
I will be the bad cop this go around and point you to some more stern things you need to hear as well.

Satanas will help, teach and guide, but he is not going to hold your hand through your entire life, or do your laundry.

 

[Gerecht_Ror]

One thing I admit is that my mind has been so fucking out of control for years and I believe that they just got sick of it and started bullying and victimizing me in some way.

This sentence led me to ask, what is the root cause of your mind being unstable?
There may be many reasons. Did you suffer traumas or mistreatment in your childhood? If this happened by the hand of one of your caregivers, you may have a rooted problem with authority. If you have been bullied of victimized as a child by a person with authority on you, you may be projecting this idea onto the Gods and thinking that "as they have authority over me, they are bullying me" simply because your mind has been trained to think so.
If you were a God would you loose your time bullying a human? I don't think so.

Also I think you are overthinking, because of a possibly fragmented mind. And a part of your mind is leading you to believe the Gods mistreat you (that is not even possible) in the hope you will leave Satan. Because, Satan and the Gods are helping you to live a better life, and are acting against that "part" of the mind who was leading you to live with a negative lifestyle, that you abandoned.
In short : you abandoned a negative lifestyle, the Gods lead you to leave this lifestyle = a part of your mind (that enjoyed this negative lifestyle...) wants to cancel connection with the Gods so you will get back to negative lifestyle.
This is only a possibility, but this happened to me in the past, and it is how I see your situation.
Hope this helps!