The Gods What am I doing wrong?

[Corvina0189]

Good day everyone,
I want to pose my doubts here since i am unable to solve them myself.
I have reading the main website for quite some time now, i am not even sure where i stand at this time, but i am sure i am not as active as a true satanist should. I crave true knowledge but sometimes it seems like even known members’ opinions differ on the ancient forums and I can’t find that information on the main website so I struggle with clarity about what is the true essence of Lord Satan and other things as well.
Since i learned about satanism i have always been going back and forth. There were periods of time where i was very focused and others where I completely forgot about it and even tried to ignore it but at the end i would always feel the need to come back. Even my soul dedication ritual was only spiritual, i never brought myself to do the ritual physically nor did I sign with my own blood because I wanted to wait for the right moment or i was unsure. Should i do a proper one? And at this time am I still under Lord’s guidance or not. Why does this keep happening i am unsure on how to act. And unsure on what to believe…
I’m seeking advices and didn’t intend to offend anyone by my words, i appreciate your time

 

[Apprentice]

Some of us go through the phases of feeling uncertain and doubting everything. This is normal. Don't be too hard on yourself. Satan is Zeus, and this is Zevism. Ask yourself, how do you feel about the All-Father.

Zevism is about action, bravery, and many more benefic qualities. A dedication ritual performed physically is a brave action, based on your internal decision to step out of the lies and side with the Original Creators of this world. By performing this, you make a conscious choice. This is like saying to the Gods: "Hello, I am here, I'm starting on my path". After that, they will watch you, guide you when asked, and you have to pay attention to any signs they give. It is you who has to become active, there is no passive salvation in Zevism. The first order of business is usually starting to perform daily Aura cleaning and Aura of Protection. You will benefit immensely from doing these. In time, other things will follow.

When I found this place, I used to hesitate for some time, too. Focusing on reading the writings of the High Priestess and the High Priest helped me a great deal in getting my mind right. In the beginning, it is very hard to imagine where this path can take you, but I am absolutely sure in retrospect you'll see it was the only right thing to do. There is mindless existence in ignorance, and then there's the Light of Zevism, and doing what needs to be done.

 

[Corvina0189]

Thanks a lot for the comforting advice, i’ll keep it in mind and act upon it.

 

[Henu the Great]

Should i do a proper one?

Yes. And it can be done any time. Some prefer to choose a specific day, while others just do it, because the sooner the better.

 

[Corvina0189]

Yes. And it can be done any time. Some prefer to choose a specific day, while others just do it, because the sooner the better.

Noted, i appreciate your guidance