Some of it is ME. That I am aware of, I did for rougnhly 12 years down myself in hideous ways. That cannot be denied, but since 2003, it's been them all over me. They were there even before I knew they were there. I have an uncanny knack for sensing such things through information held in energy. As I was basically a loner, I received very little ultimate herrassment from other people. Tbh, I dunno wtf I did, but they've been all over me for a long time now. My backstory is a brutal one. I've never once ever been able to enjoy things just as I like. And, I never really got into the xian murder way. I was drug off as a kid, but it never stuck, I got bored, and fell asleep every time. Had a normal life for the most part, other than feeling dissatisfied with everything up till about now really. It's my honest conjecture, and I know this may seem far-fetched, but, these bastards have been in my life since I was born. I wish I knew why.. I wish I could do some subconscious delving, but I am so pissed off by them that I cannot even concentrate long enough to do it. It seems like my mind is totally flooded by xian crap coming from them, which for a long time in my life was something I typically never thought. Plus, multiple distractions at every little turn. My worst problem is my weak memory. I'd like to go into more, but I'd rather tell someone who truly understands.
