Greetings.

I'm struggling a lot in keeping my faith in Gods. I know they exist, I just find it really hard to trust them mostly because they say they represent justice but I see no justice in the world and specially for myself. I think everything is hopeless and there is no way things will ever get better. Will they be okay with me if I leave? I think it's better for both me and Gods.
The Gods will only be "okay with you" in the sense that you won't have any trouble coming your way from the Gods. Obviously, as that's preposterous to even suggest and I just want to make doubly sure that you are aware of your ultimate freedom of choice - whether that leads you to evolution or devolution is your choice.
But I think this was moot to even mention and I believe that's what our beloved High Priestess Lydia was conveying on/from/through a higher level. The Gods won't be okay with you leaving in the same sense you would not be okay with your own beloved children quitting on life, educating themselves, working, self-improvement, etc. when you know,
know with absolute searing certainty as if carved into stone (for no less is even capable of depicting how exact, precise and complete the knowledge of the Gods is about everything, especially our potentials) that you are capable of so, oh so very much more. Imagine you sired/birthed the next Tesla. You
know this, it's not mere belief or a case of over-idealizing your own progeny. And they choose to not even graduate high school. How distraught would you be?
The Gods love you, They truly love you impossibly, ridiculously much. They know better than you ever could in 10 incarnations the literally divine potential you have - to reach ever higher heights and become a veritable lighthouse that shines the radiant light of Truth unto Their garden - this Earth. So, love thyself.
We don't
need you - there are tons of people joining every day. But we need
you, man/lady (sorry, I can't say for sure and I don't want to impose). There's no other Night Sky. If your soul is lost, there will never be another exactly like you. Live. Rise. Shake off the sleep of death the Zeitgeist dares to try pulling you under. Father never gave up on us when there were only a literal handful of His believers left - don't give up on Him and thus, yourself either. You can do this.
Baby steps. Just a bit of meditation every day (I'm fairly sure you fell off, it happens). Maybe a prayer or two to the Gods in your day - just talk to Them about your day lightly, or heavily direct these questions of yours to Them and ask for wisdom. And hey, Yule is around the corner. Do some God Rituals, especially the one to Father. Let Them remind you why everything matters, and matters so very dearly.
You've got this. You didn't board this ride because you thought it would be for a season - you boarded it for a
reason. Remember your reason. Fight. We'll watch your back, you'll watch ours.
My kindest wishes, well prayers and compassionate, yet firm love as well as our whole community stands with you. Do all of Creation proud.