My Absence and Grief

[Silverfire]

I have been absent from the forums and working on Spanish translations since April. I apologize for my weaknesses, as I should have been mentally and emotionally strong enough to handle my ails.
I am grateful for the job I obtained after an empowerment ritual, it has helped my financial situation immensely. The job advertised a work life balance, but I have only had 2 days off a month with 12 hour days. It was physically exhausting to say the least, and thanks to my Yoga and meditations have hung in there past my probation period. I had no time for much else other than preparing for the next day of wage slavery. Now I am on a 4 on 2 off schedule and roughly 10 hour days, thanks to my work ethic, I was selected for a support position.
While at this job my phone bricked and I had to get a new mobile phone that seems to rarely get workable signal. I live in deep woods rural area and the old company was bought out by one that has trash signal everywhere it seems.
My apologies to YeYe and SoaringEagle666 for seeming to ghost on the translations work. The webword was much to learn and doing it on mobile with sketchy signal seemed counter productive and I honestly could not handle it with the job and painful news about my half sister.
My half sister is dying from scleroderma and she was one of the highlights of my childhood.
We have been estranged as she acts much like my mother as an adult and I avoid her altogether. My mother told me that she doesn't really care that my sister is dying as she can do nothing to change it. She said that she wished she had not birthed either of us into this world. Said we robbed her of her youth from having us at such a young age. This hurt me deeply, but I should expect such things from her by now, as she has psychological issues and has psychologically abused me my entire life. She somehow cannot help it.
I foolishly stopped RTR and AOP, but I felt so tired and drained. I retreated to nature in my spare time as I have that blessing. I hunted herbs and game and mentally vented and seeked comfort in Father Satan and my Guardian, trusting and loving them and myself, instead of letting these events bring me down completely.
I feel as if I may need to return to beginner steps in JOS, such as High Priests 40 day program and focus on empowering Chakras more thoroughly. I feel I would not have sunk so low if I had not missed something.
I wish to obtain Godhead. That is what the Gods wish for us all and it is in our hands to do it. JOS has given me the tools and I am grateful for my Gods and SS family.

 

[Serbon]

I hope you get through this situation well and strong, I wish you all the blessings!

 

[AFODO]

I wish your half sister to get better.
No need to apologies realy non of these are your fault. Nobody expects anybody to obtain their contrubution works for the JoS in hard times and obviously the spiritual routine can fade away at very big downfalls.

It was a very good idea to get closer to nature and try to get closer to the gods that way. Never forget, and everybody should know that in these times the best and first thing you should do is to ask the gods for help. I have recieved a massive blessing from father Satan not so long ago, when I asked for help in a certain problem, not only I received a massive blessing but the problem is erased after a few days. Obviously for your situation it might take more than a few days but everything will go back to normal Im pretty sure. You will find a better job eventually, if you seek to.

Get yourself back to track brother, Hail Satan!

 

[Silverfire]

I hope you get through this situation well and strong, I wish you all the blessings!

Thank you Serbon. I have noticed you throughout my presence here and I have appreciated deeply your contributions despite the controversies about CBD usage and whatnot. Your aptitude in astrology inspired me to do my own endeavors in the field. I deeply appreciate your reply.
I also want to note that your sharing of B'Mitzpha B'peh ignited me to share this evil to my local Gentiles about the kike baby penis vampires. You were the first... your response is akin to a famed person giving me acknowledgement in this battle. I'll let you know now that your short response means loads to me. Thank you.
Godhead is of utmost importance to us all. You are an inspiration. I lost sight of the main goal of Godhead in the white noise, jewry, and overload of info. Godhead. We all need to focus on this undoubtedly. Especially mySELF.

 

[Silverfire]

I wish your half sister to get better.
No need to apologies realy non of these are your fault. Nobody expects anybody to obtain their contrubution works for the JoS in hard times and obviously the spiritual routine can fade away at very big downfalls.

It was a very good idea to get closer to nature and try to get closer to the gods that way. Never forget, and everybody should know that in these times the best and first thing you should do is to ask the gods for help. I have recieved a massive blessing from father Satan not so long ago, when I asked for help in a certain problem, not only I received a massive blessing but the problem is erased after a few days. Obviously for your situation it might take more than a few days but everything will go back to normal Im pretty sure. You will find a better job eventually, if you seek to.

Get yourself back to track brother, Hail Satan!

Thank you AFODO. You are new to me. I appreciate your words deeply, as I feel I cannot relate to NPCs whether they are my family or not. I have improved my job from within, from my own willpower and techniques learned here from JOS.
Thank you on your kudos to my nature connection.
It is my life, my ancestry, and how I connect to LIFE.
Your words helped me immensely. I thank you deeply.

 

[Silverfire]

I hope you get through this situation well and strong, I wish you all the blessings!

Thank you Serbon. Buer is a very important helper to me. He has helped me overcome powerful addictions, I consult Him regularly as He is most understanding in addictive behavior.
My addictions were unique and He understood... He spoke to me. He let me know that I am never alone. Thanks to you IMMENSELY!

 

[Serbon]

Thank you, I'm happy my response meant to you.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Things will get better, despite your current hardship. Do the RTR and God Rituals when you can, but don't be too hard on yourself when you can't do them. Life can be very complicated at times.

 

[Aquarius]

Welcome back Brother.

 

[Silverfire]

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Things will get better, despite your current hardship. Do the RTR and God Rituals when you can, but don't be too hard on yourself when you can't do them. Life can be very complicated at times.

Thank you Guardian Lydia. I appreciate your kindness and inspiring words. I plan on doing Astarte Ritual soon. Her motherly energies are miraculous and always soothing to me.

 

[Silverfire]

Welcome back Brother.

Thank you Brother. JOS is my home and family.
It feels good applying what I've learned here to my life.
Without these teachings, I would be in very bad shape.

 

[Silverfire]

YeYe95

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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You don't need to totally restart from the beginning of the 40 day program, although do not skip fundamentals if that is what you are missing.

In regards to your sister, you should seek alternative treatment for this, as modern medicine does a bad job with my chronic illness, in my opinion. Consult Valefor on your options. Healing her yourself is likely outside of your scope, but this could be one of the questions for him.

Yes, you were right to stop translations, as it was not practical for you to handle everything on so little time. Time is very precious as an SS. Try to do this working if you can: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=395481#p395481

In regards to your mother, these issues may have reflected in your own karma as well. A moon square or berkano could help your emotional pain. Also remember that she is not in the right mind: If she has her own psychological issues, then he brain simply isn't evaluating emotions like it should. It is not an "accurate" assessment of her relationship to you, so in that sense you shouldn't take it too personally.

Anyway, I hope things improve for you. Don't be too hard on yourself with these things.

 

[Silverfire]

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You don't need to totally restart from the beginning of the 40 day program, although do not skip fundamentals if that is what you are missing.

In regards to your sister, you should seek alternative treatment for this, as modern medicine does a bad job with my chronic illness, in my opinion. Consult Valefor on your options. Healing her yourself is likely outside of your scope, but this could be one of the questions for him.

Yes, you were right to stop translations, as it was not practical for you to handle everything on so little time. Time is very precious as an SS. Try to do this working if you can: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=395481#p395481

In regards to your mother, these issues may have reflected in your own karma as well. A moon square or berkano could help your emotional pain. Also remember that she is not in the right mind: If she has her own psychological issues, then he brain simply isn't evaluating emotions like it should. It is not an "accurate" assessment of her relationship to you, so in that sense you shouldn't take it too personally.

Anyway, I hope things improve for you. Don't be too hard on yourself with these things.

Thank you for this advice. I think I will go through the opening and empowering chakras meditations. I feel like like I am lacking there.
I will try Berkano as you suggested too.
I tried to suggest alternative treatments and even helped my sister a bit with digestion and energy issues with diet suggestions.
She refuses further help from me, maybe because of her pride?
Anyway clown world has turned her into someone I cannot stand to be around, and she merely teams up with my mother to verbally demoralize and slander me.
It was as though I lost her a long time ago and never realized it.
I'm grateful for the good times and grateful I was able to try my best with them both. Regardless of how they treat me.
I must stay focused on the path to Godhead and keep up Satan's work.