I desperately need spiritual workings for anxiety social anxiety to be specific
Hello there, first of all. Sorry for your impairing condition that may deprive you of a part of your social life, it's not to be taken lightly and it seems to me it's really painful for you. You are even scared of writing this postò.
There's not only Magick and Meditation to solve problems. It is of paramount importance but, you also need to find the root causes of the problem you are trying to correct to work in parellel.
Social anxiety may have its roots in violence or abuse, a person may have suffered in childhood. Also in previous lives, I believe.
This happens because early life beatings, abuse, shouting, emotional threatening, etc. are stored - at the emotional level - in the Amigdala gland. Just emotional memories, not facts like rememberng a picture or scene, that are stored into the common memory area of the brain.
Emotional memories means that, if you have suffered an attack, abuse or violence when a common person met you in the street, the *feeling* of meeting people may trigger anxiety or fear in you. Because Amigdala does not discern between this or that person, it stores the feeling only. It simply "perceives" there are people around you and this triggers anxiety out of fear those people can harm you. Whoever they are. That is not the case, because most people will be indifferent about you. This happens in people emotionally damaged who experiences very unsafe conditions. Most often the biggest problems comes when you are deceived, attacked, or scammed by a person in whom you had total trust and faith. This causes your mind to feel "everyone is a threat because I can trust noone" - thus common people you meet in the streets are a threat for your Amigdala = social anxiety.
A person braking the trust another person has totally put in him/her, like a child would do, is one of the worst traumas someone may inflict.
Also some Zevists should remember this, never play with others.
I suggest you can work with your Guardian Demon who may drive you to a person, in whom you can gain new trust while experiencing a life situation similar to the one triggering your fears. Like healing. I know this as the Demons guided me to that, and I felt on myself how it works.
Healing the Emotional Body Meditation also helps, but you should - if possible - be aware of the causes of your problem so you can focus on healing on this particular wound.
Trusting someone who will not deceive you, will be paramount.
Feel free to let me/us know more about that - if you want - if you find the roots of your suffering.