Schwarze Sonne Warrior
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Shall now recount something I rarely, if ever, dare to share.
Many years ago—though I am now only thirty—I was approximately eighteen or nineteen and preparing to enter university. During that period, I began studying Greek, and, quite unexpectedly, I started experiencing vivid mental images involving a serpent and the pineal gland. Almost instinctively, I took up meditation and began practicing cardiovascular exercise daily. At that time, I was still socially perceived as a young man, if you understand my meaning.
It was then that I heard a masculine voice say to me: “Seek knowledge and continue.” Nothing more.
However, after engaging more intensely in these practices, I began to experience episodes that I can only describe as distressing. If memory serves, they occurred around nine o’clock at night. I would awaken in a state of paralysis, enveloped by an intense light. I felt what I interpreted as malevolent presences in my room. On one occasion, I sensed as though two invisible beings attempted to tear me apart; I did not see anyone, yet I felt as if my body were being split in two. The pain was acute, though no visible agent appeared before me. I can only infer that something occurred, though I cannot determine what.
During that same period, I would meditate in various parts of the house, focusing on what is commonly referred to as the “third eye.” At times, even while fully awake, I felt my body vibrate, as though struck by an energetic current. It resembled an intense electrical discharge coursing through me. At that time, I was unfamiliar with Satanism or Zevism; such ideas had not entered my horizon. I simply believed in nature and sought to study philosophy.
I recount these events because, in retrospect, the pieces now seem to cohere. In 2023, I came to believe that Hera led me toward Satanism/Zevism; thus, I interpret those earlier experiences as part of a process that, in some manner, directed me here. Yet after the episodes involving the light and the apparent attempts to harm me, I became afraid and ceased those practices.
I share all this to affirm that I believe spiritual truth exists and that I genuinely attempt to reflect upon what you explain here. At the same time, I ask you to understand that, regarding my identity, it is not simple for me to read certain assertions and immediately assent to them. Nevertheless, I have endeavored to do so with sincerity and goodwill.
Best Regards,
Sonnen Scent. ))
Many years ago—though I am now only thirty—I was approximately eighteen or nineteen and preparing to enter university. During that period, I began studying Greek, and, quite unexpectedly, I started experiencing vivid mental images involving a serpent and the pineal gland. Almost instinctively, I took up meditation and began practicing cardiovascular exercise daily. At that time, I was still socially perceived as a young man, if you understand my meaning.
It was then that I heard a masculine voice say to me: “Seek knowledge and continue.” Nothing more.
However, after engaging more intensely in these practices, I began to experience episodes that I can only describe as distressing. If memory serves, they occurred around nine o’clock at night. I would awaken in a state of paralysis, enveloped by an intense light. I felt what I interpreted as malevolent presences in my room. On one occasion, I sensed as though two invisible beings attempted to tear me apart; I did not see anyone, yet I felt as if my body were being split in two. The pain was acute, though no visible agent appeared before me. I can only infer that something occurred, though I cannot determine what.
During that same period, I would meditate in various parts of the house, focusing on what is commonly referred to as the “third eye.” At times, even while fully awake, I felt my body vibrate, as though struck by an energetic current. It resembled an intense electrical discharge coursing through me. At that time, I was unfamiliar with Satanism or Zevism; such ideas had not entered my horizon. I simply believed in nature and sought to study philosophy.
I recount these events because, in retrospect, the pieces now seem to cohere. In 2023, I came to believe that Hera led me toward Satanism/Zevism; thus, I interpret those earlier experiences as part of a process that, in some manner, directed me here. Yet after the episodes involving the light and the apparent attempts to harm me, I became afraid and ceased those practices.
I share all this to affirm that I believe spiritual truth exists and that I genuinely attempt to reflect upon what you explain here. At the same time, I ask you to understand that, regarding my identity, it is not simple for me to read certain assertions and immediately assent to them. Nevertheless, I have endeavored to do so with sincerity and goodwill.
Best Regards,
Sonnen Scent. ))
