darkmonkey666
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I am posting this seperate since I don't want to hijack another thread but if someone can help great.
I can't fully remember it but what happened was on the night of the solstace I was trying to do as many rtrs as possible I put on a documentary on the Inquisition in the background on my TV to motivate me to do more. Well the next couple of weeks I felt really sad and like a painful feeling in my heart and throat area. I still have this pressure in my heart chakra that is not going away. Then I started feeling suicidal and empty and stuff and sad. I don't remember nothing from this other than during the show I kind of passed out or something idk but I was completely unaware of anything other than seeing myself next to a female that looked dressed like a nun lying on a bed on a dirt floor and we were discussing something about not being immortal spirituality and the God's and the sadness of having to be in this world something exactly like this then I woke up from the trance or whatever that was.
I can't pull back any of this but would like to get rid of this painful pressure in my heart Chakra that may be related to this.
This probably isn't the only one but this is apparently one of the past life Traumas for me another one was more recent where I may have been murdered or kidnapped by someone with a Gun I don't per say remember that as much now but when I was younger I kept seeing myself at this beach in dreams or something where someone had a gun pointed at me and a friend or lover or something I felt this complete emptiness and sadness or whatever and like I knew it was all over and this was the end we were sitting there toghether no one else was at this it looked like a park somewhere that had swimming but looked abandon at the time we were there. The guy kept pointing the gun at us or something and ranting on and on about stuff. That was scary memory and even I think once dream.
I can't fully remember it but what happened was on the night of the solstace I was trying to do as many rtrs as possible I put on a documentary on the Inquisition in the background on my TV to motivate me to do more. Well the next couple of weeks I felt really sad and like a painful feeling in my heart and throat area. I still have this pressure in my heart chakra that is not going away. Then I started feeling suicidal and empty and stuff and sad. I don't remember nothing from this other than during the show I kind of passed out or something idk but I was completely unaware of anything other than seeing myself next to a female that looked dressed like a nun lying on a bed on a dirt floor and we were discussing something about not being immortal spirituality and the God's and the sadness of having to be in this world something exactly like this then I woke up from the trance or whatever that was.
I can't pull back any of this but would like to get rid of this painful pressure in my heart Chakra that may be related to this.
This probably isn't the only one but this is apparently one of the past life Traumas for me another one was more recent where I may have been murdered or kidnapped by someone with a Gun I don't per say remember that as much now but when I was younger I kept seeing myself at this beach in dreams or something where someone had a gun pointed at me and a friend or lover or something I felt this complete emptiness and sadness or whatever and like I knew it was all over and this was the end we were sitting there toghether no one else was at this it looked like a park somewhere that had swimming but looked abandon at the time we were there. The guy kept pointing the gun at us or something and ranting on and on about stuff. That was scary memory and even I think once dream.