Rectifying my love nature - what is the correct mindset here?

[sinbad]

I'm not really sure what I want out of love.

I want both stability and independence, but when a woman gives into me totally, I get bored of her. Yet at the same time that is what I want.

I am romantic to the extreme. But if I'm no longer able to chase, because she no longer resists, if there is no longer the cat and mouse game to play - my emotions go to zero.

Mind you, I don't behave in a toxic way.

It is one of the areas I don't understand myself at all.

If I saw a single flaw in the woman, whether physically or personality wise, I completely lose interest on an emotional level

How can I form deep and passionate and stable relationships, instead of crap out of an eternal romance novel which is unsustainabls in reality? And how can I become accepting of others flaws?

What is the correct mindset to have regarding relationships?

I am willing to sacrifice the game for something stable, but I need to install the "logical software" to overrite the previous attitude

 

[sinbad]

Another thing is when women get clingy it's annoying as shit because they want me to waste all my time on them and it becomes suffocating, but I do want to make them happy as well.

It'd be easier if I could just clone myself.

How to balance being a workaholic and a romantic at the same time?

 

[sinbad]

I guess more accurately than "game", would be to call it the "story"... I need the story to be interesting for the next 60 years, but they show me all their cards 1 month in, because of how infectious my emotions are. But I don't want to mute my emotions either.

It seems the only way I'd get what I want is to go after a girl who barely likes me, lol

 

[Edward Lonsa]

Greetings!

You say you do not do toxic things probably you mean you do not act like a mentally ill jew in their hallucination attack. But the meaning of toxic is destructive to others in any way or form, marring their lives, leading them into suicide, breaking their hearts, minds and destinies through carelessness and cruelty. And imagine now Virginal Woman with Victorian values who fell in fatal love and gave you her heart, her money, her art, her virginity - her Honor - for eternal belonging. You took it all and out of all sudden the game ended for you. But she is now left without Honor without Virginity, defamed, dishonored and ashamed of herself, blaming herself for being bad wife to you which she was not, and silently dying of sorrow when her God left and do not hear her tears, because Real Lady never disturbs others. This is a fate of Woman of Value in this world. Heartless whores and racial traitors survive. Real Woman dies in pain.

Now just imagine what if Demonic Lover Soul had somehow hypothetically come into this wold for a newbie what would have been done to her in this monstrous century? When the next mortal's game ends...

"These beings give their all." - High Priest Hooded Cobra 666

SEXUAL AND SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION.

This is from one of our fellow brothers, Hooded Cobra. In the hells army e groups he posted something about sex and spirituality.after some body posted a remark about sex that was very unnatural to say. What Hooded cobra wrote was very beautiful and I think that our younger and newer members...

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As for your question, what you describe is not love. When you love, it lasts for eternity and there is no games, no manipulations, no "resource" taken. It is not about theft, it is about productivity. It is a way of annihilating evil in your own self to give yourself to the other crystal pure. Not everyone can love. There are a lot who can't. Do Lady Astarte's ritual or ritual of any God you feel might help you in it not to ask them for freebie but to ask them to teach you to love and to respect life. They will definitely do it. This might come through extreme pain because you will see what you have done to the world. (I do not say it is necessarily your case, for example, if you never caused any real damage because your women also were unserious, but I say it might be). Love is a way of building and rectifying, creating and giving, it is making another immortal, accompanying and protecting them on their way to Godhead.

 

[sinbad]

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It is just talking to random girls online, and so I am confused about my love nature because my experience is mostly via mental communication.

The emotions were definitely real, but shallow because I need the full mind-body-soul experience to love someone.

Extrapolating that experience to IRL, I only vaguely know what I want out of love... since I did not receive much affection growing up, I don't have a frame of referrence for how love/affection is supposed to be expressed nor received despite my deep feeling... it just doesn't make sense to me, and I don't know where to begin to fix it.

For starters, I must ask you... what is the definition of "love" in the non-Jewish sense?

There is a girl I am interested in IRL, and Tarot says our compatibility is extremely high and I don't want to f*** it up by being retarded or overly guarded due to intimacy issues.

She is beautiful and high IQ and I will mostly enjoy building art projects together with her.

 

[Edward Lonsa]

It is just talking to random girls online, and so I am confused about my love nature because my experience is mostly via mental communication.

The emotions were definitely real, but shallow because I need the full mind-body-soul experience to love someone.

Extrapolating that experience to IRL, I only vaguely know what I want out of love... since I did not receive much affection growing up, I don't have a frame of referrence for how love/affection is supposed to be expressed nor received despite my deep feeling... it just doesn't make sense to me, and I don't know where to begin to fix it.

For starters, I must ask you... what is the definition of "love" in the non-Jewish sense?

There is a girl I am interested in IRL, and Tarot says our compatibility is extremely high and I don't want to f*** it up by being retarded or overly guarded due to intimacy issues.

She is beautiful and high IQ and I will mostly enjoy building art projects together with her.

Greetings, Brother! Sorry for the late reply.

Here I collected some works written on great love I could find of our own Gentile heritage - among other recommendations towards the end of the post:

books

hat zeevist-satanic books would you recommend me to read? what about these books about enki? is it not relevant anymore? if not then what books are worth reading?

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Be aware that some of them might contain things dictated by kikes and by the epoch such as that "women are incapable of deep feelings or of Pythagorean love" etc. Yet these very people admit that for such deep lasting bonds sides need to be high educated, high intellectually advanced and personally mature. In Medieval Age when most of these books were written, xian church did all to deprive women of any and all education or literacy, enforced lie about their "lower" or "more devilish" mind and "danger" of exposing such mind to any development, thus closed the doors of any and all educational institutions for them leaving them to rot in the lowest social roles such as that of a house servants. People without whatsoever education stays very sociopathic and a Mowgli case (illiterate jungle animal who can't function as a part of human society). They were forcibly made child bearing slaves or at least tried to be made so by xian church. Many educated heterosexual men suffered of inability to find an equal counterpart because of this maiming of society, and among those men seeking for great friendships and soul mating there were those who wrote those books I collected. And a lot of other men whose works I investigated on the subject of deep friendships and love, wrote of this issue of lack of women's proper development and socialization, which was a reason behind a lot of loneliness of that time. Since these relationship needs great maturity of mind and soul that only deep intellectual advancement may give.

It is just talking to random girls online, and so I am confused about my love nature because my experience is mostly via mental communication.

The emotions were definitely real, but shallow because I need the full mind-body-soul experience to love someone.

I would still recommend you to warn them of the level of seriousness of your true intentions, because who knows, not everyone needs full body-experience to raise deep powerful feelings, probably your girls are not your way and they might feel deep soul connection without meeting and be not ready for your so easy change of mind. I would think of them too.

 

[sinbad]

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Yes, the lack of mental capacity is pure anguish.

It is very difficult to find someone who is both intellectual and emotional that is also compatible.

But love feels pointless without it.

People tend towards lopsidedness, and only have one without the other.

It is boring, and devoid of any poetry.