Forced will onto me, before/during riturals

[SkeletonHands]

Hello Brothers and Sisters!

I am wondering what's going on this has been happening for years and I guess Im finally reaching out for help and answers.
To make a long story short, when ritual schedules begin, something inside me feels more tired and "they" dont want to do them.(it's like they're pretending to be me and forcing their feelings or their will on to mine) When I proceed to do the rituals I feel pain in the left side of my chest. Or a force that makes me do the bare minimum. Like at some point I would do only so many vibrations of runes or this pain in my chest would get worse the more I try to do.

What's going on?
What can I do to solve this issue?
Thank you in advance for answering!!!

Hail Zues!
Hail Astarte!
Hail Saloes!
Hail Leraji!
Hail Felix!
Hail the Gaurdians! Deamons/Deamons/Gods/Goddess!

 

[WiseDragon]

I'm not sure what to tell you about the pain you experience, because it never happened to me, but I can definitely tell you that this resistance that all of a sudden comes up when you have to do something Spiritual, is a real thing, especially in the beginning of your Path.

All types of thoughts can come up, 'reasons' why you should delay or do less, doubts, lack of motivation, fear and so on. These can come up during the first months and years of Initiation, but as you keep staying consistent, everything will become much easier.

The only solution is to keep going despite of the 'resistance' you feel.

As far as the pain that you experience goes, surely someone else will be able to give you better advice. Mine would be to increase protection and cleaning. If this pain only occurs when you vibrate Runes, maybe it's also because you're not breathing correctly, or you're not ready for so many repetitions (try with 5 instead of 10). Take more time when you do the Rituals, don't be in a hurry, and never force your breath.

 

[Acolyte Of Pan 666]

It could be some form of physical illness. Have a check up with a doctor to make sure that's not the case and rule that out first.

 

[Acolyte Of Pan 666]

If it's been happening for years, maybe some kind of condition.

 

[SkeletonHands]

Thank you for all the replies!!!! I will try them out and see if this gets better!!!

Really appreciate the time you all took out to answer me!!!

Hail Zues!
Hail Astarte!
Hail Saloes!
Hail Leraji!
Hail Felix!
Hail the Gaurdians! Hail the Godd/Goddess/Deamons/Deamoness!!!

 

[Acolyte Of Pan 666]

I was having some chest pains while sitting down a lot on the pc.

I checked with the doctor and they found nothing (do not assume it’s the same for you, check with the doctor as your situation may be different).

However, as I started doing hatha yoga, the pain went away completely.

Try doing hatha yoga and see if it helps:

https://satanslibrary.org/Hatha%20Yoga%20Sample%20Session.pdf

Btw you don’t have to do all of them. Do the ones you can. There are some here that I can’t do so I just skip them.

 

[Henu the Great]

Btw you don’t have to do all of them. Do the ones you can. There are some here that I can’t do so I just skip them.

It is better to find the easiest variation to a pose than to skip it altogether. Another viable option is to find an easier asana that targets the same area similarly, providing the required preparation for the more difficult one. Not doing something does not lead to advancement.

 

[Way_Seeker666]

Have you deprogrammed your mind from all christian/islam/enemy influences? This could be your subconscious fighting you from within because of the enemy's indoctrination.